Cynthia shivered. Though the air in Mr Marwood’s office—shielded by stonework from the sweltering heat—held the trio in its balmy embrace, there was nothing warm about the way the proprietor referred to her as goods. She was a morsel in a creature’s lair, laid out to be eaten. A deep revulsion for her own actions gnawed at her gut. Creeping horror, at the memory of the two girls out front, stalked her mind.
This was for a good cause.
Cynthia clung to the consolation for the blatant trespass. She was doing her duty, making a sacrifice for her family. No, this was a betrayal. Nobody even mentioned, much less discussed with her, this solution to the family’s debts before selling her off. A betrayal? What right did she have to complain? She had never been anything but a drain on her family. Guilt and anger wrestled each other, while dread brooded on the sidelines. Cynthia was quietly grateful for them. They distracted her from the harsh reality of being for sale, of this odious stranger openly talking about how much she was worth as a piece of meat.
Five thousand tails? That was a substantial amount of coin. None of the potential suitors her parents had driven away even came close to matching it. Sick fascination with the offered amount reared its twisted head, perhaps being sold was the right fate for her? The Shipmans would have ended up on the streets if she married any of the men who came knocking. She was not just helping, Cynthia was saving the people who had fed and sheltered her. Repaying her debt by helping them repay theirs. She hugged herself tighter, nails digging into the side of her ribs. What would she have to do to justify such an amount?
Mr. Marwood was upon her before her thoughts could run their course, pulling Cynthia’s arm away, groping her. His fingers burrowing into her breast like carnivorous worms. Her instinctual retreat caused pain to flare in her soft mound, a shocked gasp escaping, even as his iron grip around her wrist prevented the rest of her from doing so. As if daring her to try again, the man let go of Cynthia’s wrist, but left his other hand around her intimate flesh. She cringed from the heat of his rough palm, turning away to look at her father, only to find him staring apprehensively at Mr. Marwood, unable to meet her daughter’s pleading gaze. The senior Shipman offered no response, as the other man violated his daughter with his hands and his words.
"Her features, well, what can I say?"
Daddy! Say something!
Mr. Marwood clamped his free hand around her jaw and turned her to look at him. Cynthia met those callous, deep set eyes, and fear stabbed its icy blade down her spine once more. She could hear the silent promise he made. Every tail Mr. Marwood paid for her would be extracted a hundredfold from her flesh, until she was nothing but a broken husk, unfit to even stand chained outside his house.
"I've seen prettier girls. No offense intended, of course. In my line of business, you happen to see a lot of people from around the world."
Where was the adroit trader she had seen before in her father? Expounding the exclusivity of his silks and spices? Getting the best deal he could from selling them? She saw him now, shrunken, shirt stained with sweat, wringing his hands over doing the same when it came to his daughter.
"I don't think I can pay you the full sum, my friend."
Her father’s continued silence sliced deeper than the touch of the stranger pawing her.
What are you doing Daddy?
Anger bubbled like black tar. Her father was letting her sacrifice go to waste with his passivity. She was doing her part, so why was he—the one who brought her here in the first place—refusing to rebut this monster, who was driving down the price he would have to pay? A smouldering, sticky rage smeared itself behind her eyes, pulling every muscle taut at the injustice. Cynthia’s fingers balled into fists, brows drawn together into a frown. Her stiffened tendons pushed against Mr Marwood’s vile fingers as he sought the nape of her neck.
"Why don't you hop on the desk and spread your legs—just in case you've lied to your dear daddy."
Was this all she was worth to her father? A prize to be shown off growing up, paid for in lip-service to social norms. To be discarded for material gain when grown. And even then, without the follow through to secure her full worth. Cynthia saw the coward she had called Daddy, balking, when push came to shove, at the course of action he had chosen for her. Riding on rage-fuelled adrenaline, she looked directly at Mr Marwood of her own accord as he patted her bum.
"Go on, girl, we don't have the whole day. Up you go."
Fear took a backseat as anger knocked guilt to the ground. A clean break, it was what she needed. Not this sawing, scraping of a raw wound her father was inflicting on her. Cynthia wanted no whispers haunting her, of being a useless waste of resources, of not having done her part. She owed nothing to her family after what she was about to do.
“No,” Cynthia said to Mr. Marwood, making him acknowledge her, as he had forced his presence upon her. “Not until you agree to pay the full five thousand, or do neither of the men in this room possess the conviction to do what they said?”
“Cynthia!” Harold managed a strangled cry. “Stop it! Just follow Mr. Marwood’s…”
“With all due respect Daddy, shut up. You’re not the one who has to deal with me anymore.”
There would be hell to pay, in body and in spirit, Cynthia could feel it in her bones. But for now, there was a transaction to be made, a negotiation of contract. Courage given by rage radiated from every pore. She could only hope her buyer would talk to her instead of the frozen Harold Shipman.
Something was needed. Anything, to draw Mr Marwood’s attention to her, instead of the man she no longer considered a father.
Turning back to her buyer, she said, “Perhaps the one ordering me around would see fit to supply his name?”
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