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Images of death and torment flickered through Eve’s mind like film on a spool as she tried unsuccessfully to wrench herself from the nightmare that seemed to come more frequently the longer she remained here. One minute there was a young man with half of his jaw ripped off, yet he still managed to scream for help, to scream for his mother through the steady stream of blood that spilled. The next moment she found herself curled into a ball as bloodied heads laughed around her in a circle, taunting her, threatening her against the backdrop of dropped bombs, gunshots, and screaming men.
“You stupid little girl. Running from one problem straight into another. Did you think you could really get away?” She shook her head as she lay in bed, face flushed as she denied the words in her dreams.
“Stop!”
“What purpose do you serve here? No one wants you here. You’ve killed more men than you’ve saved, damned so many to a lifetime of pain. How can you call yourself a Christian? Why don’t you do us all a favor and take yourself out of this misery? We have better use of you down here.” Another talking head, this one with the voice of her own father spoke to something she tried her best not to think about.
“Leave me alone!” The scream in her dream world, mirrored itself in the waking as Eve shot up in bed, chest heaving, eyes eyed before quickly shielding them from the stream of light that illuminated the room. Her hands instinctively wiped the sweat from her forward as she closed her mouth and took deep breaths through her nose, her other hand coming to rest beneath her breast and over her heart to calm the adrenaline rushing through her. She didn’t understand where these nightmares were coming from.
Eve had been on the base for over 4 months now, tending to the sick and praying over them with the Chaplain as one of two nuns present. Her medical experience made her invaluable here, but it also meant that she witnessed things that no human should see over a short period of time. With one last breath and a look at the clock on her bedside, she pulled the covers back from herself and stood up. She didn’t have time to mull over meaningless dreams when she was already running late. Neat, trim fingers made quick work of removing her silk headscarf and night gown to reveal coiled black hair braided down her back and smooth cinnamon skin. She pulled out a plain pair of simple white underwear before donning the many layers of her habit.
Once done, she picked up her rosary and emerald ring on her desk - placing the keepsake on her middle finger and wrapping the rosary around her wrist - before leaving her room and making her way towards the tight hallway to church. There were a few men walking the hallway and she nodded her head as they said good morning. Eve wasn’t the most outgoing woman in the world but those on base found her to be kind, helpful, and comforting in her own way. That didn’t stop a few of them from doing their best to try to get to know her on a deeper level. Afterall, there weren’t too many women on base, and fewer still who looked like Eve. It wasn’t something she took pride in, but she received enough comments about her body as she became the woman that she is today to know that men lusted after it. The desire to keep that lust as bay is part of the reason she became a nun. The thought of dirty, tainted, worldly flesh touching her own disgusted her. Man in general did, but she couldn’t separate herself from the flock, the only thing she could do was put in the work to be closer to God and rise about the sin that she was born into.
Eve smoothed the front of her garment once she arrived at the church doors before opening them as softly as she could, cognizant that the Chaplain had already begun prayer. Sunlight spilled through stained glass windows in liquid jewels—rubies, sapphires, emeralds—that danced along marbled aisles and worn benches. Each timbered beam and carved arch murmured secrets of saints and sins forgiven as the thick smell of incense filled the air. She immediately felt a sense of peace wash over her, made deeper by the tone of voice in the only man she’d ever wanted to get closer to. She nodded as her chestnut eyes met with the priest’s, apology clear in her face as she sat quickly in one of the back pews.
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