- Joined
- Dec 29, 2014
- Location
- Central US
"So her head is sideways, at this point, her horns are wedged..."
Gaelyn continued on with the story of a baby dragon in an adult body without missing a beat. It ended with Kisa going through the doorway backwards, tail whipping around the hallway and properly jump-scaring a group of passing first-years as a full-sized dragon whipped from a dorm room and started battering about the hallway trying to free its horns from a doorway that did not yield. The imagery had even the cool-headed Nitani and stone-faced Tessa snorting and holding their sides, while Beillahn and Roki had lost their rights to oxygen.
Even without their link, Gaelyn would have noticed Ivy's disappearance. Despite his high spirits, he had never stopped being both aware and wary of her at the table, determined to help her feel like she fit in but cognizant that this was a shift of stark contrast for her that would likely require an adjustment period before it felt right. And so when she disappeared, his eyes flicked to one side to follow her. As they did, he met Nitani's eyes who, as a light drinker, was not nearly far gone enough to not watch her expertly lean backwards out of the limelight and disappear at the peak of a joke.
The two shared a second of eye contact. Nitani nodded, and Gaelyn nodded back.
"...an' o'course they were first years! Would've been too easy if they'd been 'ere more'n a month, but—"
"Slipping for a piss, back in a moment."
"—aye, heard—but a senior wouldn't've peed themselves like that!"
Gaelyn's personal rune, traced on the bottom of the table, had Directed the attention away from him, and so his mention of slipping away was barely registered by those gathered. As he stood, the only eyes that noticed were Nitani's, who had been exempted from the effect of the sigil as it was traced. Kisa did not move—her psychic link with them was fully aware of their mental landscapes, and as such she had known about this incoming outburst before any of them.
He could have found her with his eyes closed, but walking whilst intoxicated was a dangerous pastime so he kept them open as he slipped into the halls and trotted his way up a flight of stairs, circling around the interior of the tower to let himself out in the walkways above the Great Hall. A break in the wall led to an outdoor balcony, and Gaelyn made for the door.
As he passed through the doorway, he touched the wall, tracing a rune into it to shift the Direction of light away from the doorway and guarantee their privacy.
"Colder up here than down there," he murmured from behind her as he loped up to the railing, leaning forward on his elbows and casting his gaze out over the academy. Below them was the central square that had hosted Commencement that morning, stretching as far as the eye could see in the failing light—as far as his eyes could, anyway. He suspected that Ivy's affinity for the dark meant she could see well beyond the edge of the horizon at night. "Hoping you wouldn't be missed?"
She sensed him before she saw or heard his approach, the tickling sensation of their bond snapping back into satisfaction. It was why she did not turn, and only hummed acknowledgement of his initial observation.
It was his question in the end, that drifted a somewhat introspective response from her, "Something like that."
Another beat of contemplative silence passed before she continued, with a little more vulnerability and naturally, gentle tease to counter it; "I didn't expect anyone to follow. It's… colder up here than down there."
Gaelyn looked over to her for a long moment. Without changing his posture, he scooted sideways, sliding along the railing until his hips and flank touched hers. "So what's the deal?" he asked, cocking his head sideways wryly. "You're brilliant and charming and funny and pretty; why did you spend eight years being completely insufferable when you clearly—" he gestured back down towards the hall with one twisting wrist "—could have had proper friends?"
"Brilliant, charming, funny and pretty? How much have you actually drank?" There was an imperceptible lean of her shoulder against his however, despite her teasing, and her smile grew briefly at the first part of his question. "Oh wait, we're back." She wasn't insulted though because she knew he was right; and besides, she'd thought the same about him. It was something that they shared.
She looked back out at the mountains before speaking. "Because… I didn't know any better?" she tried. "Because… that wasn't why I came here. Because…" Then she sighed, deflating at her own avoidance. "Because I wanted to be a rider, even though I always knew I wasn't built for it and… my mother wanted that too, even though she knew the same."
"Mm," Gaelyn grunted from the back of his throat, but the sound was pensive, not dismissive. "Professor Mindya spoke of that mindset once," he announced, drawing to memory the image of the diminutive woman who he had served as their history and world knowledge professor. "Despite it being about you and your dragon, at the end of the day, Kaarm exists because we're all on the same team. Different places, maybe, doing different things, but always to the same end. Same same, but different."
At his word, a thought occurred to him sparkling out of the blue like electric snow. "Do you think that is what really stopped you, maybe? Trying to be a lone wolf? Because Fate has a funny way of being a proper bastard sometimes and it would be just like her to tell you that you could be what you wanted to be but only if you didn't do it alone." He let his words hang on the gravity of their connection, glancing up at her curiously.
"I wasn't trying to be a lone wolf," Ivy prickled, just a little, but the claws retracted as quickly as they had appeared in the wake of what Gaelyn was saying to her. "I didn't think about it at all, really. I was too focused to even consider anyone else. I don't know which is more pathetic." Ivy shook her head and sighed again but when a new thought occurred to her she turned to glance down at Gaelyn as he did up to her. Her voice was softer when she spoke again, quieter. "Are you trying to tell me that… I don't have to go it alone, Gaelyn?"
When their eyes met, he let his gaze linger for a drawn out, intimate moment, gold resting on obsidian for two breaths. Then, slowly, quietly, he nodded, bouncing his head and curling his lips into a sentimental smile. "Yeah... Yeah, I am," he said finally, voice almost a whisper. "Tessa's already looking into how to register a bond in triplicate, and if there's no way, she reckons that if we just omit you from the paperwork, I could 'hire' you as an apprentice, and you could just... never graduate." He chewed the inside of his cheek. "It's not glamorous, I know, but it's all legal, and you could ride on-grounds without anyone ever asking questions."
She hadn't realized she was holding her breath until Gaelyn smiled and Ivy blinked, as if released from the moment. She looked away at his confession, though her brow furrowed at the mention of Tessa. "Tessa's looking into that?" She asked quietly, guilt tingling at the back of her neck for her earlier thoughts. "But I thought that she…" Ivy didn't finish that sentence however, as she tried to consider the actual information rather than her stupid, dumb, stupid feelings.
Gaelyn's brows twitched up expectantly, but when she carried on, he let her.
"At this point, I'll take anything," she eventually admitted on an exhale. "Anything that means I get to keep Kisa and y…" A pause. "And our bond." Her cheeks flared a little and she found herself once more, grateful for the darkness. "Turns out being a lone wolf is sort of overrated." Those words at least, were punctuated with a smile and a bump of her shoulder against his before she settled and spoke again, the thing that had been on her mind since she had left the hall. The thing she didn't want to talk about, but the thing she couldn't ignore either.
"So… you and Tessa are pretty close, huh?"
Gaelyn was still a half-gallon of wine deep, but missing the break in her speech would have been impossible unless he had gone deaf and not realized it. He let it slide, for now, but filed that thought away for later examination. Much later. Perhaps never.
"We go all the way back to primary," he answered her with a brisk nod. "Same age, same classes, basically had her as a study buddy and practice partner for some twenty years, now. She got accepted as a Rider two years later than me, so she's a bit behind me on her dragon, and that was really the first time our paths split."
Ivy nodded, realizing she didn't feel any better for asking. "Must have been weird to not have her by your side after all that time. It doesn't seem to have affected either of you too much though. Anyone can see you're both… well, y'know." She waved her hand and then as if she had sobered and suddenly remembered where she was, Ivy swung one leg over the railing and then the other so that she was facing the opposite way, her feet finally back on solid ground. She paused again however, rather than moving any further.
"Before we go back inside… can I ask you something? And will you promise to answer me truthfully?"
Gaelyn tilted his head a fraction, leaning on one arm to peer up at her. "Sure. Promise."
Ivy looked at him again, eyes skittering over his features in the shadows. "Why did you follow me out here?"
"Ghosting away from the table," Gaelyn answered right away, "is rarely a sign that anything good is going on up there." He leaned his head to tap the side of it with one perched arm. "I was concerned. Am, concerned."
He only paused for a moment to consider his following words. "The circumstances that brought us together are what they are. The moment's passed. I could live forever pissed with you and make us both miserable, or we can make the best of it—and really, I could have gotten much, much less lucky with who could have walked around that corner."
Ivy didn't speak for long moments after his answer, contemplating the words, what they meant and how they made her feel. In the end she simply… nodded. "Okay. Thank you for answering honestly." Then she pushed up from the wall and exhaled a breath, before tilting her head back towards the building.
"Shall we?"
That they had left separately did not change the fact that they returned together. Beillahn, of course, saw them first, and called out, "Oi, 'bout time! A man and woman alone together are rarely saying prayers, what were y'up to?"
"No more than you," Tessa cut in smoothly, gesturing with her flute, now empty, at Beillahn. "You didn't even notice until the server came by to pour you more wine."
"I cer'ainly did notice!" the artificer retorted, but then Nitani spoke up.
"You noticed an empty cup," he corrected. "You noticed that your cup was empty, and that there was an empty cup on the table, and then you realized that Gaelyn had gone."
"Well I—"
"I swear, you're a lighter weight every year, Lahny."
"I am not a light—"
"We should maybe put her back in white," Nitani proclaimed, alluding to the white robes worn by novices their first years at primary.
Aghast, Beillahn slammed her hand on the table and leaned forward on it, a virulent grin breaking her cherubic face in half. "You think I'm goin' back into whites you're mental," she spat, and off her tirade went, Gaelyn and Ivy's absence now long forgotten as she pulled Roki into the drinking contest of honor that was to ensue. Nitani and Tessa both exchanged self-satisfied nods and winks with the returning Riders, and Gaelyn offered an appreciative tilt of his head in return. Having politicians for friends was worthwhile, sometimes.
Barely another hour passed before the Great Hall started to clear out. The torches were dim in their sconces, the food long since removed for sweet and pastries that had themselves now gone cold. Nearly every table had a stack of empty decanters at its heel that was being steadily collected by the pages and whites and carted off to the kitchens for washing. Laughs had become yawns, and limbs started to stretch stiffly, connected to full bellies and weary bodies.
As Gaelyn wandered into the hall, he lagged behind the rest of his cohort, spinning a message and sending it through the proverbial tube through his bond with Ivy. He had left ahead of her to dislodge any further accusations or comments, but she was the first and foremost thing on his mind as he plodded into the dim torchlight of the corridors. "I'll leave my door unlocked for another half hour. Tessa will be sleeping in the eyries, now I—"
Even as the message composed itself his mind, he felt the third tug on the bond take offense to those words. A skittering came from behind him, and he nearly jumped out of his skin as something scaly and sharp darted up his leg. When Kisa's tiny head poked over his shoulder and leveled her eyes with him, he would have fallen over if not for the hand he lurched out with to grab the wall.
As he recovered and trudged off towards his dorm, he sent an addendum. "Never mind, I guess. Kisa's small again."
Gaelyn continued on with the story of a baby dragon in an adult body without missing a beat. It ended with Kisa going through the doorway backwards, tail whipping around the hallway and properly jump-scaring a group of passing first-years as a full-sized dragon whipped from a dorm room and started battering about the hallway trying to free its horns from a doorway that did not yield. The imagery had even the cool-headed Nitani and stone-faced Tessa snorting and holding their sides, while Beillahn and Roki had lost their rights to oxygen.
Even without their link, Gaelyn would have noticed Ivy's disappearance. Despite his high spirits, he had never stopped being both aware and wary of her at the table, determined to help her feel like she fit in but cognizant that this was a shift of stark contrast for her that would likely require an adjustment period before it felt right. And so when she disappeared, his eyes flicked to one side to follow her. As they did, he met Nitani's eyes who, as a light drinker, was not nearly far gone enough to not watch her expertly lean backwards out of the limelight and disappear at the peak of a joke.
The two shared a second of eye contact. Nitani nodded, and Gaelyn nodded back.
"...an' o'course they were first years! Would've been too easy if they'd been 'ere more'n a month, but—"
"Slipping for a piss, back in a moment."
"—aye, heard—but a senior wouldn't've peed themselves like that!"
Gaelyn's personal rune, traced on the bottom of the table, had Directed the attention away from him, and so his mention of slipping away was barely registered by those gathered. As he stood, the only eyes that noticed were Nitani's, who had been exempted from the effect of the sigil as it was traced. Kisa did not move—her psychic link with them was fully aware of their mental landscapes, and as such she had known about this incoming outburst before any of them.
He could have found her with his eyes closed, but walking whilst intoxicated was a dangerous pastime so he kept them open as he slipped into the halls and trotted his way up a flight of stairs, circling around the interior of the tower to let himself out in the walkways above the Great Hall. A break in the wall led to an outdoor balcony, and Gaelyn made for the door.
As he passed through the doorway, he touched the wall, tracing a rune into it to shift the Direction of light away from the doorway and guarantee their privacy.
"Colder up here than down there," he murmured from behind her as he loped up to the railing, leaning forward on his elbows and casting his gaze out over the academy. Below them was the central square that had hosted Commencement that morning, stretching as far as the eye could see in the failing light—as far as his eyes could, anyway. He suspected that Ivy's affinity for the dark meant she could see well beyond the edge of the horizon at night. "Hoping you wouldn't be missed?"
She sensed him before she saw or heard his approach, the tickling sensation of their bond snapping back into satisfaction. It was why she did not turn, and only hummed acknowledgement of his initial observation.
It was his question in the end, that drifted a somewhat introspective response from her, "Something like that."
Another beat of contemplative silence passed before she continued, with a little more vulnerability and naturally, gentle tease to counter it; "I didn't expect anyone to follow. It's… colder up here than down there."
Gaelyn looked over to her for a long moment. Without changing his posture, he scooted sideways, sliding along the railing until his hips and flank touched hers. "So what's the deal?" he asked, cocking his head sideways wryly. "You're brilliant and charming and funny and pretty; why did you spend eight years being completely insufferable when you clearly—" he gestured back down towards the hall with one twisting wrist "—could have had proper friends?"
"Brilliant, charming, funny and pretty? How much have you actually drank?" There was an imperceptible lean of her shoulder against his however, despite her teasing, and her smile grew briefly at the first part of his question. "Oh wait, we're back." She wasn't insulted though because she knew he was right; and besides, she'd thought the same about him. It was something that they shared.
She looked back out at the mountains before speaking. "Because… I didn't know any better?" she tried. "Because… that wasn't why I came here. Because…" Then she sighed, deflating at her own avoidance. "Because I wanted to be a rider, even though I always knew I wasn't built for it and… my mother wanted that too, even though she knew the same."
"Mm," Gaelyn grunted from the back of his throat, but the sound was pensive, not dismissive. "Professor Mindya spoke of that mindset once," he announced, drawing to memory the image of the diminutive woman who he had served as their history and world knowledge professor. "Despite it being about you and your dragon, at the end of the day, Kaarm exists because we're all on the same team. Different places, maybe, doing different things, but always to the same end. Same same, but different."
At his word, a thought occurred to him sparkling out of the blue like electric snow. "Do you think that is what really stopped you, maybe? Trying to be a lone wolf? Because Fate has a funny way of being a proper bastard sometimes and it would be just like her to tell you that you could be what you wanted to be but only if you didn't do it alone." He let his words hang on the gravity of their connection, glancing up at her curiously.
"I wasn't trying to be a lone wolf," Ivy prickled, just a little, but the claws retracted as quickly as they had appeared in the wake of what Gaelyn was saying to her. "I didn't think about it at all, really. I was too focused to even consider anyone else. I don't know which is more pathetic." Ivy shook her head and sighed again but when a new thought occurred to her she turned to glance down at Gaelyn as he did up to her. Her voice was softer when she spoke again, quieter. "Are you trying to tell me that… I don't have to go it alone, Gaelyn?"
When their eyes met, he let his gaze linger for a drawn out, intimate moment, gold resting on obsidian for two breaths. Then, slowly, quietly, he nodded, bouncing his head and curling his lips into a sentimental smile. "Yeah... Yeah, I am," he said finally, voice almost a whisper. "Tessa's already looking into how to register a bond in triplicate, and if there's no way, she reckons that if we just omit you from the paperwork, I could 'hire' you as an apprentice, and you could just... never graduate." He chewed the inside of his cheek. "It's not glamorous, I know, but it's all legal, and you could ride on-grounds without anyone ever asking questions."
She hadn't realized she was holding her breath until Gaelyn smiled and Ivy blinked, as if released from the moment. She looked away at his confession, though her brow furrowed at the mention of Tessa. "Tessa's looking into that?" She asked quietly, guilt tingling at the back of her neck for her earlier thoughts. "But I thought that she…" Ivy didn't finish that sentence however, as she tried to consider the actual information rather than her stupid, dumb, stupid feelings.
Gaelyn's brows twitched up expectantly, but when she carried on, he let her.
"At this point, I'll take anything," she eventually admitted on an exhale. "Anything that means I get to keep Kisa and y…" A pause. "And our bond." Her cheeks flared a little and she found herself once more, grateful for the darkness. "Turns out being a lone wolf is sort of overrated." Those words at least, were punctuated with a smile and a bump of her shoulder against his before she settled and spoke again, the thing that had been on her mind since she had left the hall. The thing she didn't want to talk about, but the thing she couldn't ignore either.
"So… you and Tessa are pretty close, huh?"
Gaelyn was still a half-gallon of wine deep, but missing the break in her speech would have been impossible unless he had gone deaf and not realized it. He let it slide, for now, but filed that thought away for later examination. Much later. Perhaps never.
"We go all the way back to primary," he answered her with a brisk nod. "Same age, same classes, basically had her as a study buddy and practice partner for some twenty years, now. She got accepted as a Rider two years later than me, so she's a bit behind me on her dragon, and that was really the first time our paths split."
Ivy nodded, realizing she didn't feel any better for asking. "Must have been weird to not have her by your side after all that time. It doesn't seem to have affected either of you too much though. Anyone can see you're both… well, y'know." She waved her hand and then as if she had sobered and suddenly remembered where she was, Ivy swung one leg over the railing and then the other so that she was facing the opposite way, her feet finally back on solid ground. She paused again however, rather than moving any further.
"Before we go back inside… can I ask you something? And will you promise to answer me truthfully?"
Gaelyn tilted his head a fraction, leaning on one arm to peer up at her. "Sure. Promise."
Ivy looked at him again, eyes skittering over his features in the shadows. "Why did you follow me out here?"
"Ghosting away from the table," Gaelyn answered right away, "is rarely a sign that anything good is going on up there." He leaned his head to tap the side of it with one perched arm. "I was concerned. Am, concerned."
He only paused for a moment to consider his following words. "The circumstances that brought us together are what they are. The moment's passed. I could live forever pissed with you and make us both miserable, or we can make the best of it—and really, I could have gotten much, much less lucky with who could have walked around that corner."
Ivy didn't speak for long moments after his answer, contemplating the words, what they meant and how they made her feel. In the end she simply… nodded. "Okay. Thank you for answering honestly." Then she pushed up from the wall and exhaled a breath, before tilting her head back towards the building.
"Shall we?"
That they had left separately did not change the fact that they returned together. Beillahn, of course, saw them first, and called out, "Oi, 'bout time! A man and woman alone together are rarely saying prayers, what were y'up to?"
"No more than you," Tessa cut in smoothly, gesturing with her flute, now empty, at Beillahn. "You didn't even notice until the server came by to pour you more wine."
"I cer'ainly did notice!" the artificer retorted, but then Nitani spoke up.
"You noticed an empty cup," he corrected. "You noticed that your cup was empty, and that there was an empty cup on the table, and then you realized that Gaelyn had gone."
"Well I—"
"I swear, you're a lighter weight every year, Lahny."
"I am not a light—"
"We should maybe put her back in white," Nitani proclaimed, alluding to the white robes worn by novices their first years at primary.
Aghast, Beillahn slammed her hand on the table and leaned forward on it, a virulent grin breaking her cherubic face in half. "You think I'm goin' back into whites you're mental," she spat, and off her tirade went, Gaelyn and Ivy's absence now long forgotten as she pulled Roki into the drinking contest of honor that was to ensue. Nitani and Tessa both exchanged self-satisfied nods and winks with the returning Riders, and Gaelyn offered an appreciative tilt of his head in return. Having politicians for friends was worthwhile, sometimes.
Barely another hour passed before the Great Hall started to clear out. The torches were dim in their sconces, the food long since removed for sweet and pastries that had themselves now gone cold. Nearly every table had a stack of empty decanters at its heel that was being steadily collected by the pages and whites and carted off to the kitchens for washing. Laughs had become yawns, and limbs started to stretch stiffly, connected to full bellies and weary bodies.
As Gaelyn wandered into the hall, he lagged behind the rest of his cohort, spinning a message and sending it through the proverbial tube through his bond with Ivy. He had left ahead of her to dislodge any further accusations or comments, but she was the first and foremost thing on his mind as he plodded into the dim torchlight of the corridors. "I'll leave my door unlocked for another half hour. Tessa will be sleeping in the eyries, now I—"
Even as the message composed itself his mind, he felt the third tug on the bond take offense to those words. A skittering came from behind him, and he nearly jumped out of his skin as something scaly and sharp darted up his leg. When Kisa's tiny head poked over his shoulder and leveled her eyes with him, he would have fallen over if not for the hand he lurched out with to grab the wall.
As he recovered and trudged off towards his dorm, he sent an addendum. "Never mind, I guess. Kisa's small again."