"What did he say to you? Tell me everything." Dey stood outside on the porch addressing Valheru, Bast and another Gamatom, Vernon, while they lounged about in the afternoon shade.
After he'd sucked his brother off, Quin hadn't wanted anything to do with him, leaving Dey feeling burned and unsatisfied. Fine. He was going to find out about this secret whether Quin helped him or not. It wasn't good for their leader to get wrapped up like this emotionally and he was going to do his best to bring Cade to justice for the turmoil he'd caused them. It wasn't enough that he had to be antisocial - fine. If he didn't want to be in the pack anymore, the damned idiot could leave and get himself killed either by them or by another pack somewhere else. Good riddance. But this constant drama whoring was affecting the pack and Dey wasn't the only one who noticed.
"Exactly what I told you," Valheru said, his deep bass voice rolling with each word in a blithe manner. He'd become increasingly aware of the tension between the two brothers who led their pack and he wasn't one to split loyalties and didn't like being forced to. But Dey made excellent points about this Cade business, which, no matter about the rogue attack and whatever else; it should have been dealt with in a firm manner or at the very least let go. Quin had made a mistake not keeping a firmer eye on the Gamatom and now they were cleaning up the mess. He didn't like it, and he'd help Dey because he offered a better solution than just sitting around waiting for the disobedient Gamatom to show up again.
"He nearly bit my head off when I asked about the library, which at the time... you know I just assumed it was Cade being Cade. Nobody wants to be up that early in the morning and he seemed to cool down when I told him how mad Quin was."
"And when you asked why he was there?" Dey pressed, giving the large Gamatom a narrowed look, his fingers playing idly with his bottom lip.
Valheru shrugged in a exhausted and defensive manner. "Exactly what he said to Quin the other morning; he'd dragged himself into shelter until he healed or whatever." Dey nodded but the thoughtful scowl on his face did not mean he was pleased with that answer. Then something caught his eye and he looked up at Vernon.
The lanky Gamatom sat perched on the porch railing with his back against a column, long features drawn out wioth a weary and bored expression. and in his unnaturally long and skinny fingers, he sat playing with red paper that was torn and folded. Dey's green eyes widened. "What is that? Where did you get that?"
"Found it," Vernon said with a shrug and smug little smirk. The expression was instantly wiped off his face as Dey jumped up and grabbed him by the shirt, growling in his face.
"Don't fuck with me, asshole! This is Cade's! Where. Did. You. Find. It." Hands swiftly snatched the folded piece of paper from the other's hands and released him with a sharp jerk, looking over the small paper. It was definitely like the other one that Quin had, except it was different, torn and looking less like a bird and more like just a really folded...thing. He assumed it was from Vernon's constant playing with it that had warped it so.
"The night he beat the shit out of Bast... It was on the floor. Thought it looked weird, so I kept it," Vernon's tone sputtered out unevenly, rubbing at the neck of his T-shirt where the other had grabbed him. Still, he glared at the other Gamatom, who was dominant, true, but he didn't have to listen to him; he wasn't the gang leader even though Dey liked to act like he was.
Nodding slightly, Dey brought the paper to his nose and inhaled deeply several times, breaths filling and exiting his lungs in long, slow drawls. It was covered in different signatures and although the sun wilted his natural abilities, he could still detect most of them. First and foremost, it smelled like Gamatom - there was Vernon's sweat and oils on it most clearly but also Cade's just as strong on it. Then underneath that, it was that old musty smell that was most definitely the library. And underneath it was...something else.
Walking over to where his lover, Bast sat on the ground, he crouched beside him and offered the red paper creature to him. "What is that?" he asked in a wondering tone, hoping that Bast's particular sense of smell might be able to shed light where his failed.
Bast held the paper in his hands, looking it over and gave a shrug, "Looks like a plane... or a dog...maybe."
Frowning, Dey gave the man a swift smack on the back of his head, getting a small "ow" from him in response. "
Smell it."
Laughing a little, Bast put it to his face and breathed in deep, smirking lewdly. "Woohoo! That's sexy!" he said and cast a look over at Vernon who stuck his tongue out and grabbed the crotch of his pants in a lascivious manner. Bast got a punch in the arm and Dey took the bird thing from him and stood with a growl in his throat.
"Ow! JeeeEEEeez, Dey! I don't fuckin' know what that is! Gawd! It's just fruit or somethin'!" and he rubbed at his arm woundedly for a few minutes before something like a lightbulb clicked in his head. Actually...it was kind of familiar. "Hey...wait, lemme see it again..."
"Forget it. Enough of your jokes. You're banned from talking again. Just shut up and look pretty for the rest of the day," Dey said curtly.
"Chill, a'right? Lemme SEE it!"
Something about Bast's tone got him another considering look and with a reluctant sigh, Dey handed the folded bird back to him fully expecting Bast to make another idiot comment.
Instead, Bast held it to his nose again and for once looked like he was concentrating - that empty space in his skull got some use afterall - before looking back up at the other man. "I know what that is."
***
It felt so good to be able to hold her like this again, her smaller form pressed up against his, soft breaths warming his skin where they fell against his chest, not just comforting in knowing she was breathing and alive, but also...reminding him of the night they'd shared. It was different now and he knew he wouldn't feel completely right about it until she was sitting up on her own and talking to him again, but it was still pleasant all the same.
Cade was slightly nervous about what the future would bring, but he was excited as well. This was sort of what he wanted, the morning after that fateful night. What he'd imagined was possible and all that had been really holding him back before was a loyalty that felt completely ridiculous and superficial now. What he had with Ishu was love, REAL love and he couldn't believe even after what they'd shared together, he still hadn't been willing to give up everything for her.
Shaking his head, he let out a sigh and caressed her back. It didn't matter now. He'd made his decision and nothing was going to keep him from her. That brought up the fact that Quin had sent those others to go looking for him and he knew even if the search ended and they gave up, he'd still have to be careful to make sure they didn't know he was still in the city. Either that or...he'd need to leave and that just presented a whole mess of problems as far as what to expect out there. Nowhere was safe.
And then there was the problems he was having with himself and...Haijime... He made a soft sound his throat, glaring at nothing as he shifted slightly around the woman in his arms before settling once more. He loved her. He LOVED Ishu. And he even knew the reasons behind his attraction to her brother and that it had nothing even remotely close to do with love. Still...with the way Ishu seemed to silence the urges within him about everything else...he'd expected her presence to be like a shield...to protect the other man... Then again, she hadn't completely stifled his urge for blood that other night; she'd simply kept it from being directed at herself, which he was endlessly thankful for. He would have never forgiven himself if he'd hurt her while locked in that animal rage.
It all came back to the pressure to change and whether or not he'd be able to do it. It wasn't enough to leave the brethren and not participate in their madness any more. It wasn't enough to run and hide in Ishu's arms and try and find her reasons for loving him as justification that he was doing "well". He needed to actually make the effort to reject it all within himself as well. And last night, if it'd proved anything, like the nights before, it was that he was weak.
Well, she was here now and he had a duty to not only protect her but be worthy of her love. It would not be good for either of them to constantly endanger the people she was around, if he couldn't control himself and love would not be enough then. Cade kissed the crown of her head, making a soft noise with it as he silently vowed to himself and her, no matter what, he wasn't going to touch her brother or another human being ever again. He could do it. If he wanted to be with her and be accepted as something other than a beast needing to be caged...he was going to have to.
***
Jennifer smiled excitedly when he said that he would be opening the shop again and nodded her head. "You know... If you ever... I mean, I could help you clean it up and fix things up again... If you need it." She thought she'd offer even though she had no idea how bad it was or even if he'd want her help, but she felt a connection with him. Not just because he was kinda cute and a nice guy but also...she knew what it was like to be a victim of these creatures. Maybe not to the extent that he did, but she'd lost someone and almost got attacked herself. In these confusing and tumultuous times, they needed to support each other.
He was getting ready to leave and she added one more thing before he was stepping away, "When you see Cane, tell him I said 'Up and down and front to back; twice a day.' He'll know what that means." And she nodded again with a small giggle.
***
Out in front of the gate where he'd chased that little whore the other night, the four of them stood. "She went through here, you said?" Dey asked, walking up to the gate and giving it a small jerk before turning to look at Bast.
The shorter Gamatom nodded, squinting in the afternoon sunlight directly overhead. "Yeah, I almost had the bitch and she slammed it in my face. If Cade hadn't broken my ribs and leg the night before, I woulda been able to jump it and grab her. Probably coulda caught her before she got in there too."
"And you're sure that it's the same smell?" Dey asked, holding the bars of the gate loosely, glancing at both Valheru and Vernon who stood on either side of the other before giving the younger Gamatom a level look.
Bast was nodding excitedly now, his hand jerking out to point roughly at the gate. "I would never forget that cunt's smell! Fuckin' reeked!"
Dey had no doubt; Bast wasn't the most reliable, being the youngest of their group and constantly goofing off, but he believed him about this. And definitely the younger man's sense of smell could be trusted. Turning back to the gate, Dey looked at the bars and key pad thoughtfully and looked through them to the building beyond. How did this relate to anything...? What was with these goddammed paper birds?
"Do you want to break in and search her out?" Valheru asked, Bast standing by his side practically a midget compared to his much larger girth and height. The younger Gamatom was jumping eagerly on his heels now, tongue hanging out the side of smiling lips; sweet! They'd capture the prey that had gotten away!
Dey let out a sigh and shook his head, glancing at the sun - still several hours to go until sundown. After sunset, nothing would be able to touch them, not even bullets, but right now...too risky. "No. I don't even know if it's important or not. No. We'll search the library again, EVERY room this time." He let his hand fall away from the bars and stalked away, the other three following dutifully behind.