-.☾ 𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 & 𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 ☾.- 🄽🅂🄵🅆

[Silver]

I've debated starting one of these journals for over a year now. I've always talked myself out of doing such a thing, rather than just posting lyrics as status updates, even then I try to space them out not wanting to take over the newsfeed. I often come across songs that are new to me or come back around to older songs that are known; which speak to me on an inner level. So I guess I am making myself a space where I can share music that speaks to me more frequently. Music is more than just a collection of coordinated sounds, It has the power to evoke hidden emotions; the power to express things that are sometimes hard to put into words.

I pose the following five questions to you:

How Does Music Influence Our Daily Lives?
What Makes a Song Timeless and Memorable?
Can Music Help Reduce Stress and Anxiety?
Why Does Music Have Such a Powerful Impact on Our Emotions?
Is Music Truly a Universal Language?

If you want to answer the questions that I asked or want to share your thoughts about any song I've posted, feel free to send a private message my way.
Also please message me if there is a broken YouTube or Spotify link, so it can be updated.

I may post other thoughts and NSFW pictures/gifs occasionally, but I want to primarily share music. (we'll see how long that lasts...)
**Edit 03/20/2025 - Started Posting Coding and Photoshop stuff and talking about xtables...

​

 

[Silver]

I had to write out the lyrics for this song myself so I apologize if I got the lyrics wrong; I came across it earlier, trying to catch up on some past Discover Weekly Playlists from Spotify over the last year that I hadn't listened to yet.

The lyrics and beat just really spoke to me, causing me to wonder what kind of story might have this song as a background for a scene.

(Yeah)
Another day, Arise
Another day, Another sunrise
And I know it's flowing through my mind's eye
It's all I want for my eyes
It's all I want for my eyes
It's all I want for my eyes
It's all I want for my eyes

Sun it rains, golden rays around me
(yeah)

Feel you breathing
cause you hold me baby, hold me baby
cause it's alright, yeah
when the sunrise, yeah
And you're gonna see what I see,
you're gonna feel what I feel, yeah

cause it's alright, yeah
cause it's alright, yeah
and You're gonna see what I see
and you're gonna see what I see​

 

[Silver]

Is Music Truly a Universal Language?

The above question I asked may have seemed profound to some. Music is indeed a Universal Language, a person might be able to feel the beat, and/or connect with the emotion heard within a singer's voice even if it's in another language. Emotion is one of the most basic things that every human experiences, so it's not surprising that many connect to music, through an emotional story being told or by a song sometimes evoking emotions hidden deep down within ourselves. It might be why sharing music can be deeply personal for some; you are showing a tiny sliver of yourself, possibly opening yourself up to judgment due to the possibility of differing taste levels.

---

The song below was discovered on one of my 'Discover Weekly' playlists Spoifty creates for each specific user every Monday. The song holds a different meaning to me now than it did a year ago. I connect with this song more, perhaps it's due to the subject manner or because it perfectly expresses how I feel regarding a few different situations. This song can be interrupted in various ways, making it subjective to the listener.

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Далече е
И не се върне
Не се върне
И аз гледам към небе, към небето
Да те видя

А ти видиш ли, а ти...

Далече е
И не се върне

English Translation:

It's far away
And don't come back
Don't come back
And I look to the sky, to the sky
To see you

And you see, and you...

It's far away
And don't come back
​

 

[Silver]

In life, we all wear masks knowingly or not...
The mask of being polite and nice... being overly formal... and it is misunderstood by others time and time again...
The mask of trying to be friendly and crossing an unknown boundary while trying to connect and fit in... in the hopes of one day being accepted...
The mask of pretending that loneliness is a familiar friend, when in reality it's something that shouldn't be accepted so easily...
A mask falling off and revealing the belief that Loneliness is the human condition...
A mask falling off and revealing the belief that Love isn't real...
A mask falling off and revealing the belief that you aren't simply broken but shattered into a million pieces and that no amount of tape and glue will help you put yourself back together again...
The final mask falling away, revealing the deep belief that you will never be understood and that no one wants to at the end of the day...

---

I'm only posting the lyrics for the music video version below, as the album version is much longer.
I enjoy the music video version more... You connect with it more... at least I do...

One of these lives, I'ma make things right
With the wrongs I've done, that's when I unite
With the Father, Son, 'til then, I fight
Rain on me, put the blame on me
Got guilt, got hurt, got shame on me
Got six magazines that's aimed at me
Done every magazine, what's fame to me?
(And I'm tripping and falling)
It's a game to me, where the bedroom at?
Sleep, I ain't nevеr had affairs with that
What's fair when the hearts and thе words don't reach?
What's fair when the money don't take things back?
It's rare when somebody take your dreams back
(And I'm tripping and falling)
I care too much, wanna share too much, in my head too much
I shut down too, I ain't there too much
I'm a complex soul, they layered me up
Then broke me down, and morality's dust, I lack in trust
(And I'm tripping and falling)
This time around, I trust myself
Please everybody else but myself
All else fails, I was myself
Outdone fear, outdone myself
This year, you better one yourself
(And I'm tripping and falling)
Masks on the babies, mask on an opp
Wear masks in the neighborhood stores you shop
But a mask won't hide who you are inside
Look around, the reality's carved in lies
Wipe my ego, dodge my pride
(And I'm tripping and falling)
Look myself in the mirror
Amityville, ain't seen nothin' scarier
I fought like a pitbull terrier
Blood I shed could fill up aquariums
Tell all my angels, "Carry 'em"
(And I'm tripping and falling)
Every emotion been deprived
Even my strong points couldn't survive
If I didn't learn to love myself, forgive myself a hundred times, dawg

I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me
And I'm tripping and falling
And I'm tripping and falling
And I'm tripping and falling
And I'm...

​

 

[Silver]

"Letting go helps us to live in a more peaceful state of mind and helps restore our balance. It allows others to be responsible for themselves and for us to take our hands off situations that do not belong to us."
​

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Join me and raise your middle finger to the negativity and letting go of things you can't control otherwise, you might miss out on what's happening right in front of you... New Experiences, New Dreams, New Goals, Learning to Accept Yourself For Who You Are, Fuck Everyone Else if they can't see how amazing you are and how brightly you shine even during the darkest of hours!
​

We often forget to enjoy those little moments that appear in life due to sometimes not letting go of something that's already slipped from our fingers, a long held-onto dream that only brings pain due to the realization that it'll never come true, or allowing the past to drag us down be it someone or something that you will grow and thrive without that negative energy impacting our everyday lives...



Here's a song that I came across earlier today that I feel might capture the spirit better than my jumbled words ever could... even though it might just apply to drama and worthless pieces of shit men at the end of the day...

*shrugs and goes to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone*​

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When the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone

There′s a party shaking, all up in my mind
Everybody's moving, everybody′s fine
As I listen to the music, I hear my favorite song,
I think I'm bout to lose it, I think my mind is gone

Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
I can zone (I can zone I can zone)

I might want to pause for a beat and slow down and get myself together
Take a little time to breathe so I don't lose myself forever,
I just wanna live, I just wanna live, I just wanna live my life
Without anyone trying to end my peace, just respect my life,

Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone

I can zone
I can zone
all in my head where
all in my head where
I can zone

Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
I can zone (I can zone I can zone)

I beg your pardon, what you sayin′
I′m sorry, I wasn't really listening to the lies coming out your face
I really wish that you′d hurry up go ahead and get up out my space
You takin' all of my energy, everything that I have for me,
It′s time we go our separate ways
So baby leave me alone

Won't you leave me alone
Won′t you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Can you leave me alone
Leave me alone

Baby leave me alone
Can you leave me alone
Won't you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Baby leave me alone
Go ahead and get gone

So baby leave me alone
Can you leave me alone
Won't you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Baby leave me alone
Go ahead and get gone​

 

[Silver]

Grammy Thoughts

Beyoncé *sighs*

I'm going to be rather blunt; Beyoncé did not deserve to win the award for Best Country Album or Album of the Year. It's a major insult to the other musicians who received nominations in those categories, in my opinion. I freely acknowledge that I enjoy Beyonce, but I'm not a member of the "Beehive." However, I thought "Cowboy Carter" was a mediocre album; I enjoyed three of the songs on it. Overall, the album wasn't terrible, but it wasn't the greatest thing ever.

This was the academy's attempt to compensate for the fact that Beyoncé had not yet won the award for album of the year, and it's fucking horrible. Her album Lemonade gave her a chance to win in 2017, but Adele's album 25 was superior. I truly like both of those albums, and it was a very tight race. Renaissance received a nomination in 2023 and was once more up against Adele's album, 30. I still don't really understand why Harry Styles won with Harry's House that year, even though I thought it would be another contest between them.

Lainey Wilson or Kacey Musgraves, in my opinion, deserved to have won Best Country Album. Both of these women had fantastic songs on their albums that were memorable and stuck with you. Musgraves may sound more like folk/soft rock than true country, but the album was still fantastic.

I've already received a lot of criticism for my opinion, which is that as an African American woman, I should be pleased with Beyoncé's win. No, I shouldn't have when the wrong person won; it's not about skin color, it's about the music, and this is beyond unacceptable. Beyoncé didn't have the best album in either category!!!!!!

---

Kendrick Lamar

Look, I know some people are mad. I am not one of them, I admit that I am a Kendrick Stan. Sorry, Not Sorry! I'm currently trying to find tickets (that won't cost me what's left of my soul) as a graduation gift for my daughter since he'll be in town for the Grand Nation Tour in June, weeks after her high school graduation.

Kendrick Lamar earned Song of the Year and Record of the Year easily; Not Like Us, was everywhere for months, and there was no escape from the song. By bringing it back into the public eye with the litigation and refusing to accept the defeat, Drake did himself no favors. I'm sorry, but none of the other songs nominated could dethrone him. If you haven't heard his music yet, you will get the opportunity to do so next Sunday since he's headlining the Super Bowl Halftime Show. And yes, I am tempted to dedicate a whole Journal post to Kendrick next Sunday.

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I might make another journal post with actual music and lyrics later today, after I listen to my Discovery Weekly Playlist on Spotify. Maybe I'll find another hidden gem...
But for now, I am still fucking pissed off about Beyoncé...

​

 

[Silver]

Valentine's Day... ​

If you love Valentine's Day, don't read this as it's a rant...

I believe that Valentine's Day is a commercial holiday created by corporations to generate additional revenue during the lull between Christmas and Easter. Does expressing one's true feelings to someone require a particular day if one is truly in love?

Why is there a need for a specific day, where it is required to express love and appreciation to your 'partner'? Shouldn't these things already be ingrained into our daily routines? Valentine's Day trivializes the importance of a consistent and healthy relationship. When you take a step back and think about the holiday it suggests that a single grand gesture can compensate for a year of disappointment, neglect, and being an overall shitty partner and person.

Being single on Valentine's Day can feel like you are being called out for repeated failures of why you are not currently in a relationship, often when it wasn't our fault when they didn't work out in the first place. The constant barrage of couples and celebrations can be isolating and disheartening. While some people can embrace being single with pride, the societal pressure to be in a relationship can be particularly depressing let alone dreadful.

Would I love to receive flowers and chocolate? Of course, who wouldn't? But I would rather be in a relationship with someone who makes me feel seen and appreciated the other 364 days of the year. Rather than the string of deadbeats, fuckboys, and overall cowards, I've had the unfortunate pleasure of finding myself in relationships with over the years.

I see the glass as half-empty, even if I strive to embrace positivity and change as I continue to grow and evolve. Oddly I feel a bit better after writing out this rant...

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Valentine in December
You say you love me, but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end

Attachment to me is a crime
Breaking me still I keep acting surprised
I keep acting surprised
Ich mag dich mehr, wenn du bist weniger
Drowning in words that you couldn't hold on to
You keep pushing me in the cold water
In the cold water, to see if this is pure or not

Valentine in December
You say you love me, but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end

I don't feel hungry, I wanna go to sleep
Tired of everbody acting sketchy
Kissing Cupido goodbye
His arrow caused me red eyes
That make me wish I was blind
At some point you owned my mind
At some point wanted to hide

In December
You say you love me, but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end​

 

[Silver]

Roy Ayers ♡

'Everybody Love The Sunshine' is one of Roy Ayers' best songs, and even if you've never heard of him, you've probably heard it sampled in other songs over the years. 188 distinct songs in all over the years. His sample has been used in the songs of Dr. Dre, Mary J. Blige, 2Pac, Naughty by Nature, TLC, Logic, Black Eyed Peas, and numerous other artists.

He passed away yesterday at the age of 84. This coming right after the unexpected passing of Angie Stone a few days prior has me going through older songs and fearing the day when older musicians I love will only be a memory of the music they've created for the world.

---

Since I've already posted a snippet of lyrics and the video for Everybody Loves The Sunshine as a status update, I'll post his appearance on Tiny Desk from 6 years ago, when he was 77. The songs he plays are 'Searching', 'Black Family' and 'Everybody Loves The Sunshine'.

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Say butterfly
Up in the sky
I got a story to say
And I'll tell you why
I'm searchin'!

You see, my friend
I need someone
Who feels and needs
The same as I
I'm searchin'!

What's right is right
What's wrong is wrong
I'm gonna sing my song
All day long
I'm searchin'!

[Chorus]
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'
Searchin'

Now what went down
I don't believe
And I just know
I can't conceive
I'm searchin'
When love is gone
And one believes
That love will come
Like brand new leaves
I'm searchin'
And then the day
When I will say
That my soul lives
A truthful way
I'm searchin'

Say butterfly
Up in the sky
I got a story to say
And I'll tell you why
I'm searchin'

You see my friend
And I need someone
Who feels and needs
The same as I
I'm searchin'
When it's right,it's right
When it's wrong,it's wrong
I'm gonna sing my song
All day long
I'm searchin'

Say butterfly
Up in the sky
I got a story to say
And I'll tell you why
I'm searchin'

Searchin' for my right mind
Searchin' for my right mind
Searchin' for a new love
Searchin' for my true time
Searchin' for completion
Searchin' for completion
Searchin' for the true time
Searchin' for a new love
Searchin' for the right mind
Searchin' for the right love
Searchin' for the right love
Searchin' for my right mind

---

My life, my life, my life, my life
In the sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Folks get down in the sunshine (Oooh)
Sunshine (Yeeea-ah)
Folks get brown in the sunshine

Just bees, and things, and flowers
Just bees, and things, and flowers
Just bees, and things, and flowers
Just bees, and things, and flowers

My life, my life, my life, my life
In the sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Folks get down in the sunshine
Sunshine
Folks get brown in the sunshine

Feel what I feel, when I feel what I feel, when I'm feelin'
In the sunshine
Feel what I feel, when I feel what I feel, when I'm feelin'
In the sunshine (Oh yeah yeah yes yes yes)
Do what I do, when I do what I do, when I'm doin'
In the sunshine
Do what I do, when I do what I do, when I'm doin'
In the sunshine (Ooooh ha ah!)

Sunshine (Oooh ow)
Everybody loves the sunshine (Oh yeah yeah yeah now)​

 

[Silver]

311
♡

Happy 311 Day!

If I were asked to make a top ten or twenty list of artists I love, 311 would always be on the list. My three favorite albums are 'Soundsystem', 'From Chaos' and 'Evolver'.

The final song on the album From Chaos; "I'll Be Here Awhile" can easily make me cry, the same is true about "Sometimes Jacks Rule The Realm" from the album Evolver, which also contains the hidden track 'Coda', which is purely instrumental and hits me every time. I wish I was able to write something much more profound given how this band shaped me when I was younger, they were one of the artists that made me really pay attention to lyrics, looking them up and printing them out so I could make sure that I knew all the words.


So in honor of 311 Day here's their performance from TinyDesk last year, alongside a few of my favorite songs from the band. Give 'Coda' a listen at least if you are willing to give instrumentals a chance... It's about only a 1:13 long...

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You got to
You got to

You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer, hear why

To come original, it ain't nothin' strange
You got to represent, you got come full range and
Full range of emotion, full range of styles
When you come to town you'll have them comin' for miles and

Come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer, hear why

Black Eyed Peas, they comin' full range and
NOFX, they comin' full range and
Roni Size, he's comin' full range
The one Mr. Vegas, you know it ain't easy, ha!

A warning to the crews out there who think they're hot
If you're not original, rockers, you will get shot
Down by the kids neglectin' your art, the stuff you did
Eventually it get so bad it puts you to bed
'Cause when the lightning flashes sweet electricity
All the world then stands revealed with the clarity
Of raw voltage, briefly we see, and the hope is
You'll be able to tell just what dope is

Come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer, hear why

Funk slap bass mixed with the dancehall and
Hip-hop beats and punk guitar and
Deadly on the mic, the one SA
Name is 311 and you know it ain't easy, ha!

Come on, come on!

This is not a test, there's no time to mope
How you gonna cope with radioactive isotope
And boss DJ, illness upon you quickly
Infecting you fast on the airwaves
This message brought to you by the so large system
Activate and attune yourself with meditation
And green plants, they've got mad life, they're sentient
They're beautiful as you and they like to dance

(One, two, three, four)
Everything we do we gotta come original
Put your hand up in the air and prepare for battle
Sit upon the rhythm like a tire upon the rim
We do it nonstop and then we do it again
Some of them whine and some of them bitch, they cannot do it, never switch
Comin' up from the heart and delivered with a wild pitch
Sit up on top of the rhythm like a wild stallion
This is the rulin' system

Come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer
Come original

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Uncalm, uncalm, uncalm
Listen to the drummer just listen to the strings
Listen to the DJ just rappin' and things
Once I get a message from you I get all edgy
My mind's racing but my you know not ready uh

For you, baby all our dreams trickle through
We are back in your teenage bedroom
Salvador Dali honeymoon for you

It's like you and me on Plymouth Rock
Embarking on a journey that I never thought
Would happen to me so effortlessly
Sparks flying, your laughter is a symphony
Spring, what a little moonlight can do
Soon the summer sun is on you
All the while we don't hear the news or feel blue


On the scales of desire your absence weighs
More than someone else's presence
I wanna kiss reason goodbye today
I wanna show its purple essence
On your lips baby it'll fade away
Return your natural iridescence
On the scales of desire your absence weighs
More than someone else's presence

You make me feel uncalm and I think I like it
Make me think of a song that I could not write yet
Melodies create themselves I'm just a conduit
You make my heart accelerate and I'm on to it
For you, baby there's so much that I will do
To be near the sweetness on you
Funny everything seems so new when with you


On the scales of desire your absence weighs
More than someone else's presence
I wanna kiss reason goodbye today
I wanna show its purple essence
On your lips baby it'll fade away
Return your natural iridescence
On the scales of desire your absence weighs
More than someone else's presence
Uncalm, uncalm
​

 

[Silver]

Raleigh Ritchie

When I first started watching Game of Thrones in the late summer/autumn of 2014, when the character 'Grey Worm' was introduced, I thought he looked like that guy who I'd just saved a few of his music videos to my YouTube music playlist. When I finally got around to looking up the actor's name of Grey Worm, I discovered that he was also Raleigh Ritchie, having a musical career.

Currently he's starring in 'Interview with the Vampire' as the vampire Louis de Pointe du Lac. Not that I've watched any of it TBH

Below are two of his earlier songs that I still easily connect with...

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Hate me when I'm gone, I'll make it worth your while when I'm successful
But when I'm here I need your kindness cause the climb is always stressful
Clumsily gassed myself by thinking I'll be better off alone
I'll leave my peace in pieces all around the decent people back at home

'Cause I'm a big boy, an adult now, well nearly
If I pull the wool back from my eyes I can see clearly
The world is at my feet and I am standing on the ceiling, oh
And I fall, fall, fall, when it all comes down
And I won't be crushed by the weight of this town
I fall from the sky but I won't fall forever
I fall but when I'll rise I'll be stronger than ever

Official man, delusions grand, now I'm a free agent
I'm here to make a stand for causes I don't understand and make a statement
I fall short on knowledge, I don't even watch the news
Can't be arsed with college, it's nothing but a human zoo

'Cause I'm a big boy, an adult now, well nearly
If I pull the wool back from my eyes I can see clearly
The world is at my feet and I am standing on the ceiling, oh
And I fall, fall, fall, when it all comes down
And I won't be crushed by the weight of this town
I fall from the sky but I won't fall forever
I fall but when I'll rise I'll be stronger than ever

I'm not defeated, I believe that I can turn this ship around
Destroy the status quo until I know I found a common ground
I'm not alone, I'm just focused in my zone, this is easy
I'm fine, I just need time to turn this into home, I'm good, believe me
Believe me when I say I'm gonna be

Big explosions crack through thunderous mountains
Hearts exploding, minds, volcanoes pop and blow
I'm not alone, I'm not alone
Who am I kidding? I'm sad, no ideas coming
It's driving me mad and I'm fighting
It's turning me bad, I'm loaded, rage is taking me over
I just wanna be home with all my friends and family
Mum and dad, it's closing in on me, I need recovery, coming home
I'm coming home and I need closure, I need closure

'Cause I'm a big boy, an adult now, well nearly
If I pull the wool back from my eyes I can see clearly
The world is at my feet and I am standing on the ceiling, oh
And I fall, fall, fall, when it all comes down
And I won't be crushed by the weight of this town
I fall from the sky but I won't fall forever
I fall but when I'll rise I'll be stronger than ever

---

Drugs and girls, love and death
Is all that goes through my head
I shrink the world, nothing left
I'll sleep when I am dead

Blame me, I'm not playing ball
Hate me, it's insatiable
Not lazy, I just can't face it all

And I can't
And I won't
And I don't know

When the under dogs rise again, I'll have my time
When my body starts turning in, I'll have my mind
Nothing is getting in, not even light
I'm gonna stay inside, stay inside

TV news, frozen food, in here my life's not hard
I don't use the bed in my room
Cause I don't wanna drop my guard

Judge me, I will understand
I'm ugly, only half a man
It's your country, and I'm contraband
Love me and I'll leave your land

When the under dogs rise again, I'll have my time
When my body starts turning in, I'll have my mind
Nothing is getting in, not even light
I'm gonna stay inside, stay inside

How can I please you, when I can't please myself?
I've given up on what you call living
I have not yet forgiven myself

When the under dogs rise again, I'll have my time
When my body starts turning in, I'll have my mind
Nothing is getting in, not even light
I'm gonna stay inside, stay inside

Stay inside, stay inside
Stay inside, stay inside​

 

[Silver]

I don't want to make another journal with my poor editing/coding attempts. I've been trying to learn xtables over the last few days, due to being inspired by a new story. I know they might not look the best (compared to the many talented people I see using xtables and other coding around the site. BTW they're so stunning), but I'm proud of myself for the attempt and opening up Photoshop again to edit images and create text without help.

An Attempt

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I should post music since that's what I made this journal for... My apologies for posting randomness...

Lately I've been staring at the dark
Turn my inner demons into art
Struggle with the pain inside my heart
Wish I didn't care about what they'll

Say what you want to say
What you want to say
What you want her to say
What you want

No one

Say what you want to say
What you want to say
What you want to say
What you want

No one

No one stops you from being yourself
You know it's all in your head

No one​

 

[Silver]

I've been trying my hand again at making xtables, wanting to make things look pretty for once... at least for a brand new story. I think I finally figured out a basic xtable, that works character-wise. I think it turned out nicely after some trial and error but I'm feeling beyond wired yet that might be due to the Red Bull I had hours ago.
If anyone is trying to learn xtables or understand the coding a bit better, I've been reading through ˖ ⁺ XTABLES — 𝐚 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞. that @reverie. created, it's filled with so much information!

Attempt 2

ℂ𝕚𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕣𝕒 𝕄𝕠𝕟𝕣𝕠𝕖 28 𝙻𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗:​ “🅸🆃 🅲🅰🅽 🆃🅰🅺🅴 🆈🅴🅰🆁🆂 🆃🅾 🅼🅾🅻🅳 🅰 🅳🆁🅴🅰🅼. 🅸🆃 🆃🅰🅺🅴🆂 🅾🅽🅻🆈 🅰 🅵🆁🅰🅲🆃🅸🅾🅽 🅾🅵 🅰 🆂🅴🅲🅾🅽🅳 🅵🅾🆁 🅸🆃 🆃🅾 🅱🅴 🆂🅷🅰🆃🆃🅴🆁🅴🅳.” 𝙸𝚗𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚝𝚢: ​

Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper. Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper. Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper. Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper.

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ℝ𝕖𝕕𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕 500 𝙻𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗: "🆃🅴🆇🆃 🅶🅾🅴🆂 🅷🅴🆁🅴." 𝙸𝚗𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚝𝚢: ​

Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper. Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper. Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper. Curabitur iaculis sapien id pulvinar dictum. In rhoncus, enim nec dictum tincidunt, nisl est consectetur magna, vel pretium neque velit sed arcu. Vivamus vulputate ipsum nec nulla semper sagittis. Nunc sit amet dignissim sapien. Suspendisse vel dolor lacinia, feugiat purus a, porta augue. Nulla pharetra diam quis elementum sollicitudin. Class aptent taciti sociosqu ad litora torquent per conubia nostra, per inceptos himenaeos. Fusce feugiat lorem et massa dapibus, sit amet ultrices massa ullamcorper.

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Here's some music as an apology for posting about xtables once again...
I apologize

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Do you know
We are the young ghosts
In reverse
Our stories unfold
Moving slow
We're just killing time
And we know
This fear is a crime

Surrender to your love
Surrender to your heart
Surrender

We are swimmers
Caught in the tide
Pitch black river
Shadows and light
Into the night
Beautiful swimmers
Losing the fight
A constant river
Shadows and light
Into the night

Coming home
We're shaking the grass
All alone
So far from the path
Do you know
I see you so clear
Yes I know
It's happening here

Surrender to your love
Surrender to your heart
Surrender​

 

[Silver]

Adult Swim Bumps...

I know that there has to be someone else out there who remembers the old Adult Swim Bumps... (please someone be older like me...)


What is a Bump?


A bump is a break between advertising and programming for playing bumps. A bump is typically used to announce the next episode to air on the station; however, Adult Swim took this brief interlude to a higher level.


Adult Swim aired short to medium-length clips between their shows with a wide array of themes; from music and film with a focus on the abstract, absurd, disturbing, serene, and peaceful. The beginnings of my love for Lo-Fi music came from Adult Swim Bumps, and just a bit ago I stumbled upon a website that has archived most of the bumps from over the years, dating back to 2001.

One of my favorite bumps was when they finally revealed the title and artist of a bump that I was obsessed with, searching high and low to find out who it was.

https://tinyurl.com/4tnrktnd (sorry I can't insert the media it )

I wish I could directly link some bumps so they showed in the post, they are only about 15 seconds in length at max, Meow Meow: Stretchy Cat never fails to make me smile. (I bet you can link them but I freaking suck!)

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Here are two of my favorite bump songs that I found on YouTube long ago after finding the full versions of these two songs.
The song from the Baggage Room thatAS finally gifted the viewers and another from Samurai Champloo. (I really should rewatch that show soon...)

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Sorry I am so happy now, I'll be going through that website for the next week and finally finding out the title to some songs that I was obsessed with back in the day. ​

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Backup of Code for Idea Finally Shared

𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝙳 𝙼𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙸𝙰𝙶𝙴 . ☾ ✧ 𝙰𝚖𝚋𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 1 2 3​ I would like to explore the idea of an arranged marriage between a couple who has met only once or twice with rather brief exchanges with one another before the wedding. I'm open to this being in a setting that is modern, modern/fantasy, or fantasy. Is this a marriage to join two rival companies together or neighboring kingdoms? The woman would rightfully have reservations, yet her family would emphasize the importance of tradition and duty. Perhaps the man is charming and composed, with an intensity in his eyes that both intrigues and intimidates the woman. Initially, their relationship could be sweet and romantic or it could be distant and cold with the pair staying away from one another unless the man wants sexual relations from the woman. There's something about the man's confidence and expert guidance that draws her in, and she finds herself wanting to please him. He sets different boundaries and rules to give the woman a false sense of security wanting to see what her limits might be before pushing past them. As time passes, the man's controlling nature could become more pronounced. Making decisions for the woman, from her wardrobe to her social interactions, along with things in the bedroom. In the beginning, she might appreciate the attention, but over time she begins to feel suffocated and less like a person. Perhaps the couple enters a power struggle; The woman's innocence clashes with the man's true nature, even while the woman has conflicting feelings regarding her submission. Everything is negotiable as I would like for this to be a true collaboration Below are themes I would love to be included: Dominance/submission Virginity - Vaginal and/or Anal Domestic Servitude Coercion/Manipulation Sadist/Masochist Mild humiliation/degradation NonCon/DubCon becoming Consensual Breeding? Further information about myself such as detailed kinks, writing samples, and other ideas can be found on my main Request Thread.​

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God, should I just start a Coding/Idea Journal for myself?​

 

[Silver]

Will Smith

(Yes I picked this ugly color on purpose)

After having a drink, I thought why not listen to the new Will Smith Album that came out yesterday? Jesus Christ, I've never regretted such a decision. Look I geeked out to one song and then two others weren't that bad... 3/14 songs.... but I am not sure that's due to my current state of accepting things due to having a drink, the lyrics hitting, or losing all of my common sense and fucking reason... I am questioning all of my life decisions right now...

Please will someone message me music that can serve as a palate cleanser from this dreadful mess of an album!!

Look the Sammy Sosa/Barry Bonds line made me laugh given they are two disgraced players, also the Master P line. (Jesus how old am I? ...No Limit)

Below is the song that I kinda geeked out to, some of the lyrics hit when listening and made sense after looking up the words and reading...
(Do I fucking have low standards? Am I more depressed than I thought? Please send help!)

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[Chorus: Will Smith]
Back on my journey, I'm takin' my chances
Searchin' and questionin', lookin' for answers
Hopin' this medicine heal all the damage
My inner child keep throwin' a tantrum

[Verse 1: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas]
Why does my ego keep holdin' me ransom?
Why does my fear control me at random?
Life can get ugly, but fuck it, I'm handsome
I'm 'bout to face all this shit I been runnin' from
You might relate to the places I'm comin' from
I been through trauma I thought I'd recover from
I got regrets, you heard about some of them
This is gon' make my heart bang like a rubber drum
I will not sugarcoat this stuff with bubblegum
Goin' through troubles, I hate what the trouble done
I hate to be the thing that people suffer from (Ooh)

[Verse 2: Joyner Lucas]
You cannot replicate me, I'm a one-of-one, you are not one of them (Ayy)
Damn, I forgot and there won't be another one, I'm always number one
After the rain, then I know that the sun'll come, I see the life in the treetops
I am not God, but I know I'm a son of Him, you just a son of a biotch
I know exactly just what they been doin'
They counted me out, but your numbers ain't showin'
I know where I've been, I don't know where I'm goin'
If you wanna boat, then you better keep rowin'
'Cause I'm so way up, I might get me a Boeing
Flyin' with angels, they sent me an omen
The devil tried get me, the forces are with me
Yo', Jesus, come lift me 'cause this is my moment and woo

[Chorus: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas]
Back on my journey, I'm takin' my chances
Searchin' and questionin', lookin' for answers
Hopin' this medicine heal all the damage
My inner child keep throwin' a tantrum
Ayy, I took my traumas and made it a anthem, ayy, mm

[Verse 3: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas]
I done came too far to hand it over
I'ma keep my head up like a man supposed to (Grr)
I done took my punches, they was standin' over (Brr)
Devil want my soul, I couldn't hand it over (Grr)
I ain't picture perfect, think the camera's broken
Had to shut the door, they couldn't slam it on 'em (Grr)
How you sleepin' on me when I am a sofa?
Tryna trample on me, you get tramped over (Brr)
Joker's thinkin' sweet, this ain't no damn mimosa
This a aerosol inside a Arizona
This the Barry Bonds mixed with Sammy Sosa
This a loose screw inside a damaged motor (Yeah)
This a graduation with no damn diploma
This is aggregation, this is validation (Brr)
I got open wounds, ain't no Bacitracin
This a bigger world of my imagination
This is me, woo!

[Verse 4: Joyner Lucas & Will Smith]
Martin Luther had a dream (Dream)
Joyner Lucas had a vision I became everything I had to be (Woo)
I've been livin' like there's no limits and I learned the game from Master P (P)
I'm starin' at my reflection wonderin' why it isn't starin' back at me (Why?)
What it's gon' be?
Oh, y'all forgot I ain't new with the pen
First hip-hop Grammy, I do it again (Woo)
I'm doin' me, I ain't doin' no trends
Findin' myself with the music again
Difference is I don't need music to win
Soon as I dropped and I'm boomin' again (Boom)
Back to the crown, it's the mood that I'm in
Promise ain't nobody truer than him
Will

[Chorus: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas]
Back on my journey, I'm takin' my chances
Searchin' and questionin', lookin' for answers
Hopin' this medicine heal all the damage
My inner child keep throwin' a tantrum (Yeah, yeah)
Ayy, I took my traumas and made it a anthem, ayy, mm
Woo


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[Silver]

38 Today's my birthday and I turn another year older. I can't help but think about my past and what's in store for the future. I think it has more to do with the fact the next 6 weeks are going to be a whirlwind. I thought that I would be writing something very profound and insightful but I started thinking about wishes and how sometimes people have all their hopes and dreams riding on a single wish. Rather than wishing for something, this year I wanted to set little goals/thoughts for myself. (I might add to this list throughout the day) - I want to give myself credit more often. - I want to improve creatively, be it through my writing, getting back into Photoshop, or learning more about coding in general. - I want to be open to new experiences that might appear unexpectedly. - I want to be more courageous. - Always make room to take risks, and be creative. - Smile more often. Anyway, forgive the personal stuff, I'll get on to the music. ​

Marvin Gaye Born on April 2, 1939, Marvin Gaye passed away tragically on April 1, 1984, the day before his 45th birthday, when his father; Marvin Gaye Sr. killed him as Marvin attempted to break up an argument between his parents. After it was discovered Gaye Sr. had a brain tumor, his father was granted probation and a suspended six-year prison sentence; the elder Gaye Sr. passed away in 1998. Some people may think it is strange to look up which celebrity was born on your birthday... look I also share birthdays with Pedro Pascal, Christopher Meloni (Stabler), Jesse Plemons (Landry... Clear Eyes Full Hearts, Can't Lose!), and many others. However, I was aware of the fact that I shared a birthday with Marvin Gaye from a very young age. In first grade, I dressed up alongside my classmates in trash bags, along with the sunglasses from the 1990s; the ones with the colored arms that were so popular and hip back then, and performed a routine to the song "I Heard It Through The Grapevine" by "The Californian Raisins." There is still a VSH tape in my mother's basement that I need to find and destroy of that performance... When I was six years old, I remember spending weeks practicing the song and the dance routine to make sure that I remembered every word and move. My mother then explained to me that the Raisins performed covers of well-known songs. (Sorry rambling about personal shit.) From my research which might be wrong, there are 1398 samples, 919 covers, and 26 remixes of Marvin Gaye's music over the years. There is one song, 'Just Like Music' by Eric Sermon, which samples Gaye's demo version of 'I Got My Music' that came out in 2001, which is still a favorite of mine I always make a point to listen to on my birthday. I also think the demo version of 'I Got My Music' is better than the album version, but that's just my personal opinion which may not be shared by many. There's a mashup of Marvin Gaye's, 'I Heard It Through The Grapevine' and Gorillaz's 'Feel Good Inc.' from DJ Hero, which to this day I still love so much. (I'll make a whole journal entry about Gorillaz at some point in the future...) I feel the songs perfectly play off one another in a way that I could've never imagined until hearing the mix myself when playing a demo of DJ Hero at Best Buy when it came out. Jesus, I'm really feeling old today... I am so thankful this version is up on YouTube otherwise I would've been a bit better about the fact a CD soundtrack for the game was never released like it should've been. The game was truly before its time and I will forever stand firm in that belief. Below I've shared the following songs and their lyrics: 'Just Like Music' by Erick Sermon Featuring Marvin Gaye 'I Got My Music' (Vocal Version) by Marvin Gaye 'Trouble Man' by Marvin Gaye [Intro: Erick Sermon & Marvin Gaye] Just like music.. Uh-huh, ayy yoyo, uh-huh yeah yeah, uh uh uh There's no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, uh Worrdd up... Ahhh babyyy... Just like music... [Verse 1: Erick Sermon & Marvin Gaye] To relax my mind, so I can be free And ab-sorb sound that keep me 'round Doin my thang, constantly with no worries Peace to Keith Murray.. ("Just like music") To keep me flowin and keep me goin And keep me growin, and keep me the E from knowin What happens out there, is not my concern You wanna die it's not my turn ("Just like music") To do somethin' to me like jump in the Mercedes On the highway, doin' over eighty Without music baby.. ("Oww! I'll go crazy.. just like music") Make me call my homey on the phone Like there's somethin' new out, that got me in the zone Just that feelin, got me I wish music can adopt me ("Just like music") [Chorus: Marvin Gaye] Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music - just like music [Verse 2: Erick Sermon & Marvin Gaye] Put me in the mood with my woman Got me in the ear, sayin sweet nothings Make love come out the mouth, no frontin Like all of a sudden, ("Just like music") Takin away your worries and cares Any problems, music'll be right there Together match yo, we a perfect pair Is that true Marvin? ("Yeahhhhh! Music") Yo, to get you to bang this Body soul-snatcher, universal language It be the light, so open up This is it, what the fuck? ("Just like music") One fly tune That have black and white vibe in one room No confrontation, parlay all night It's just the sensation ("Just like music") [Chorus: Marvin Gaye] Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music - just like music [Verse 3: Marvin Gaye] Music is the soul of the man Music makes a happy day Music makes the clouds roll by baby Your music is my tears inside my eyes (Just like music) Your music makes me want to sing Girl, music is a joy to bring (Just like music) Music is my heart and soul, more precious than gold (Turn on some music, I got my music) Happiness today is just a song away, just a song (Turn on some music, I got my music) I love your music baby (I got my music) I don't worry 'bout a thing (Turn on some music, I got my music - just like music) [Outro: Marvin Gaye] Hey (La-da-da-da-daaaa-dah-dah-dahh) doo-doo, doo-doo-doo Turn on some music (La-da-da-da-daaaa) turn on some music Just like music (La-da-da-da-daaaa-dah-dah-dahh) doo-doo, doo-doo-doo Dreams of you, dreams of you Are so fine, so fine, baby Since I woke up So is my state of mind Since we've been apart, baby God has healed my heart Used to go out looking for love Now love is looking for me And sweet music keeps me happy Not so long ago, darling, I was feeling sad Who would've kissed my lips I would've still felt bad, ah baby There were times I've wondered if I was insane Ah baby, I simply let my tear drop fall like rain Oh baby, but when I kiss your lips The clouds begin to roll away Uh, down to my finger tips I feel the happiness each day Oh, my Mama said to me She told me, son love goes where you take it So, stay with the spirit, boy I feel that you gonna make it, yeah Got me wondering, yeah 'Cause music's been my therapy Taking the pain from all my anatomy Music has never let me down It's my symphony, always stayin' in me Who'd know that the world ain't right, ah baby Lots of people uptight I'll go crazy if something ever happened to my musical thrill And darling your love is just like music Music is the soul of the man Music makes a happy day Music makes the clouds roll by, baby Your music kissed my tears and set my eyes Your music makes me want to sing Your music is a joy to bring Music is my heart and soul It's more precious than gold You're like a song in my heart I love every part A song, you're like a song Happiness today is just a song away, just a song I love your music, baby I don't worry 'bout a thing Oh, turn on your music, baby See my happiness beam Your love is music Oh my darling, yeah Your love is music, ah baby, yeah And music is my life Turn on some music more Hey, turn on some music more I got my music, hey, hey I love my music, hey We need the music I got my music, hey I love the music, oh Turn on some music Get off the music, ah Turn up the music Let's have the music, ha [Verse 1] I come up hard, baby, but now I'm cool I didn't make it, sugar, playing by the rules I come up hard, baby, but now I'm fine I'm checking trouble, sugar, moving down the line I come up hard, baby, but that's okay 'Cause Trouble Man don't get in my way [Post-Verse 1] I come up hard, baby I've been for real, baby Gonna keep moving, gonna go to town I come up hard, I come up gettin' down There's only three things, that's for sure Taxes, death, and trouble, oh This I've known, baby, this I've known, sugar Yeah, ain't gonna let it sweat me, babe [Interlude] It's got me singing Yeah, yeah Woo-ooh [Verse 2] I come up hard, baby, I had to fight Took care of my business with all my might I come up hard, awful hard, I had to win Then start all over and win again I come up hard, but that's okay 'Cause Trouble Man don't get in my way, hey, hey [Bridge] I know some places And I see some faces I got good connections They dig my directions What people say, that's okay They don't bother me, no I'm ready to make it Don't care what the weather Don't care 'bout no trouble Got myself together I feel that kind of protection That's all around me [Post-Verse 2] I come up hard, baby I've been for real, baby, with the troubled minds I'm moving, going to town I come up hard, I come up gettin' down There's only three things for sure Taxes, death, and trouble, oh This I've known, baby, this I've known, baby Ain't gonna let it sweat me, babe Woo, oh lord, baby [Verse 3] Woo, I come up hard, but now I'm cool I didn't make it, baby, playing by the rules I come up hard, baby, now I'm fine I'm checking trouble, sugar [Outro] Hey, moving down the line, oh​

 

[Silver]

It's been raining for 4 days straight now... [Chorus] I can't seem to face my pain Everybody looks the same I can't seem to get it straight If only u feel all my pain [Verse] And she know i'm about it I live without it in my head Something to live for Said, something to live for Running circles in my head Running circles in my head Running circles in my head Running circles in my head [Chorus] I can't seem to face my pain Everybody looks the same I can't seem to get it straight If only u feel all my pain​

 

[Silver]

Sometimes those people who are polite, those people who always try their very best to be kind to others, wishing to always try and treat others the way in which they want to be treated in return, those people who always try and take a moment to reach out happy to lend a listening ear or support to those who need it, those people who always send the first message, make the phone call 99% of the time, the ones who reach out first every single time... Maybe, just maybe they would like for someone to offer the same to them...Maybe that small gesture would mean the world to them, maybe it will remind them that not everyone in the world can be... cold and dismissive... Maybe they need to know there is someone out there who fucking cares, even if for just a brief moment... Maybe they won't feel so fucking invisible. I've been told I am overly polite, that I am kind, and can be fairly quiet (when I don't know someone very well, that's a whole other issue). Perhaps it's due to being a people pleaser and always wanting to help out others in any way that I am able to. But that doesn't mean that I should be the one who always gives 100% of the effort and receives not 1% back in return. Perhaps things are going on within my life that I need an ear for, perhaps I would like to get a text or phone call first rather than always being the one who has to reach out. The one who happily listens to everyone's problems and does my best to offer an ear or helping hand. It's even more maddening when it happens with those you believed might've been a friend but it's a friendship only when it fits their wants and needs. Or even worse when it's a member of your own family, who's never there in your times of need yet you are always there for them. No questions, no judgment, not holding on to resentment over ignored life events due to the age difference and not knowing each other... (I mean a 13-year age difference is pretty big for siblings. Imagine them in their final year of high school while you just started kindergarten...) (Forgive me, was triggered by a message from a brother and other things today...) There's the claim that there are always people who will be there, through the good and bad... It's a fucking bold-faced lie, you might be there for everyone else but what happens when not a single person is there for you? What happens when you are invisible to everyone else, save for when they need you? Everyone deserves to have someone to be there for them, no one deserves to feel like they are completely alone in the world... Dig up her bones but leave the soul alone Boy with a broken soul Heart with a gaping hole Dark twisted fantasy turned to reality Kissing death and losing my breath Midnight hours, cobble street passages Forgotten savages, forgotten savages Dig up her bones but leave the soul alone Let her find a way to a better place Broken dreams and silent screams Empty churches with soulless curses We found a way to escape the day Dig up her bones but leave the soul alone Lost in the pages of self-made cages Life slips away and the ghosts come to play These are hard times These are hard times for dreamers And love lost believers Dig up her bones but leave the soul alone Let her find a way to a better place Broken dreams and silent screams Empty churches with soulless curses We found a way to escape the day Candy bar creep show My highs hit a new low Marinate in misery Like a girl of only 17 Man made madness And the romance of sadness A beautiful dance that happened by chance Happened by chance, happened by chance Happened by Dig up her bones but leave the soul alone Let her, let her, let her, let her find her way back home Broken dreams and silent screams Empty churches with soulless curses We found, we found, we found a way To escape the day Whoa, oh-oh, whoa, oh-oh Oh, oh-oh, oh, oh-oh​

 

[Silver]

ℂ𝕠𝕒𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕒

Yes, Coachella, starts tomorrow, running the weekend of April 11-13 and again the following weekend April 18-20th Yes, I'm a basic bitch because I look forward to the artists announced each year, hoping there are a few I have heard of and would love to listen to. I mean I got No Dobut in 2024, Gorillaz in 2023, and RTJ (Run The Jewels) in 2022 There is at least one act I am excited about and watch. (I wish I had a watch buddy... *sighs*) Oh, Coachella is streamed on YouTube!!! Most of the stages have their own channel, if anyone needs help figuring things out, I am happy to help. Below are the posters (click for a bigger view, I know it's small!) with the time of all acts for all three days in Pacific Time. I've converted the times into Central for myself (aka 2 hours ahead) Underneath are the artists that I hope to catch at least a part of their set, if not watch the whole thing. Artists in Bold, I am beyond excited to watch while drunk dancing, and singing along to the songs in the comfort of my home. 𝔽𝕣𝕚𝕕𝕒𝕪: Artists I want to watch. EREZ - 3 pm (apparently not going to be streamed weekend 1. Fucking bullshit *anger*) Three 6 Mafia - 7:15 pm LISA - 9:45 pm Missy Elliot - 11 pm The Prodigy - 12 am GloRilla - 12:25 am (if I am bored, mostly hate her honestly, sorry not sorry.) Lady Gaga - 1 am Mustard - 1:50 am 𝕊𝕒𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕕𝕒𝕪: Artists that I want to watch. Weezer - 5:05 pm Jimmy Eat World - 6 pm Yo Gabba Gabba! - 6:45 pm (don't ask) T-Pain - 7:25 pm Green Day - 11:05 pm Above & Beyond - 11:45 pm Travis Scott - 1:40 am 𝕊𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕪: Artists that I want to watch. Tiesto - 9 pm JENNIE - 9:45 pm (bonding with spawn) Basement Jaxx - 10 pm​

 

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Sometimes a song speaks louder than any words... Kiss me dangerous Been so lost without you all around me Get anxious Lead me, don't look back It's all about you In the dark right now Feelin' lost, but I like it Comfort in my sins and all about me All I got right now Feel the taste of resentment Simmer in my skin, it's all about Bloodstain on my shirt New bitch on my nerves Old nigga got curved Goin' back on my word Damn, bitch, you so thirsty Still don't know my worth Still stressin' perfection Let you all in my mental Got me lookin' too desperate Damn (You ain't deserve) Broad day, sunshine I'll find a way to fuck it up still Can't cry about the shit that I can't change Just my mind Gotta get outta here Tough crowd, hate it Can't stay In the dark right now Feelin' lost, but I like it Comfort in my sins and all about me All I got right now Feel the taste of resentment Simmer in my skin, it's all about Bloodstain on my shirt New bitch on my nerves Old nigga got curved Goin' back on my word Damn, bitch, you so thirsty Still don't know my worth Still stressin' perfection Let you all in my mental Got me lookin' too desperate Damn It's what you say and how you do me How I'm 'posed to trust, baby? 'Posed to love? It ain't 'posed to hurt this way All I need is the best of you Baby, how I got to say it? Give me all of you In the dark right now Feelin' lost, but I like it Comfort in my sins and all about me All I got right now Feel the taste of resentment Simmer in my skin, it's all about Bloodstain on my shirt New bitch on my nerves Old nigga got curved Goin' back on my word Damn, bitch, you so thirsty Still don't know my worth Still stressin' perfection Let you all in my mental Got me lookin' too desperate Damn (You ain't deserve)​

 

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Today I reached out for help with an issue (xtables) that had been causing me trouble. While I'm so glad to have gotten guidance regarding the matter, what's been lingering for me is the fact that I normally keep to myself and don't ask for some help or guidance when it's needed. I don't know why it's such a fear for me to reach out and ask for help or simply to say something that's on my mind, to offer help or a listening ear. I think it's the fear of rejection, something that I know quite well. There's nothing worse than offering open arms and ears only to then be ignored, rejected, and treated like a bother when all you wanted to do was simply be there for someone who appeared to be in need. Perhaps make a connection, form a friendship. It's like I fear the same will happen if I reach out for help rather than offering it. My thoughts and feelings don't matter; I'm nothing more than invisible, and I should stay that way, my mind tells me daily. But I suppose that happens when it's been hammered into your mind repeatedly by past experiences… I've been feeling myself slip into a void I'm not quite sure I'll ever emerge from. I just want to be the best version of myself, but it's hard when old habits and fears that never truly left start to come back to the surface. It's hard when you feel as if you're doing everything single thing wrong, as if you're standing alone and completely invisible to everyone else but yourself. Apologies in advance jealousy ensues but I choose to understand I sip slow think slower Cause people love to judge, when they barely even know ya I'ma say that again, I sip slow think slower Because people love to judge, even when they barely even know you When I was 7 used to rock soldiers Hotboys had it poppin from the Nolia I need a project chick from the corner, cousin had a friend she was like 10 Even then I used to buy her blow pops from the corner Valintine cards, milk money by tha quarter Fast forward, now it's dumb girls Henny by the 5th. 20 pump 6 condoms and recorders Fucking outta spite kinda sorta, got engaged now I'm thinkin bout a daughter Spend a lotta time even tho I can't afford her, please keep it coming with the brown water Please (oooh) back when I had plans of being HOV, wanted floor change for the quarter-waters When I was naive to these things, I really wanna follow what my heart shares Money ain't a thing, until it's not there And bitches ain't shit till you need a queen, and niggas all the same till you meet a king You know whatchu need when you dead broke You know what you want when you see the dreams All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me, best me possibly Upset drunk on a late night, 2 shots out from a Drake life Nigga I remember those days when I used to bump Day 'N' Nite (Day 'N' Nite) Scott said I was on my own, since then I been on my own Nah nigga, nah nigga I ain't never had a mothafuckin handout A bunch of mistakes in my past tryna stick to a planned route But that's life my nigga, sometimes shit just don't pan out Lately I've been trying bite my tongue, dog I've been in a fight so long, so long, so long, so long, so long With myself Mirror, mirror on the wall why is it always an knack to attack on myself? I could use a little slack, for the wealth But I'm too afraid to ask for the help Still attached to the past, and it's felt like way too strong I don't ever wanna wait too long But I know if I hold on, know you've grown Go and get your dough baby Hold on know you wrong, just don't lose your soul baby Hold on don't you know, love won't ever fall baby Killing my, killing my, killing myself bet I could use some sound maybe All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me, best me possibly Step up in this bitch like, look at what the cat dragged in Used to call my crushes on my momma's house phone, 13 and younging thought I had it mapped back then I'mma be rich as fuck, lemme bring tha racks back in Had to keep me motivated in a city full of traitors, drug dealers, blood killers Keep it old-fashioned, (two choices) I'ma be my own captain Robert Frost Theory, nigga never had siri Thank God for the vision, that was brought back then No new phone, I'm just done with all the acts my friend You ain't adding to my life, then you're subtracting You ain't gotta hit my jack or put the buzz back in Nigga hold the phone, caught up in the late night Can't stay for the day ma, had to catch a red-eye have a safe flight 20/20 tunnel vision through the hate my, intuition got me feeling like Draymond Circumstances I been slippin over fakeness No patience, but I think I think too much (still) I think I lack confidence (still) I think I want prominence, dominance good logic and common sense But that starts with me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me All I wanna do is be the best me, best me possibly​

 

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🅼🅾🆅🅸🅴🆂​

SINNERS I've watched it and I want to talk about it, so we're stepping away from music, for a moment today but are we really? I'll start with Ryan Coogler; I saw Fruitvale Station not long after it released in 2013(jesus I'm old) and I was moved to say the least. Most should know about Creed and Black Panther, Coogler now has 5 feature films and the one thing that they all have in common; Michael B. Jordan. I can't say that I've been a Michael B. Jordan fan from the very beginning, I've never seen The Wire. However I did watch Friday Night Lights (Texas Forever, Clear Eyes Full Hearts, Can't Lose!) I saw Chronicle (2012), which I am still upset that a film or television series didn't come from that, an underrated movie! We will not talk about Fox's Fantasic Four, jesus that movie was horrible but now we have another one coming so... I digress. He's a good actor, if don't share the same opinion well I suppose that you'll send me a message with a list of reasons why and I'll happily engage in a civil debate. Anyways here's the trailer Now if you haven't seen the movie, don't read the following The night is dark and full of spoilers... This is how you do an original movie, ladies and gentlemen! I was fully engaged, enjoying the plotline and the added bonus of music sprinkled throughout. You could tell that Michael B. Jordan was playing two different roles, each of the twins felt like their own person, with their distinct personalities. And the ending twist, it was so perfect and I loved it. The scene at the Juke Joint when Sammy performs, omg, I hear the song and the mixing of different styles and eras... Yes please, Daddy give me more please... Miles Caton, who played Sammy... I want to know what he'll be in next. Delroy Lindo was a pleasant surprise, showing why he's been in the industry and how to give a memorable performance. Jack O'Connell as Remmick, was interesting and his musical number and the Irish dancing... Freaking loved it, found it it was him singing and have listened to the song twice more now. Unpopular opinion, If Coogler had been allowed to reboot Blade, this could've been an origin movie, I know, I know just sit and think about it then get back to me! This movie was a breath of fresh air between the endless superhero movies and reboots. ​

HIM I'll start this off by stating that I am not a horror movie fan, I've seen a few like things such as; The Ring, Final Destination, Dark Water but in general, Horror is not my normal thing. I have not seen Get Out, Us, Candyman (remake), or Nope. Yet I am tempted to sit through the horror and stock up on ice cream for aftercare after watching the trailer for HIM. Mixing horror with sports, with CTE, what a fucking interesting idea! And Marlon Wayans! Everyone write him off as just comedy but people forget his roles in Requiem for a Dream and he's done a bit of drama with Bel-Air (The Fresh Prince Television Show Remake) Forgive me, but these kids gonna learn today... The trailer is below, would love to share my thoughts with someone after they've seen the trailer...​

 

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"Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness." ― Maya Angelou Hold on it's not the end, it's not the end And I've been moving so slow It's been suffocating With everything flashing by Everyone has been saying Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end I wake up thinking The same old things But there's a light left on And I, I know I know Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Hold on it's not the end It's not the end Sunshine will come again We'll shine again​

 

[Silver]

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One year ago today, Kendrick Lamar released x'Euphoria'x and everyone who hasn't been living underneath a rock knows how things progressed from there... I'll openly admit that over the last year the phrase; I hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress, has lived rent-free in the back of my mind and that I've even made up some lyrics in the back of my mind about people that I strongly dislike. [Part I] [Intro] eurt s'em tuoba yas yeht gnihtyrevE Euphoria [Verse] Them super powers gettin' neutralized, I can only watch in silence The famous actor we once knew is lookin' paranoid and now is spiralin' You're movin' just like a degenerate, every antic is feelin' distasteful I calculate you're not as calculated, I can even predict your angle Fabricatin' stories on the family front 'cause you heard Mr. Morale A pathetic master manipulator, I can smell the tales on you now You're not a rap artist, you a scam artist with the hopes of being accepted Tommy Hilfiger stood out, but FUBU never had been your collection I make music that electrify 'em, you make music that pacify 'em I can double down on that line, but spare you this time, that's random acts of kindness Know you a master manipulator and habitual liar too But don't tell no lie about me and I won't tell truths 'bout you [Part II] [Intro] Shoo, shoo, shoo Shoo, shoo, shoo Bee, bee, bee, bee, bee, bee [Verse] Yeah, I'm out the way, yeah, I'm low, okay Yeah, the island right here's remote, okay I ain't thinkin' about no reaper, nigga, I'm reapin' what I sow, okay Got a Benjamin and a Jackson all in my house like I'm Joe, okay Hellcat, made his homeboys and them type sell they soul, okay Everybody wanna be demon 'til they get chipped by a throwaway And I might do a show a day, once a lame, always a lame Oh, you thought the money, the power or fame would make you go away? Have you ever played have-you-ever? Okay, nigga, let's play Have you ever walked your enemy down like with a poker face? Have you ever paid five hundred thou' like to an open case? Well, I have, and I failed at both, but I came out straight I hate when a rapper talk about guns, then somebody die, they turn into nuns Then hop online like "Pray for my city," he fakin' for likes and digital hugs His daddy a killer, he wanna be junior, they must've forgot the shit that they done Dementia must run in his family, but let it get shaky I'll park his son The very first time I shot me a Drac', the homie had told me to aim it this way I didn't point down enough, today, I'll show you I learned from those mistakes Somebody had told me that you got a ring, on God, I'm ready to double the wage I'd rather do that than let a Canadian nigga make Pac turn in his grave Cutthroat business, you got shit twisted What is it? The braids? I hurt your feelings? You don't wanna work with me no more? Okay It's three GOATs left, and I seen two of them kissin' and huggin' on stage I love 'em to death, and in eight bars, I'll explain that phrase, huh It's nothin' nobody can tell me, huh I don't wanna talk on no celly, huh You know I got language barriers, huh It's no accent you can sell me, huh Yeah, Cole and Aubrey know I'm a selfish nigga, the crown is heavy, huh I pray they my real friends, if not, I'm YNW Melly I don't like you poppin' shit at Pharrell, for him, I inherit the beef Yeah, fuck all that pushin' P, let me see you push a T You better off spinnin' again on him, you think about pushin' me He's Terrence Thornton, I'm Terence Crawford, yeah, I'm whoopin' feet We ain't gotta get personal, this a friendly fade, you should keep it that way I know some shit about niggas that make Gunna Wunna look like a saint This ain't been about critics, not about gimmicks, not about who the greatest It's always been about love and hate, now let me say I'm the biggest hater I hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress I hate the way that you sneak diss, if I catch flight, it's gon' be direct We hate the bitches you fuck 'cause they confuse themself with real women And notice, I said "we," it's not just me, I'm what the culture feelin' How many more fairytale stories 'bout your life 'til we had enough? How many more Black features 'til you finally feel that you're Black enough? I like Drake with the melodies, I don't like Drake when he act tough You gon' make a nigga bring back Puff, let me see if Chubbs really crash somethin' Yeah, my first one like my last one, it's a classic, you don't have one Let your core audience stomach that, then tell 'em where you get your abs from V12, it's a fast one, baow-baow-baow, last one Headshot for the year, you better walk around like Daft Punk [Part III] [Verse] Remember? Ayy, Top Dawg, who the fuck they think they playin' with? Extortion my middle name as soon as you jump off of that plane, bitch I'm allergic to the lame shit, only you like bein' famous Yachty can't give you no swag neither, I don't give a fuck 'bout who you hang with I hate the way that you walk, the way that you talk, I hate the way that you dress Surprised you wanted that feature request, you know that we got some shit to address I even hate when you say the word "nigga," but that's just me, I guess Some shit just cringeworthy, it ain't even gotta be deep, I guess Still love when you see success, everything with me is blessed Keep makin' me dance, wavin' my hand, and it won't be no threat I'm knowin' they call you The Boy, but where is a man? 'Cause I ain't seen him yet Matter fact, I ain't even bleed him yet, can I bleed him? (Bet) When I see you stand by Sexyy Red, I believe you see two bad bitches I believe you don't like women, it's real competition, you might pop ass with 'em Let's speak on percentage, show me your splits, I'll make sure I double back with ya You were signed to a nigga that's signed to a nigga that said he was signed to that nigga Try cease and desist on the "Like That" record? Ho, what? You ain't like that record? "Back To Back," I like that record I'ma get back to that, for the record Why would I call around tryna get dirt on niggas? Y'all think all my life is rap? That's ho shit, I got a son to raise, but I can see you don't know nothin' 'bout that Wakin' him up, know nothin' 'bout that Then tell him to pray, know nothin' 'bout that Then givin' him tools to walk through life like day by day, know nothin' 'bout that Teachin' him morals, integrity, discipline, listen, man, you don't know nothin' 'bout that Speakin' the truth and consider what God's considerin', you don't know nothin' 'bout that Ain't twenty-v-one, it's one-v-twenty if I gotta smack niggas that write with you Yeah, bring 'em out too, I'll clean 'em out too, tell BEAM that he better stay right with you Am I battlin' ghost or AI? Nigga feelin' like Joe Hale Osteen Funny, he was in a film called A.I And my sixth sense tellin' me to off him I'ma blick niggas all in they coffin Yeah, OV-ho niggas is dick riders Tell 'em run to America to imitate heritage, they can't imitate this violence What I learned is niggas don't like the West Coast, and I'm fine with it, I'll push the line with it Pick a nigga off one at a time with it We can be on a three-hour time difference Don't speak on the family, crodie It can get deep in the family, crodie Talk about me and my family, crodie? Someone gon' bleed in your family, crodie I be at New Ho King eatin' fried rice with a dip sauce and a blammy, crodie Tell me you're cheesin', fam We can do this right now on the camera, crodie Ayy, fuck y'all niggas, I don't trust y'all niggas I wave one finger and thump y'all niggas like mmm Field goal, punt y'all niggas, they punk y'all niggas, nobody never took my food Whoever that's fuckin' with him, fuck you niggas, and fuck the industry too If you take it there, I'm takin' it further Psst, that's something you don't wanna do [Outro] Ooh We don't wanna hear you say "nigga" no more We don't wanna hear you say "nigga" no more Stop​

 

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Yeah sorry, not may the force be with you. I never really got into Star Wars. One year ago today, Kendrick Lamar released x'Not Like Us'x and it was the final nail in the coffin and the funeral dance on Drake's grave. The music video was released on July 4, 2024; if you know, you know. The song has been everywhere over the last year, it's catchy. And there is no lie within the third verse, sorry but there isn't. The song won Grammys and was performed at the Super Bowl. It's one of those Hip-Hop moments that will be remembered. I'm done talking about Kendrick for now... Sidenote: My apologies for being off, more reserved, unstable, or depressed. Whatever the correct word for it is, I'm very sorry. Life has been trying for the last few weeks but finally, there is a glimmer of hope, and light can be seen at the end of the tunnel. I'm just tired, and I hate that my creativity took a major hit while tending to other things. I'll get back to my normal rhythm by the end of the month. (Hopefully, I'm almost caught up!) Fuck 'Em Kids! I say that with love but my spawn has really been trying what little is left of my nerves. I want to rant but I won't go further, not when fears of judgment are already beginning to bubble in the pit of my stomach. Anxiety, fucking anxiety, and stress... what a time to be alive. Fucking can't wait for that fucking Exam to be over, Final Grades posted, then Graduation, so I can stop eating Tums and Naproxen like candy... [Intro] Psst, I see dead people (Mustard on the beat, ho) [Verse 1] Ayy, Mustard on the beat, ho Deebo any rap nigga, he a free throw Man down, call an amberlamps, tell him, "Breathe, bro" Nail a nigga to the cross, he walk around like Teezo What's up with these jabroni-ass niggas tryna see Compton? The industry can hate me, fuck 'em all and they mama How many opps you really got? I mean, it's too many options I'm finna pass on this body, I'm John Stockton Beat your ass and hide the Bible if God watchin' Sometimes you gotta pop out and show niggas Certified boogeyman, I'm the one that up the score with 'em Walk him down, whole time, I know he got some ho in him Pole on him, extort shit, bully Death Row on him Say, Drake, I hear you like 'em young You better not ever go to cell block one To any bitch that talk to him and they in love Just make sure you hide your lil' sister from him They tell me Chubbs the only one that get your hand-me-downs And Party at the party playin' with his nose now And Baka got a weird case, why is he around? Certified Lover Boy? Certified pedophiles Wop, wop, wop, wop, wop, Dot, fuck 'em up Wop, wop, wop, wop, wop, I'ma do my stuff Why you trollin' like a bitch? Ain't you tired? Tryna strike a chord and it's probably A minor [Chorus] They not like us, they not like us, they not like us They not like us, they not like us, they not like us [Verse 2] You think the Bay gon' let you disrespect Pac, nigga? I think that Oakland show gon' be your last stop, nigga Did Cole foul, I don't know why you still pretendin' What is the owl? Bird niggas and burnt bitches, go The audience not dumb Shape the stories how you want, hey, Drake, they're not slow Rabbit hole is still deep, I can go further, I promise Ain't that somethin'? B-Rad stands for bitch and you Malibu most wanted Ain't no law, boy, you ball boy, fetch Gatorade or somethin' Since 2009, I had this bitch jumpin' You niggas'll get a wedgie, be flipped over your boxers What OVO for? The "Other Vaginal Option"? Pussy Nigga better straighten they posture, got famous all up in Compton Might write this for the doctorate, tell the pop star quit hidin' Fuck a caption, want action, no accident And I'm hands-on, he fuck around, get polished Fucked on Wayne girl while he was in jail, that's connivin' Then get his face tatted like a bitch apologizin' I'm glad DeRoz' came home, y'all didn't deserve him neither From Alondra down to Central, nigga better not speak on Serena And your homeboy need subpoena, that predator move in flocks That name gotta be registered and placed on neighborhood watch I lean on you niggas like another line of Wock' Yeah, it's all eyes on me, and I'ma send it up to Pac, ayy Put the wrong label on me, I'ma get 'em dropped, ayy Sweet Chin Music and I won't pass the aux, ayy How many stocks do I really have in stock? Ayy One, two, three, four, five, plus five, ayy Devil is a lie, he a 69 God, ayy Freaky-ass niggas need to stay they ass inside, ayy Roll they ass up like a fresh pack of 'za, ayy City is back up, it's a must, we outside, ayy [Chorus] They not like us, they not like us, they not like us They not like us, they not like us, they not like us [Verse 3] Once upon a time, all of us was in chains Homie still doubled down callin' us some slaves Atlanta was the Mecca, buildin' railroads and trains Bear with me for a second, let me put y'all on game The settlers was usin' townfolk to make 'em richer Fast-forward, 2024, you got the same agenda You run to Atlanta when you need a check balance Let me break it down for you, this the real nigga challenge You called Future when you didn't see the club (Ayy, what?) Lil Baby helped you get your lingo up (What?) 21 gave you false street cred Thug made you feel like you a slime in your head (Ayy, what?) Quavo said you can be from Northside (What?) 2 Chainz say you good, but he lied You run to Atlanta when you need a few dollars No, you not a colleague, you a fuckin' colonizer The family matter and the truth of the matter It was God's plan to show y'all the liar [Bridge] Mm Mm-mm He a fan, he a fan, he a fan (Mm) He a fan, he a fan, he a Freaky-ass nigga, he a 69 God Freaky-ass nigga, he a 69 God Hey, hey, hey, hey, run for your life Hey, hey, hey, hey, run for your life Freaky-ass nigga, he a 69 God Freaky-ass nigga, he a 69 God Hey, hey, hey, hey, run for your life Hey, hey, hey, hey, run for your life Let me hear you say, "OV-ho" (OV-ho) Say, "OV-ho" (OV-ho) Then step this way, step that way Then step this way, step that way [Outro] Are you my friend? Are we locked in? Then step this way, step that way Then step this way, step that way ​