If you had a single regret you could get rid of, what would it be? A word unspoken, a memory recalled. If you could say one last thing to them, Elaine, what would it be?
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"my journey may be short and sweet"
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- Sep 7, 2020
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◤━*:・゚✧*:・゚✧━━━━━━━━━━━━━━┓ When Ophelia opened her eyes, she had expected to find herself back in the black, infinite void that she had grown so accustomed to. It was the price she had to pay to protect everyone, after all, and a cheap one if it meant they would all return alive. At least, she had done the best that she could. If the other rebels would've rallied against them in one last hail mary, maybe they could've taken them out. But why would anyone risk such a large force to take out a pitiful party of four half-dead girls, barring pettiness? Ophelia was happy to pass away like that, knowing she'd come back one precious memory lighter.![]() ┗━━━━━━━━━━━━━━✧༺♥༻∞━◢ ✬ Ophelia ✬ ❝ You paint a picture in my mind, you wanna leave it all behind In a world that's turning all the time, nothing could stop me longing for your eyes ❞ "So you're the girl that the others have been raving about." Instead, her eyes fell upon an unfamiliar garden. She looked around for a few seconds before landing on the source of the voice that stirred her from her state between life and death. She could swear she had seen her face somewhere before - perhaps in the pictures August and the others had shown her. Though they seemed to avoid talking about her, Ophelia could tell she was someone precious to them. "Princess Lamprosia. The 33rd herself, or would you prefer me calling you by your first name, Ophelia?" "I personally destroyed the throne and crown. I have no claim to it. Besides, there is another who is more fitting for that title. And I never did like being a princess anyway. Please, call me Ophelia. Drifter of the stars." She sighed, taking the seat that was offered to her with a cursty of her own. Despite saying as much, she still had the decorum of royalty that had been stamped into her, never daring to betray her own dignity, especially when meeting a new person. "You must be curious as to why I know so much about you. There's nothing wrong with it of course. After all, I'm sure that this is your first time here." "Many people seem to know who I am, despite not being noteworthy. I'm hardly surprised at this point..." Though she didn't mean for it to sound like it, there was a hint of bitterness at her notoriety. So many people seemed to know her, all while she knew nothing about them. This was just another one in the list of strangers that knew quite a bit more about her than she did about them. It was sort of like sitting down to play a game of social chess with her opponent having already set up their board. A bit annoying, but far from the worst thing she could handle. Besides, this woman was at least amicable enough to not use her knowledge against her. "I should thank you for all you've done for my girls. They appreciate you much more than I could ever have imagined." "I've only done for them a fraction of what they have done for me. They freed me. Gave me a second chance at life. On the other hand, I couldn't protect them. I should be apologizing instead." "Oh, where are my manners? Here I am thanking you and you've yet to know my name. Its a pleasure to meet you, Ophelia. My name is... Elaine." Ophelia's gaze softened; knowing already did not make the revelation any less impactful for her. The one they had lost before even meeting her. She still remember the rawness of their emotions, fueled by the loss of their comrade in order to get to her. Maybe, in a way, Ophelia blamed herself for her death - they had been on the planet looking for her, after all. If they hadn't been on a mission to retrieve that powerful artefact, then would Elaine have died? Possibly. But definitely later than she did when they went looking for her. In a way, she was indirectly responsible for her death. But she knew such thoughts were only her own - that if she were to voice an apology, it would be met with denial. It was only her that blamed herself for everything. She had lead a guilt-ridden life until now. As far as she was aware, she'd yet to do enough good in this world to offset the pain she had caused. "The pleasure is mine. You already know my name, but let me introduce myself still. I am Ophelia. Once, a princess of a doomed kingdom. Now, a simple girl out of time and place. A window into a different era. A painting of the errors we are all destined to repeat." She smiled hollowly and bitterly at Elaine as she took the cup of tea in front of her. Next to her, between her and Elaine, It emerged, having sat itself, or herself, on the empty seat. She sipped the tea casually as well, as if her presence was not somehow unwelcome here. But Ophelia regarded her patron with annoyance more than malice or outright hostility. She shrugged, not bothering to interject into the conversation. "Ah. So that's the face that August and Neon are attracted to." Ophelia choked on her drink, the slightest flush of red coloring the tips of her ears. "Khm--!" "Apologies. I couldn't help but watch after you all--" "Please tell me you didn't watch that." The princess interjected, losing her cool for the first time. Having August and Neon see her like that was embarrassing enough - she didn't need a third party to have witnessed that. "I get nervous sometimes thinking about how everyone would cope with my loss, but it seems that... Not all hope is lost, and I have you and August to thank for it. If not for your efforts, I doubt that the others would still be so close together." "They're strong. So much stronger than you give them credit for. Even without me, I'm sure they could've pulled through. They would've found a way. August... August just needs more self-esteem. She's capable of much more than she knows. Me, on the other hand..." "I'm just a failure of a princess." "Groomed from an early age to be a queen, yet I failed my subjects before I even took up the crown. Hell, I didn't even want it. I knew it would change me, just like it had everyone else. I wanted to run away. And I did. The first chance I got, I took it. The pact was just an excuse... I would've run away regardless." She shook her head. What good was rehashing the past now? To a dead woman, of all people. Although maybe she was the best person to dump it all on. She'd literally take it to the grave. She was already in the grave, morbidly enough. "Now, I'm sure you have a few questions of course. Anything about the team or myself, I'll be glad to answer. You might wish to make it quick though. The others are doing their best to wake you up, so I doubt we'd have more than enough time for three or so questions." "Ach, so stingy. Three questions is all you can spare after I almost died?" Upon the revelation that she could only take three answers with her before she was brought back, Ophelia let the facade of royalty fall in favor of her more sarcastic self, her nose scrunching up slightly with annoyance. She rubbed her chin thoughtfully. "So make them count, yes?" "No need to tell me twice. Then..." She frowned, deep in thought before she opened her mouth, intent on fully using this opportunity to her advantage. "How do I make Shiro crack?" The first question, simple and to the point, was a lot less heavy than one might expect. Her expression was serious for such a silly question. She further elaborated upon sensing Elaine's disbelief. "Medina's strange and oddly into girl-on-girl stuff and fairytales. August is an adorable mess. Neon is an idiot. But Shiro... I still can't figure her out. I want to get to know her better, but it's as if she's built up a wall around herself. I want to find a chink in her armor. I want to see her smile." She had seen everyone else's smile. She couldn't remember a time she had seen Shiro smile. Not yet. She wanted to be closer to her, just as she was to the others. "How do I get Neon to be less of an idiot? She keeps running forward, keeps making me worry about her. I told her she was my knight, and she used that to run straight forward. But a good knight stands by her lady. I feel like she's too eager to prove that she's worthy of being by my side. Of being everyone's sword. I want her to know that... she's more than enough already." Despite her antagonistic relationship with Neon, even if it was more of a cat-and-dog kind of relationship, Ophelia did worry about her. "How can I best help Medina and August? Medina's so put together already, but... I can tell the smallest thing could make her crack. Like how diamonds are hard, but brittle. August, on the other hand..." Once again, she worried about them. "She's so strong, but so filled with self-doubt. I want to be there for her. I want her to know she's doing a good job. When I wake up, I want to know what to say so she doesn't start blaming herself for all of this." "And one last question, because I don't like being told what to do." Ophelia raised her finger, as if she could stop time itself from taking her back to the realm of the living. Her patron set down her teacup, looking at the princess as she looked to Elaine in defiance. "If you had a single regret you could get rid of, what would it be? A word unspoken, a memory recalled. If you could say one last thing to them, Elaine, what would it be?" ![]() Everyone died with regrets. The living, however, continued to carry them until the day they died. Although she had the chance to wash off the blood from her body and hands, the latter were still blood-red whenever she looked down at them. She was afraid she'd never get the stain out of them, even if in reality her hands, small and pale, were completely clean. It was her mind that was fragmented, jerked around like a toy for others to play with. Serena's eyes were downcast, staring down at the floor as they sat there, watching over Ophelia in the tank. She barely acknowledged the doctor as she first came in, her eyes red and irritated from crying and exhaustion. She hadn't slept a wink yet. Well, that wasn't entirely true. She had started to fall asleep despite herself a few times, her head bobbing back and forth as the exhaustion stole her from the world of the conscious. But every time she closed her eyes for longer than a few minutes, her mind would flash with the sight of every person she had killed. Every horrified expression, every bloody scream. She had done it all for them, she told herself back then. She didn't mind killing if it meant protecting her subjects. But at one point, killing had stopped being about protection and began being about vengeance. About marking her path with carnage. Wrath had taken her over, formless and directionless, much like her outburst at the castle. Those blasts had been a manifestation of her rawest emotions. She didn't fight to protect anyone. She had no one to protect; they had all been taken from her. Or perhaps, she had been taken from them. And Serena could do nothing but rage against the world that had continuously taken from her. If they were going to take from her, then it was only fair that she took from them too. "I'm sure if you would've known, you would do things differently." Serena looked up from the floor and to the witch, wondering what kind of expression she was wearing. She didn't dare to meet her gaze with her own though. Her body was cold with shame, as if she had been out in the rain and was soaked in it. Her hands shifted, causing the chains to grind against each other. "... I know I should be mad, but Ophelia... Ophelia deserves to wake up to a smile." "... And yet, you're not smiling." Serena pointed out. Although it could be taken as her mocking the witch, it was a simple observation. "And how could you? All of your friends... they're hurt. Because of me. You should be mad at me. I'm the only one to blame for this. I... I wish my life was enough to pay back for the pain I've caused, but... I have people I want to go back to..." Her voice shook with emotion, her hands gripping themselves as she thought about the punishment she would go through. If they were going to execute her after questioning her for all the information she had, then she couldn't stop them, but she still wanted to live. If not for herself, then for the sake of finding her subjects. "Especially if she went so far and beyond to try and save you, Serena. I don't think she'd appreciate if any of us took her kindness for granted." "She could've killed me several times over. I-I don't understand why she didn't. After I hurt... the girl with the guns, and the swordswoman. And then... I stabbed her not once but twice. Arashi should've taken my head." She shook her head. What good was wishing for death now, after all that had happened? August was right; to say more would be to spit on Ophelia's efforts to save her. Not just from Arashi, or the wrath of her comrades, but from the crown and even herself. "... Uhm." Perhaps continuing to talk about it would only make the emotions resurface. It was clear the witch was offering her grace. The fact that she wasn't dead already was enough proof that there was at least hope for something else. "I just... realized I don't know your name. Or the names of your other team members. The girl with the gun... what's her name?" Serena didn't know why, but the white-haired, cat-eared angel was the first to come to mind. The way she handled her guns was... impressive. Even the way she clashed with her in the throne room. If it hadn't been for the crown, she wasn't sure she could've come on top in that exchange. "And the pink-haired swordswoman," Serena blushed, catching herself lingering on the memories for a moment too long. "The one I-I... I'm sorry. The doctor said her components were... hard to come by, right? I... I know a few places where the rebels would store away things they looted. It's possible that... they could have something useful." "Oh, and your pilot! She's... she's much better than any pilot I've seen in the rebel army. Coming right into the fray to provide support fire for Ophelia and the, uh... the gunslinger." Unlike Ophelia, Serena was awkward with her words. She didn't hold the same air of dignity that the princess of old did. After all, centuries of slavery meant that there was no place for decorum. Serena spoke nervously and awkwardly, fiddling with her own fingers. "... And then there's you. You... I don't think I saw you cast a single offensive spell." Instead, she seemed to have focused on supporting her teammates through empowering and healing spells. "Do you... not know any? Or... could it be that you refuse to use them? I don't blame you if you do. Offensive spells... they leave their targets in horrible conditions. A fireball completely singing a person's skin off. An ice spell turning someone into a sculpture, only to break apart into pieces. U-Ugh, sorry, I'm terrible at making conversation." |