I've debated starting one of these journals for over a year now. I've always talked myself out of doing such a thing, rather than just posting lyrics as status updates, even then I try to space them out not wanting to take over the newsfeed. I often come across songs that are new to me or come back around to older songs that are known; which speak to me on an inner level. So I guess I am making myself a space where I can share music that speaks to me more frequently. Music is more than just a collection of coordinated sounds, It has the power to evoke hidden emotions; the power to express things that are sometimes hard to put into words.
I pose the following five questions to you:
How Does Music Influence Our Daily Lives?
What Makes a Song Timeless and Memorable?
Can Music Help Reduce Stress and Anxiety?
Why Does Music Have Such a Powerful Impact on Our Emotions?
Is Music Truly a Universal Language?
If you want to answer the questions that I asked or want to share your thoughts about any song I've posted, feel free to send a private message my way.
Also please message me if there is a broken YouTube or Spotify link, so it can be updated.
I may post other thoughts and NSFW pictures/gifs occasionally, but I want to primarily share music. (we'll see how long that lasts...)
**Edit 03/20/2025 - Started Posting Coding and Photoshop stuff and talking about xtables...
I had to write out the lyrics for this song myself so I apologize if I got the lyrics wrong; I came across it earlier, trying to catch up on some past Discover Weekly Playlists from Spotify over the last year that I hadn't listened to yet.
The lyrics and beat just really spoke to me, causing me to wonder what kind of story might have this song as a background for a scene.
(Yeah)
Another day, Arise
Another day, Another sunrise
And I know it's flowing through my mind's eye It's all I want for my eyes
It's all I want for my eyes
It's all I want for my eyes
It's all I want for my eyes
Sun it rains, golden rays around me
(yeah)
Feel you breathing
cause you hold me baby, hold me baby
cause it's alright, yeah
when the sunrise, yeah
And you're gonna see what I see, you're gonna feel what I feel, yeah
cause it's alright, yeah
cause it's alright, yeah
and You're gonna see what I see and you're gonna see what I see
The above question I asked may have seemed profound to some. Music is indeed a Universal Language, a person might be able to feel the beat, and/or connect with the emotion heard within a singer's voice even if it's in another language. Emotion is one of the most basic things that every human experiences, so it's not surprising that many connect to music, through an emotional story being told or by a song sometimes evoking emotions hidden deep down within ourselves. It might be why sharing music can be deeply personal for some; you are showing a tiny sliver of yourself, possibly opening yourself up to judgment due to the possibility of differing taste levels.
The song below was discovered on one of my 'Discover Weekly' playlists Spoifty creates for each specific user every Monday. The song holds a different meaning to me now than it did a year ago. I connect with this song more, perhaps it's due to the subject manner or because it perfectly expresses how I feel regarding a few different situations. This song can be interrupted in various ways, making it subjective to the listener.
Далече е
И не се върне
Не се върне
И аз гледам към небе, към небето
Да те видя
А ти видиш ли, а ти...
Далече е
И не се върне
English Translation:
It's far away And don't come back Don't come back And I look to the sky, to the sky To see you
In life, we all wear masks knowingly or not... The mask of being polite and nice... being overly formal... and it is misunderstood by others time and time again...
The mask of trying to be friendly and crossing an unknown boundary while trying to connect and fit in... in the hopes of one day being accepted...
The mask of pretending that loneliness is a familiar friend, when in reality it's something that shouldn't be accepted so easily...
A mask falling off and revealing the belief that Loneliness is the human condition...
A mask falling off and revealing the belief that Love isn't real...
A mask falling off and revealing the belief that you aren't simply broken but shattered into a million pieces and that no amount of tape and glue will help you put yourself back together again...
The final mask falling away, revealing the deep belief that you will never be understood and that no one wants to at the end of the day...
I'm only posting the lyrics for the music video version below, as the album version is much longer.
I enjoy the music video version more... You connect with it more... at least I do...
One of these lives, I'ma make things right With the wrongs I've done, that's when I unite
With the Father, Son, 'til then, I fight Rain on me, put the blame on me Got guilt, got hurt, got shame on me
Got six magazines that's aimed at me
Done every magazine, what's fame to me?
(And I'm tripping and falling)
It's a game to me, where the bedroom at?
Sleep, I ain't nevеr had affairs with that What's fair when the hearts and thе words don't reach?
What's fair when the money don't take things back? It's rare when somebody take your dreams back
(And I'm tripping and falling) I care too much, wanna share too much, in my head too much
I shut down too, I ain't there too much
I'm a complex soul, they layered me up Then broke me down, and morality's dust, I lack in trust
(And I'm tripping and falling) This time around, I trust myself
Please everybody else but myself All else fails, I was myself
Outdone fear, outdone myself
This year, you better one yourself
(And I'm tripping and falling)
Masks on the babies, mask on an opp
Wear masks in the neighborhood stores you shop But a mask won't hide who you are inside Look around, the reality's carved in lies
Wipe my ego, dodge my pride
(And I'm tripping and falling) Look myself in the mirror
Amityville, ain't seen nothin' scarier
I fought like a pitbull terrier
Blood I shed could fill up aquariums
Tell all my angels, "Carry 'em"
(And I'm tripping and falling) Every emotion been deprived Even my strong points couldn't survive If I didn't learn to love myself, forgive myself a hundred times, dawg
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me And I'm tripping and falling
And I'm tripping and falling And I'm tripping and falling And I'm...
"Letting go helps us to live in a more peaceful state of mind and helps restore our balance. It allows others to be responsible for themselves and for us to take our hands off situations that do not belong to us."
Join me and raise your middle finger to the negativity and letting go of things you can't control otherwise, you might miss out on what's happening right in front of you... New Experiences, New Dreams, New Goals, Learning to Accept Yourself For Who You Are, Fuck Everyone Else if they can't see how amazing you are and how brightly you shine even during the darkest of hours!
We often forget to enjoy those little moments that appear in life due to sometimes not letting go of something that's already slipped from our fingers, a long held-onto dream that only brings pain due to the realization that it'll never come true, or allowing the past to drag us down be it someone or something that you will grow and thrive without that negative energy impacting our everyday lives...
Here's a song that I came across earlier today that I feel might capture the spirit better than my jumbled words ever could... even though it might just apply to drama and worthless pieces of shit men at the end of the day...
*shrugs and goes to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone*
When the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone, Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
There′s a party shaking, all up in my mind
Everybody's moving, everybody′s fine As I listen to the music, I hear my favorite song,
I think I'm bout to lose it, I think my mind is gone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
I can zone (I can zone I can zone)
I might want to pause for a beat and slow down and get myself together Take a little time to breathe so I don't lose myself forever,
I just wanna live, I just wanna live, I just wanna live my life Without anyone trying to end my peace, just respect my life,
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
I can zone
I can zone
all in my head where
all in my head where
I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
Oh when the world starts getting crazy, I leave the drama all alone,
Go to a place where I can roam, all in my head where I can zone
I can zone (I can zone I can zone)
I beg your pardon, what you sayin′ I′m sorry, I wasn't really listening to the lies coming out your face
I really wish that you′d hurry up go ahead and get up out my space
You takin' all of my energy, everything that I have for me,
It′s time we go our separate ways So baby leave me alone
Won't you leave me alone
Won′t you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Can you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Baby leave me alone
Can you leave me alone
Won't you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Baby leave me alone
Go ahead and get gone
So baby leave me alone
Can you leave me alone
Won't you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Baby leave me alone Go ahead and get gone
I'm going to be rather blunt; Beyoncé did not deserve to win the award for Best Country Album or Album of the Year. It's a major insult to the other musicians who received nominations in those categories, in my opinion. I freely acknowledge that I enjoy Beyonce, but I'm not a member of the "Beehive." However, I thought "Cowboy Carter" was a mediocre album; I enjoyed three of the songs on it. Overall, the album wasn't terrible, but it wasn't the greatest thing ever.
This was the academy's attempt to compensate for the fact that Beyoncé had not yet won the award for album of the year, and it's fucking horrible. Her album Lemonade gave her a chance to win in 2017, but Adele's album 25 was superior. I truly like both of those albums, and it was a very tight race. Renaissance received a nomination in 2023 and was once more up against Adele's album, 30. I still don't really understand why Harry Styles won with Harry's House that year, even though I thought it would be another contest between them.
Lainey Wilson or Kacey Musgraves, in my opinion, deserved to have won Best Country Album. Both of these women had fantastic songs on their albums that were memorable and stuck with you. Musgraves may sound more like folk/soft rock than true country, but the album was still fantastic.
I've already received a lot of criticism for my opinion, which is that as an African American woman, I should be pleased with Beyoncé's win. No, I shouldn't have when the wrong person won; it's not about skin color, it's about the music, and this is beyond unacceptable. Beyoncé didn't have the best album in either category!!!!!!
Kendrick Lamar
Look, I know some people are mad. I am not one of them, I admit that I am a Kendrick Stan. Sorry, Not Sorry! I'm currently trying to find tickets (that won't cost me what's left of my soul) as a graduation gift for my daughter since he'll be in town for the Grand Nation Tour in June, weeks after her high school graduation.
Kendrick Lamar earned Song of the Year and Record of the Year easily; Not Like Us, was everywhere for months, and there was no escape from the song. By bringing it back into the public eye with the litigation and refusing to accept the defeat, Drake did himself no favors. I'm sorry, but none of the other songs nominated could dethrone him. If you haven't heard his music yet, you will get the opportunity to do so next Sunday since he's headlining the Super Bowl Halftime Show. And yes, I am tempted to dedicate a whole Journal post to Kendrick next Sunday.
I might make another journal post with actual music and lyrics later today, after I listen to my Discovery Weekly Playlist on Spotify. Maybe I'll find another hidden gem...
But for now, I am still fucking pissed off about Beyoncé...
I believe that Valentine's Day is a commercial holiday created by corporations to generate additional revenue during the lull between Christmas and Easter. Does expressing one's true feelings to someone require a particular day if one is truly in love?
Why is there a need for a specific day, where it is required to express love and appreciation to your 'partner'? Shouldn't these things already be ingrained into our daily routines? Valentine's Day trivializes the importance of a consistent and healthy relationship. When you take a step back and think about the holiday it suggests that a single grand gesture can compensate for a year of disappointment, neglect, and being an overall shitty partner and person.
Being single on Valentine's Day can feel like you are being called out for repeated failures of why you are not currently in a relationship, often when it wasn't our fault when they didn't work out in the first place. The constant barrage of couples and celebrations can be isolating and disheartening. While some people can embrace being single with pride, the societal pressure to be in a relationship can be particularly depressing let alone dreadful.
Would I love to receive flowers and chocolate? Of course, who wouldn't? But I would rather be in a relationship with someone who makes me feel seen and appreciated the other 364 days of the year. Rather than the string of deadbeats, fuckboys, and overall cowards, I've had the unfortunate pleasure of finding myself in relationships with over the years.
I see the glass as half-empty, even if I strive to embrace positivity and change as I continue to grow and evolve. Oddly I feel a bit better after writing out this rant...
Valentine in December
You say you love me, but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end
Attachment to me is a crime Breaking me still I keep acting surprised
I keep acting surprised
Ich mag dich mehr, wenn du bist weniger
Drowning in words that you couldn't hold on to
You keep pushing me in the cold water
In the cold water, to see if this is pure or not
Valentine in December
You say you love me, but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end
I don't feel hungry, I wanna go to sleep
Tired of everbody acting sketchy
Kissing Cupido goodbye
His arrow caused me red eyes
That make me wish I was blind
At some point you owned my mind
At some point wanted to hide
In December
You say you love me, but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end
'Everybody Love The Sunshine' is one of Roy Ayers' best songs, and even if you've never heard of him, you've probably heard it sampled in other songs over the years. 188 distinct songs in all over the years. His sample has been used in the songs of Dr. Dre, Mary J. Blige, 2Pac, Naughty by Nature, TLC, Logic, Black Eyed Peas, and numerous other artists.
He passed away yesterday at the age of 84. This coming right after the unexpected passing of Angie Stone a few days prior has me going through older songs and fearing the day when older musicians I love will only be a memory of the music they've created for the world.
Since I've already posted a snippet of lyrics and the video for Everybody Loves The Sunshine as a status update, I'll post his appearance on Tiny Desk from 6 years ago, when he was 77. The songs he plays are 'Searching', 'Black Family' and 'Everybody Loves The Sunshine'.
Say butterfly
Up in the sky
I got a story to say
And I'll tell you why
I'm searchin'!
You see, my friend
I need someone
Who feels and needs
The same as I
I'm searchin'!
What's right is right
What's wrong is wrong
I'm gonna sing my song
All day long
I'm searchin'!
Now what went down
I don't believe
And I just know
I can't conceive
I'm searchin'
When love is gone
And one believes
That love will come
Like brand new leaves
I'm searchin'
And then the day
When I will say
That my soul lives
A truthful way
I'm searchin'
Say butterfly
Up in the sky
I got a story to say
And I'll tell you why
I'm searchin'
You see my friend
And I need someone
Who feels and needs
The same as I
I'm searchin'
When it's right,it's right
When it's wrong,it's wrong
I'm gonna sing my song
All day long
I'm searchin'
Say butterfly
Up in the sky
I got a story to say
And I'll tell you why
I'm searchin'
Searchin' for my right mind
Searchin' for my right mind
Searchin' for a new love
Searchin' for my true time
Searchin' for completion
Searchin' for completion
Searchin' for the true time
Searchin' for a new love
Searchin' for the right mind
Searchin' for the right love
Searchin' for the right love
Searchin' for my right mind
My life, my life, my life, my life
In the sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Folks get down in the sunshine (Oooh)
Sunshine (Yeeea-ah)
Folks get brown in the sunshine
Just bees, and things, and flowers
Just bees, and things, and flowers
Just bees, and things, and flowers
Just bees, and things, and flowers
My life, my life, my life, my life
In the sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Everybody loves the sunshine
Sunshine
Folks get down in the sunshine
Sunshine
Folks get brown in the sunshine
Feel what I feel, when I feel what I feel, when I'm feelin'
In the sunshine
Feel what I feel, when I feel what I feel, when I'm feelin'
In the sunshine (Oh yeah yeah yes yes yes)
Do what I do, when I do what I do, when I'm doin'
In the sunshine
Do what I do, when I do what I do, when I'm doin'
In the sunshine (Ooooh ha ah!)
If I were asked to make a top ten or twenty list of artists I love, 311 would always be on the list. My three favorite albums are 'Soundsystem', 'From Chaos' and 'Evolver'.
The final song on the album From Chaos; "I'll Be Here Awhile" can easily make me cry, the same is true about "Sometimes Jacks Rule The Realm" from the album Evolver, which also contains the hidden track 'Coda', which is purely instrumental and hits me every time. I wish I was able to write something much more profound given how this band shaped me when I was younger, they were one of the artists that made me really pay attention to lyrics, looking them up and printing them out so I could make sure that I knew all the words.
So in honor of 311 Day here's their performance from TinyDesk last year, alongside a few of my favorite songs from the band. Give 'Coda' a listen at least if you are willing to give instrumentals a chance... It's about only a 1:13 long...
You got to
You got to
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer, hear why
To come original, it ain't nothin' strange
You got to represent, you got come full range and
Full range of emotion, full range of styles
When you come to town you'll have them comin' for miles and
Come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer, hear why
Black Eyed Peas, they comin' full range and
NOFX, they comin' full range and
Roni Size, he's comin' full range
The one Mr. Vegas, you know it ain't easy, ha!
A warning to the crews out there who think they're hot
If you're not original, rockers, you will get shot
Down by the kids neglectin' your art, the stuff you did
Eventually it get so bad it puts you to bed
'Cause when the lightning flashes sweet electricity
All the world then stands revealed with the clarity
Of raw voltage, briefly we see, and the hope is
You'll be able to tell just what dope is
Come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer, hear why
Funk slap bass mixed with the dancehall and
Hip-hop beats and punk guitar and
Deadly on the mic, the one SA
Name is 311 and you know it ain't easy, ha!
Come on, come on!
This is not a test, there's no time to mope
How you gonna cope with radioactive isotope
And boss DJ, illness upon you quickly
Infecting you fast on the airwaves
This message brought to you by the so large system
Activate and attune yourself with meditation
And green plants, they've got mad life, they're sentient
They're beautiful as you and they like to dance
(One, two, three, four)
Everything we do we gotta come original
Put your hand up in the air and prepare for battle
Sit upon the rhythm like a tire upon the rim
We do it nonstop and then we do it again
Some of them whine and some of them bitch, they cannot do it, never switch
Comin' up from the heart and delivered with a wild pitch
Sit up on top of the rhythm like a wild stallion
This is the rulin' system
Come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainers come original
You got to come original, you got to come original
All entertainer
Come original
Uncalm, uncalm, uncalm
Listen to the drummer just listen to the strings
Listen to the DJ just rappin' and things
Once I get a message from you I get all edgy
My mind's racing but my you know not ready uh
For you, baby all our dreams trickle through
We are back in your teenage bedroom
Salvador Dali honeymoon for you
It's like you and me on Plymouth Rock
Embarking on a journey that I never thought
Would happen to me so effortlessly
Sparks flying, your laughter is a symphony Spring, what a little moonlight can do
Soon the summer sun is on you
All the while we don't hear the news or feel blue
On the scales of desire your absence weighs More than someone else's presence
I wanna kiss reason goodbye today
I wanna show its purple essence
On your lips baby it'll fade away
Return your natural iridescence
On the scales of desire your absence weighs More than someone else's presence
You make me feel uncalm and I think I like it
Make me think of a song that I could not write yet
Melodies create themselves I'm just a conduit
You make my heart accelerate and I'm on to it
For you, baby there's so much that I will do
To be near the sweetness on you
Funny everything seems so new when with you
On the scales of desire your absence weighs More than someone else's presence
I wanna kiss reason goodbye today
I wanna show its purple essence
On your lips baby it'll fade away
Return your natural iridescence
On the scales of desire your absence weighs
More than someone else's presence Uncalm, uncalm
When I first started watching Game of Thrones in the late summer/autumn of 2014, when the character 'Grey Worm' was introduced, I thought he looked like that guy who I'd just saved a few of his music videos to my YouTube music playlist. When I finally got around to looking up the actor's name of Grey Worm, I discovered that he was also Raleigh Ritchie, having a musical career.
Currently he's starring in 'Interview with the Vampire' as the vampire Louis de Pointe du Lac. Not that I've watched any of it TBH
Below are two of his earlier songs that I still easily connect with...
Hate me when I'm gone, I'll make it worth your while when I'm successful But when I'm here I need your kindness cause the climb is always stressful
Clumsily gassed myself by thinking I'll be better off alone I'll leave my peace in pieces all around the decent people back at home
'Cause I'm a big boy, an adult now, well nearly
If I pull the wool back from my eyes I can see clearly
The world is at my feet and I am standing on the ceiling, oh
And I fall, fall, fall, when it all comes down
And I won't be crushed by the weight of this town I fall from the sky but I won't fall forever
I fall but when I'll rise I'll be stronger than ever
Official man, delusions grand, now I'm a free agent
I'm here to make a stand for causes I don't understand and make a statement
I fall short on knowledge, I don't even watch the news
Can't be arsed with college, it's nothing but a human zoo
'Cause I'm a big boy, an adult now, well nearly
If I pull the wool back from my eyes I can see clearly
The world is at my feet and I am standing on the ceiling, oh
And I fall, fall, fall, when it all comes down
And I won't be crushed by the weight of this town I fall from the sky but I won't fall forever
I fall but when I'll rise I'll be stronger than ever
I'm not defeated, I believe that I can turn this ship around
Destroy the status quo until I know I found a common ground
I'm not alone, I'm just focused in my zone, this is easy
I'm fine, I just need time to turn this into home, I'm good, believe me Believe me when I say I'm gonna be
Big explosions crack through thunderous mountains
Hearts exploding, minds, volcanoes pop and blow I'm not alone, I'm not alone
Who am I kidding? I'm sad, no ideas coming
It's driving me mad and I'm fighting
It's turning me bad, I'm loaded, rage is taking me over
I just wanna be home with all my friends and family
Mum and dad, it's closing in on me, I need recovery, coming home I'm coming home and I need closure, I need closure
'Cause I'm a big boy, an adult now, well nearly
If I pull the wool back from my eyes I can see clearly
The world is at my feet and I am standing on the ceiling, oh
And I fall, fall, fall, when it all comes down
And I won't be crushed by the weight of this town I fall from the sky but I won't fall forever I fall but when I'll rise I'll be stronger than ever
Drugs and girls, love and death
Is all that goes through my head
I shrink the world, nothing left I'll sleep when I am dead
Blame me, I'm not playing ball
Hate me, it's insatiable
Not lazy, I just can't face it all
And I can't
And I won't And I don't know
When the under dogs rise again, I'll have my time
When my body starts turning in, I'll have my mind
Nothing is getting in, not even light I'm gonna stay inside, stay inside
TV news, frozen food, in here my life's not hard
I don't use the bed in my room
Cause I don't wanna drop my guard
Judge me, I will understand I'm ugly, only half a man
It's your country, and I'm contraband
Love me and I'll leave your land
When the under dogs rise again, I'll have my time
When my body starts turning in, I'll have my mind
Nothing is getting in, not even light
I'm gonna stay inside, stay inside
How can I please you, when I can't please myself? I've given up on what you call living I have not yet forgiven myself
When the under dogs rise again, I'll have my time
When my body starts turning in, I'll have my mind Nothing is getting in, not even light
I'm gonna stay inside, stay inside
I don't want to make another journal with my poor editing/coding attempts. I've been trying to learn xtables over the last few days, due to being inspired by a new story. I know they might not look the best (compared to the many talented people I see using xtables and other coding around the site. BTW they're so stunning), but I'm proud of myself for the attempt and opening up Photoshop again to edit images and create text without help.
I should post music since that's what I made this journal for... My apologies for posting randomness...
Lately I've been staring at the dark
Turn my inner demons into art
Struggle with the pain inside my heart
Wish I didn't care about what they'll
Say what you want to say
What you want to say
What you want her to say
What you want
No one
Say what you want to say
What you want to say
What you want to say
What you want
No one
No one stops you from being yourself You know it's all in your head
I've been trying my hand again at making xtables, wanting to make things look pretty for once... at least for a brand new story. I think I finally figured out a basic xtable, that works character-wise. I think it turned out nicely after some trial and error but I'm feeling beyond wired yet that might be due to the Red Bull I had hours ago.
If anyone is trying to learn xtables or understand the coding a bit better, I've been reading through ˖ ⁺ XTABLES — 𝐚 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞. that @reverie. created, it's filled with so much information!
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Here's some music as an apology for posting about xtables once again...
I apologize
Do you know
We are the young ghosts
In reverse Our stories unfold
Moving slow
We're just killing time
And we know
This fear is a crime
Surrender to your love
Surrender to your heart
Surrender
We are swimmers
Caught in the tide
Pitch black river
Shadows and light
Into the night
Beautiful swimmers
Losing the fight
A constant river
Shadows and light
Into the night
Coming home
We're shaking the grass
All alone
So far from the path
Do you know
I see you so clear
Yes I know
It's happening here
Surrender to your love
Surrender to your heart Surrender
I know that there has to be someone else out there who remembers the old Adult Swim Bumps... (please someone be older like me...)
What is a Bump?
A bump is a break between advertising and programming for playing bumps. A bump is typically used to announce the next episode to air on the station; however, Adult Swim took this brief interlude to a higher level.
Adult Swim aired short to medium-length clips between their shows with a wide array of themes; from music and film with a focus on the abstract, absurd, disturbing, serene, and peaceful. The beginnings of my love for Lo-Fi music came from Adult Swim Bumps, and just a bit ago I stumbled upon a website that has archived most of the bumps from over the years, dating back to 2001.
One of my favorite bumps was when they finally revealed the title and artist of a bump that I was obsessed with, searching high and low to find out who it was.
I wish I could directly link some bumps so they showed in the post, they are only about 15 seconds in length at max, Meow Meow: Stretchy Cat never fails to make me smile. (I bet you can link them but I freaking suck!)
Here are two of my favorite bump songs that I found on YouTube long ago after finding the full versions of these two songs. The song from the Baggage Room thatAS finally gifted the viewers and another from Samurai Champloo. (I really should rewatch that show soon...)
Sorry I am so happy now, I'll be going through that website for the next week and finally finding out the title to some songs that I was obsessed with back in the day.
I would like to explore the idea of an arranged marriage between a couple who has met only once or twice with rather brief exchanges with one another before the wedding. I'm open to this being in a setting that is modern, modern/fantasy, or fantasy. Is this a marriage to join two rival companies together or neighboring kingdoms?
The woman would rightfully have reservations, yet her family would emphasize the importance of tradition and duty. Perhaps the man is charming and composed, with an intensity in his eyes that both intrigues and intimidates the woman.
Initially, their relationship could be sweet and romantic or it could be distant and cold with the pair staying away from one another unless the man wants sexual relations from the woman.
There's something about the man's confidence and expert guidance that draws her in, and she finds herself wanting to please him. He sets different boundaries and rules to give the woman a false sense of security wanting to see what her limits might be before pushing past them.
As time passes, the man's controlling nature could become more pronounced. Making decisions for the woman, from her wardrobe to her social interactions, along with things in the bedroom. In the beginning, she might appreciate the attention, but over time she begins to feel suffocated and less like a person. Perhaps the couple enters a power struggle; The woman's innocence clashes with the man's true nature, even while the woman has conflicting feelings regarding her submission.
Everything is negotiable as I would like for this to be a true collaboration
After having a drink, I thought why not listen to the new Will Smith Album that came out yesterday? Jesus Christ, I've never regretted such a decision. Look I geeked out to one song and then two others weren't that bad... 3/14 songs.... but I am not sure that's due to my current state of accepting things due to having a drink, the lyrics hitting, or losing all of my common sense and fucking reason... I am questioning all of my life decisions right now...
Please will someone message me music that can serve as a palate cleanser from this dreadful mess of an album!!
Look the Sammy Sosa/Barry Bonds line made me laugh given they are two disgraced players, also the Master P line. (Jesus how old am I? ...No Limit)
Below is the song that I kinda geeked out to, some of the lyrics hit when listening and made sense after looking up the words and reading... (Do I fucking have low standards? Am I more depressed than I thought? Please send help!)
[Chorus: Will Smith] Back on my journey, I'm takin' my chances
Searchin' and questionin', lookin' for answers
Hopin' this medicine heal all the damage
My inner child keep throwin' a tantrum
[Verse 1: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas] Why does my ego keep holdin' me ransom?
Why does my fear control me at random?
Life can get ugly, but fuck it, I'm handsome
I'm 'bout to face all this shit I been runnin' from
You might relate to the places I'm comin' from I been through trauma I thought I'd recover from
I got regrets, you heard about some of them
This is gon' make my heart bang like a rubber drum
I will not sugarcoat this stuff with bubblegum
Goin' through troubles, I hate what the trouble done
I hate to be the thing that people suffer from (Ooh)
[Verse 2: Joyner Lucas]
You cannot replicate me, I'm a one-of-one, you are not one of them (Ayy)
Damn, I forgot and there won't be another one, I'm always number one
After the rain, then I know that the sun'll come, I see the life in the treetops
I am not God, but I know I'm a son of Him, you just a son of a biotch
I know exactly just what they been doin'
They counted me out, but your numbers ain't showin' I know where I've been, I don't know where I'm goin'
If you wanna boat, then you better keep rowin'
'Cause I'm so way up, I might get me a Boeing
Flyin' with angels, they sent me an omen
The devil tried get me, the forces are with me
Yo', Jesus, come lift me 'cause this is my moment and woo
[Chorus: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas]
Back on my journey, I'm takin' my chances
Searchin' and questionin', lookin' for answers
Hopin' this medicine heal all the damage
My inner child keep throwin' a tantrum Ayy, I took my traumas and made it a anthem, ayy, mm
[Verse 3: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas]
I done came too far to hand it over
I'ma keep my head up like a man supposed to (Grr)
I done took my punches, they was standin' over (Brr)
Devil want my soul, I couldn't hand it over (Grr) I ain't picture perfect, think the camera's broken
Had to shut the door, they couldn't slam it on 'em (Grr)
How you sleepin' on me when I am a sofa?
Tryna trample on me, you get tramped over (Brr)
Joker's thinkin' sweet, this ain't no damn mimosa
This a aerosol inside a Arizona This the Barry Bonds mixed with Sammy Sosa
This a loose screw inside a damaged motor (Yeah)
This a graduation with no damn diploma This is aggregation, this is validation (Brr)
I got open wounds, ain't no Bacitracin This a bigger world of my imagination
This is me, woo!
[Verse 4: Joyner Lucas & Will Smith] Martin Luther had a dream (Dream)
Joyner Lucas had a vision I became everything I had to be (Woo)
I've been livin' like there's no limits and I learned the game from Master P (P)
I'm starin' at my reflection wonderin' why it isn't starin' back at me (Why?)
What it's gon' be? Oh, y'all forgot I ain't new with the pen
First hip-hop Grammy, I do it again (Woo) I'm doin' me, I ain't doin' no trends
Findin' myself with the music again
Difference is I don't need music to win
Soon as I dropped and I'm boomin' again (Boom) Back to the crown, it's the mood that I'm in
Promise ain't nobody truer than him
Will
[Chorus: Will Smith & Joyner Lucas] Back on my journey, I'm takin' my chances
Searchin' and questionin', lookin' for answers
Hopin' this medicine heal all the damage
My inner child keep throwin' a tantrum (Yeah, yeah) Ayy, I took my traumas and made it a anthem, ayy, mm
Woo
Today's my birthday and I turn another year older.
I can't help but think about my past and what's in store for the future. I think it has more to do with the fact the next 6 weeks are going to be a whirlwind. I thought that I would be writing something very profound and insightful but I started thinking about wishes and how sometimes people have all their hopes and dreams riding on a single wish. Rather than wishing for something, this year I wanted to set little goals/thoughts for myself. (I might add to this list throughout the day)
- I want to give myself credit more often.
- I want to improve creatively, be it through my writing, getting back into Photoshop, or learning more about coding in general.
- I want to be open to new experiences that might appear unexpectedly.
- I want to be more courageous.
- Always make room to take risks, and be creative.
- Smile more often.
Anyway, forgive the personal stuff, I'll get on to the music.
Marvin Gaye
Born on April 2, 1939, Marvin Gaye passed away tragically on April 1, 1984, the day before his 45th birthday, when his father; Marvin Gaye Sr. killed him as Marvin attempted to break up an argument between his parents. After it was discovered Gaye Sr. had a brain tumor, his father was granted probation and a suspended six-year prison sentence; the elder Gaye Sr. passed away in 1998.
Some people may think it is strange to look up which celebrity was born on your birthday... look I also share birthdays with Pedro Pascal, Christopher Meloni (Stabler), Jesse Plemons (Landry... Clear Eyes Full Hearts, Can't Lose!), and many others. However, I was aware of the fact that I shared a birthday with Marvin Gaye from a very young age. In first grade, I dressed up alongside my classmates in trash bags, along with the sunglasses from the 1990s; the ones with the colored arms that were so popular and hip back then, and performed a routine to the song "I Heard It Through The Grapevine" by "The Californian Raisins." There is still a VSH tape in my mother's basement that I need to find and destroy of that performance... When I was six years old, I remember spending weeks practicing the song and the dance routine to make sure that I remembered every word and move. My mother then explained to me that the Raisins performed covers of well-known songs. (Sorry rambling about personal shit.)
From my research which might be wrong, there are 1398 samples, 919 covers, and 26 remixes of Marvin Gaye's music over the years. There is one song, 'Just Like Music' by Eric Sermon, which samples Gaye's demo version of 'I Got My Music' that came out in 2001, which is still a favorite of mine I always make a point to listen to on my birthday. I also think the demo version of 'I Got My Music' is better than the album version, but that's just my personal opinion which may not be shared by many.
There's a mashup of Marvin Gaye's, 'I Heard It Through The Grapevine' and Gorillaz's 'Feel Good Inc.' from DJ Hero, which to this day I still love so much. (I'll make a whole journal entry about Gorillaz at some point in the future...) I feel the songs perfectly play off one another in a way that I could've never imagined until hearing the mix myself when playing a demo of DJ Hero at Best Buy when it came out. Jesus, I'm really feeling old today... I am so thankful this version is up on YouTube otherwise I would've been a bit better about the fact a CD soundtrack for the game was never released like it should've been. The game was truly before its time and I will forever stand firm in that belief.
Below I've shared the following songs and their lyrics:
'Just Like Music' by Erick Sermon Featuring Marvin Gaye 'I Got My Music' (Vocal Version) by Marvin Gaye 'Trouble Man' by Marvin Gaye
[Intro: Erick Sermon & Marvin Gaye]
Just like music..
Uh-huh, ayy yoyo, uh-huh yeah yeah, uh uh uh
There's no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, uh
Worrdd up...
Ahhh babyyy...
Just like music...
[Verse 1: Erick Sermon & Marvin Gaye] To relax my mind, so I can be free
And ab-sorb sound that keep me 'round
Doin my thang, constantly with no worries
Peace to Keith Murray.. ("Just like music")
To keep me flowin and keep me goin
And keep me growin, and keep me the E from knowin
What happens out there, is not my concern
You wanna die it's not my turn ("Just like music")
To do somethin' to me like jump in the Mercedes
On the highway, doin' over eighty
Without music baby.. ("Oww! I'll go crazy.. just like music")
Make me call my homey on the phone Like there's somethin' new out, that got me in the zone
Just that feelin, got me
I wish music can adopt me ("Just like music")
[Chorus: Marvin Gaye] Turn on some music, I got my music
Turn on some music, I got my music
Turn on some music, I got my music Turn on some music, I got my music - just like music
[Verse 2: Erick Sermon & Marvin Gaye]
Put me in the mood with my woman
Got me in the ear, sayin sweet nothings
Make love come out the mouth, no frontin Like all of a sudden, ("Just like music") Takin away your worries and cares Any problems, music'll be right there
Together match yo, we a perfect pair
Is that true Marvin? ("Yeahhhhh! Music")
Yo, to get you to bang this
Body soul-snatcher, universal language
It be the light, so open up
This is it, what the fuck? ("Just like music")
One fly tune
That have black and white vibe in one room
No confrontation, parlay all night
It's just the sensation ("Just like music")
[Chorus: Marvin Gaye] Turn on some music, I got my music
Turn on some music, I got my music
Turn on some music, I got my music
Turn on some music, I got my music - just like music
[Verse 3: Marvin Gaye] Music is the soul of the man Music makes a happy day
Music makes the clouds roll by baby
Your music is my tears inside my eyes (Just like music)
Your music makes me want to sing
Girl, music is a joy to bring (Just like music)
Music is my heart and soul, more precious thangold (Turn on some music, I got my music)
Happiness today is just a song away, just a song
(Turn on some music, I got my music)
I love your music baby (I got my music)
I don't worry 'bout a thing (Turn on some music, I got my music - just like music)
[Outro: Marvin Gaye] Hey (La-da-da-da-daaaa-dah-dah-dahh) doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Turn on some music (La-da-da-da-daaaa) turn on some music Just like music (La-da-da-da-daaaa-dah-dah-dahh) doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Dreams of you, dreams of you
Are so fine, so fine, baby
Since I woke up
So is my state of mind
Since we've been apart, baby
God has healed my heart
Used to go out looking for love
Now love is looking for me
And sweet music keeps me happy
Not so long ago, darling, I was feeling sad
Who would've kissed my lips
I would've still felt bad, ah baby
There were times I've wondered if I was insane
Ah baby, I simply let my tear drop fall like rain
Oh baby, but when I kiss your lips
The clouds begin to roll away
Uh, down to my finger tips
I feel the happiness each day
Oh, my Mama said to me
She told me, son love goes where you take it
So, stay with the spirit, boy
I feel that you gonna make it, yeah
Got me wondering, yeah 'Cause music's been my therapy
Taking the pain from all my anatomy
Music has never let me down It's my symphony, always stayin' in me
Who'd know that the world ain't right, ah baby
Lots of people uptight I'll go crazy if something ever happened to my musical thrill
And darling your love is just like music Music is the soul of the man
Music makes a happy day Music makes the clouds roll by, baby
Your music kissed my tears and set my eyes
Your music makes me want to sing
Your music is a joy to bring Music is my heart and soul
It's more precious thangold
You're like a song in my heart
I love every part
A song, you're like a song Happiness today is just a song away, just a song
I love your music, baby
I don't worry 'bout a thing Oh, turn on your music, baby
See my happiness beam Your love is music
Oh my darling, yeah
Your love is music, ah baby, yeah
And music is my life
Turn on some music more
Hey, turn on some music more
I got my music, hey, hey
I love my music, hey
We need the music
I got my music, hey
I love the music, oh
Turn on some music
Get off the music, ah
Turn up the music
Let's have the music, ha
[Verse 1]
I come up hard, baby, but now I'm cool
I didn't make it, sugar, playing by the rules
I come up hard, baby, but now I'm fine
I'm checking trouble, sugar, moving down the line
I come up hard, baby, but that's okay
'Cause Trouble Man don't get in my way
[Post-Verse 1]
I come up hard, baby
I've been for real, baby
Gonna keep moving, gonna go to town
I come up hard, I come up gettin' down There's only three things, that's for sure
Taxes, death, and trouble, oh
This I've known, baby, this I've known, sugar
Yeah, ain't gonna let it sweat me, babe
[Interlude]
It's got me singing
Yeah, yeah
Woo-ooh
[Verse 2]
I come up hard, baby, I had to fight
Took care of my business with all my might
I come up hard, awful hard, I had to win
Then start all over and win again
I come up hard, but that's okay
'Cause Trouble Man don't get in my way, hey, hey
[Bridge] I know some places And I see some faces
I got good connections
They dig my directions
What people say, that's okay
They don't bother me, no
I'm ready to make it
Don't care what the weather
Don't care 'bout no trouble
Got myself together
I feel that kind of protection
That's all around me
[Post-Verse 2]
I come up hard, baby
I've been for real, baby, with the troubled minds
I'm moving, going to town
I come up hard, I come up gettin' down There's only three things for sure
Taxes, death, and trouble, oh
This I've known, baby, this I've known, baby
Ain't gonna let it sweat me, babe
Woo, oh lord, baby
[Verse 3]
Woo, I come up hard, but now I'm cool
I didn't make it, baby, playing by the rules
I come up hard, baby, now I'm fine
I'm checking trouble, sugar
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