Slow but steady lifestyle changes have been making me feel better physically. Without going any deeper into my personal health many things that stressed me out before and made me worry about my health have actually gone away, or significantly weakened, so it seems I am doing something right. I should look more what I eat, but one step at the time as they say.
However to offset that I have been sick basically this whole month, and for some reason my toe was hurting like hell for almost three weeks. Not sure what even happened to it. It just started to hurt like hell while I was walking at the wedding I attended to, made walking a total pain for two following weeks till it just went away, so couldn't really go out and to walk which has always been my exercise of choice, but the pain is now away, and I can do my imprompt midnight store-runs and walks as I please.
Mental health is what it is. Got slapped with a mild to moderate depression diagnosis, so back in therapy and shit.
Other than that it's been same-old same-old. Going to attend a convention in two weeks, so most likely will post my loots here like last time. Need to do couple of changes to my cosplay which will keep me busy a while...
Also my dad is getting a new dog, which he will go pick-up next week! A bit sad that I don't live at my parents anymore and have to wait a day or two for the puppy to settle in before going to see him, but I understand that me going there when I don't live there would overwhelm the little fellow too much, so I just got to contain myself and visit him at the end of the week...
... Glad that he lives a two - three minute walking distance away so I can just go to see both him and puppy whenever tho!
Roleplaying
In truth: I just feel like a shitty roleplaying partner right now
This might just be my depressed ass speaking, but due my absences and the fact that my OOC has been pretty fickle and spotty as well I feel like I've let my partners down and/or lost their interest. While I know that most likely is not the case and it's just my anxiousness talking, especially when I've never really been a fast replier to either, but just can't help thinking this way. I feel like the hurdle to log-in on the site and seeing all the RPs and OOCs I have yet to reply is mounting, and I am the weird spot where the drive to reply to RPs is there... But at the same time I feel like the
This feeling especially adds if I feel like the OOC-chemistry between me and my partner has died. There are some partners I feel I have great chemistry and I vibe with even if the messages sent have month between them, but there are also cases where I feel like the vibe was lost along the way, and since the good OOC vibes translate to good RP usually the OOC that has lost it's steam does translate to me being more intimidated to reply to RP. Double this if I see/feel the discussion and/or interest towards it dying (in my PoV).
So I guess that I am learning more things about myself as a roleplayer. And good OOC-vibes and the ability to have a casual online friendship plays a lot bigger part for me than I initially though, which is not helped by the fact that I am extremely bad at starting casual conversations and just being an introverted mess who stress over about coming out as an awkward mess when talking and ends up yapping and inflating the OOC discussion to an extent where my partner gets annoyed and or bored of my yapping.
So yeah... Not sure where I am going with my roleplaying at the moment. I try to take one step at a time with it as well and see how it goes.
Once again if you're my partner I want to thank you for the patience you have for me and my wonky butt. I try to get at you as soon as possible, and if you've lost the drive or motivation to our play while waiting I totally understand and wish you the best in your other RPs and such! Thanks for giving a Baka™ a try!
I guess that's enough anxious rambling for one day. My next update is most likely me displaying my convention-haul so a lot more positive one!
I fucked-up the numbering apparently. It is what it is I guess lol
AAt the beginning of the year I posted my convention loots here just to balance out all the serious stuff I write here, and to share a little about my passion with readers on here and my partners. It worked better than I expected and I got to chat about some neat stuff with my partners whom I hadn't previously shared any of my loots, so I decided to do it again.
Overall convention experience
Like always I had a ton of fun. Got to cosplay Madoka Kaname from Madoka Magica and one of my friends cosplayed Homura Akemi from the same series. We had planned on doing a couple cosplay for ages and finally had a chance for it. As for program there was a lot of... Lewd themed programs this time around. First one we atttended to was literally called "Manifest about gooning", and despite the name it was extremely fun and entertaining program. Other than that attended to a transfem manga lecture and a lecture about AI hentai where the lecturer delved deep into legal side of it, which was really interesting.
Special guest of the con was Kamome Shirahama. Mangaka of one of my favorite manga of all time "Witch Hat Atelier". I attended to her lecture, but sadly didn't get her autograph (it was limited to 60 person and you had to win a lottery to get it... So fuck me...).
We also san anime karaoke till 4am at the place where we stayed and all, so had a really fun time. Weekend went much faster than I liked and I'm already missing my friends lol
Loot time!
This conventions haul and the loot pics are a bit different, since most of the manga here, Sailor Moon DVD-boxsets and the cow-print in the lewd-section are something my friends got me before the convention. We like to help one another out with our collections and when we see something someone could like we usually hit them up and ask if they want it. So those are something they got me after the last convention and now brought them to me.
Other than that this conventions flea market wasn't the greatest. I did find some cool things, but most manga was overpriced and the selection was not all that great. In terms of figures however I did some great rare finds. And artist-alley never disappoints. I bought few brand-new manga and doujins as well, as well as one figure so overall a nice haul.
But enough of that. Like last year I yap something about the pics and save NSFW-stuff for last.
Figures, DVDs and itabag
Was surprised to find two Precure figures at a relatively great price. I am sucker for Precure-merch and buy them instantly, but figures are by far the best ones to come-by. My friend also brought me a few Precure mini-figures and a price figure of Akane Hino from Smile Precure, but forgot to take pics of them.
Anis I bought purely because I am weak for her... I have not even played NIKKE, but have few characters I really like. Might someday try it out, but since I have hands ful lwith Bandori, Limbus Company, FGO and Umamusume when it comes globally available this month I am not sure when.
These Sailor Moon boxsets were something my friend got to me. At first I was unsure about getting them since I mainly collect manga, but after finding out these are original releases that are rare to come by and can cost you a pretty penny I asked my friend to get them for me since they were cheap. Really happy to own the S3 and 4 like this. These were also first uncut releases of the series in west if I am correct which is also neat.
Haibane Renmei cost me literally 1€ so I took it. The series is amazing so I recommend everyone who likes psychological, somber mystery and SoL-like anime to give it a go.
Itabag I got because my old one was too small and the shape of the window not the ideal for displaying my charms and pins. Here's how it looks like now that it has everything I want inside it:
Manga
This first picture is all the Finnish releases I got. Here in Finland we actually have pretty thriving manga-translation business going on. Neon Genesis Evangelion and Time Stranger Kyoko are OOP here, but I got them fairly cheap used. The Ancient Magus Bride (Velhon Morsian here in Finnish) and The Case Study of Vanitas (Vanitaksen Kirja) are newer releases, but my friend bought the Magus Bride for me used. Vanitas is brand-spanking new release though.
I highly recommend NGE manga for those who have not read it. It's like combination of series and End of Evangelion with original ending and scenes added.
First batch of English translated manga. Especially happy about Rozen Maiden, Skip Beat, World Trigger and Bakarina LN finds. Murcielago is also extremely entertaining series based on the first volume. Extremely gay and over-the-top.
Batch 2 of English releases. I was jumping up and down from joy when I found "The Guy She Was Interested In Wasn't A Guy At All" first volume. I absolutely love the series. Cheap Higurashi is also always a good find. Extremely interested in reading Happiness since every Shuzo Oshimi series I've read has been amazing.
Artist-alley finds and random loots
MAinly bought charms and prints of series I love. "It's A Date" is a random local yuri one-shot I found from artist-alley. It was extremely comfy and cute read!
'Imaizumi Brings All The Cute Gals To His House' I forgot to put previous pics so put it here. I got it 50% off, and since I like the original source material (which is hentai) I thought to give the SoL, romance or whatever non-h adaptation of it a try. Plus I just love gyarus.
These are just two cute charms/pins I found from flea market of the convention. Bandori stuff always gets my attention, and was surprised to see Aquatope-merch at all.
Hentai
Now it's time for degeneracy
Kawaisaw, Erect-Sawaru and Asanagi were a must-buy in doujin section. So were Precure-themed works. Yukari from P3 doujin my friend just put in my hands and said 'this is good one'.... So I got it lol. On the right there are doujin-book, stickers and a dakimakura-cover from a local NSFW-artist that I really like. The chubby cow print is something my friend got me... The very same one who recommended the Yukari doujin lol.
And that's all!
That's all for now. Did some fun finds and now my wallet is crying as usual. Next one will probably come in september. If everything goes well I will actually host a program there, but we'll see! Thanks for checking this out as usual!
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