Taking a deep breath, Lily did as he instructed, and laid on her back on the bed, trying her damnedest to calm her nerves. It helped when he had turned on her playlist to have something fill the silence and awkward breathing. She stiffened, only slightly, when she felt his hand on her belly, the gesture bringing back memories of her childhood when she wasn't feeling well. As his large hand massaged her stomach, she couldn't help but think about how surreal this moment was. How familiar his touch was, yet it had felt so very different now, and she couldn't shake off the feeling of unease that had built up inside.
The nervous energy was palpable and the song that had been playing, though one of her favourite haunting tunes to get lost in, it was not helping her feel any better about having it played with her father. She squeezed her eyes tighter when his hand shifted, and grasped her breast. She couldn't deny the pleasantness of the attention shown, but... her dad had been the one to do it.
He was trying... trying to help her...
"When will we finally.... breeeaaaathee?"
The song picked up and she tried to relax, focusing on the music, but then the crescendo hit and she stilled his hand. Even though she could feel him hardening against her thigh, she just... couldn't.
"Dā€”Dad, stop for a minute," she stammered out quietly, her body still weak from whatever that damned disease was. Despite the weakness, she was able to lift up enough to shimmy her shorts down her legs. Dangling the cotton from her foot, she kicked it free from her foot, not bothering to close her legs. "I'm going to lose my nerve... if we're going to do this, let's just get it over with..."
The days that followed had been... awkward, to say the least. The weakness had left her limbs, the exhaustion she had felt had gone, though her current fatigue had everything to do with her sleep. Since the tremors had practically vanished, although it had not been an overnight process, she had to admit that she was almost back to 100% functional. Except now, everything had changed.
Some things were still the same, she had to admit. While there had been a sense of uneasiness at first, Lillian couldn't help but feel... closer to her father. Her mother had returned home the following morning after the 'procedure' had occurred and as soon as she witnessed a more improved Lily at the kitchen table, she could swear the temperature in the room plummeted with the stare her mother gave her.
Not a word had been uttered to her since that first look. Lily had expected as much. She knew that her mother had been less than pleased with the entire situation and to come home to witness the aftermath of it, well... At least she came home, right?
Over the next few nights, Lillian found sleep to be an elusive creature. Her eyes would close and her mind would play back, in detail, every second of that fateful night.
'Dā€”Dad, stop for a minute...."
Shaking her head to rid herself of that image, her mind refused and pressed on. The way his hand had stopped, almost as if she had slapped him. His shifting on the bed after she had kicked off her shorts, leaving her legs spread for him to wedge himself in. Her hand going to her sex with a mouthful of spit to slick her entrance while his hands pulled down his shorts enough to expose himself. She couldn't look, didn't want to see what was about to be shoved inside of her, even though she had been curious after feeling him on her leg. The feeling of his hand stroking his thick member, rubbing the tip against her opening, gauging the entrance and giving her some sort of idea of what was about to pierce her.
Her eyes would always open then, her hand gripping her shirt between her breasts, her breathing always ragged, and that tingling between her legs always present when thinking back on it. It had been painful, that she would never deny. He had been larger than what she would have thought possible, and he had filled her to the point she had thought she would break. But it had been the sounds he had made that made her belly flip. His guttural moan when he filled her with his 'cure', pumping into her deep and hard and... She had never heard such a sound and she wondered, in the days that had followed, it had played on repeat in the back of her mind when the urge to touch herself became too strong.
She had wondered if she hadn't of stopped him, would his fingers have continued on, the way her fingers had? Slipping between her folds, circling around the swollen, sensitive bud, would he have dipped one finger into her tiny hole, patiently stretching her to add another? Or would he...
Her alarm sounded, stopping her mid-question and mid-stroke. "Sonofaā€”"
She would have hit the snooze and at least finished herself off, but the sound of shouting coming from outside her bedroom door decided for her. Throwing back her sheets, she got up, grabbed a few items from her closet and then ventured out into the hallway to make a beeline for the bathroom.
"Henryā€”you don't fucking understand," she heard her mother say from downstairs as she slipped into the bathroom. Closing the door, and quickly turning on the water in hopes of drowning out yet another argument before heading to school for the day.
When was it going to end?
Then, her fingers went numb...
Standing in the shower with her hair still soapy with the shampoo she had just massaged in, the tips of her fingers had tingled as if they were asleep, but then the feeling altogether left. "No..." she whispered, trying not to panic. Quickly rinsing her hair of the shampoo, she didn't bother to condition it as she turned back around to turn off the water.
Wrapping the towel around herself and stepping out of the shower, she began to shake her hands, trying to get the blood to go back into them, or at least, that's what she thought she was doing. Lifting her hand to her face, she tried to hold it steady.
The tremors were back...
Taking a deep breath to steady herself, Lily calmly dried herself off and got dressed. There was no way she was going to mention any of it to her mother, not that she would speak to her even if she did try to tell her that something wasn't right. Instead, she waited for her mother to leave the house for work before even going downstairs.
"Morning, Dad," she said quietly, finally coming into the kitchen. "Rough start?"
He looked defeated when she walked in. Sitting on a barstool at the counter with his forehead in his hand, staring off into his coffee. He had looked up when she entered, a small smile managing to make it on his handsome face. "I know mom's been giving you a hard time, and I seriously don't want to piss her off any more than she is already, but..." she paused, coming a bit closer to him, not concealing her worry. "Something isn't right... or, I don't know, but the tremor is coming back..." Lifting her hand so he could see what she had meant. "I'm so sorry, Daddy... I didn't mean for it to come back..."
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