sevenpercentsolution
Supernova
- Joined
- Jan 11, 2009
He couldn't be entirely sure when the transition had happened; he had gone for seventeen years without contact, but at some point it had gone beyond a self-exile, beyond a punishment that he had sentanced himself to for what he had done to Marni - at some point, killing had become easier than putting up with being touched. Yanking out someone's still-beating heart was more acceptable to him than the idea of someone brushing a hand against his shoulder, touching his hair, or brushing lips with him.
He couldn't pin point the time he had begun to recoil from touch, because he had gone so long without it that the change could have happened at any juncture in the time since his wife had passed, though the guilt had been there from the very minute she had stopped breathing.
As Graverobber took another step towards him, Nathan could suddenly feel his own heart beating in his chest, and he felt as if it was so loud that the other man might be able to hear it; why had he done this, why had he looked for Graverobber again, knowing how the other would behave? Nathan was suddenly incredibly conscious of the situation, and he took another step away, so hasty that his back actually struck up against the side of the emergency exit behind him. It sounded painful, but he didn't acknowledge it, he kept his eyes on Graverobber; he had to fight back the urge to tell the other man not to touch him again, because he knew the scavenger would only be amused by the discomfort.
He could feel Repo crawling into his chest and up his throat again, trying to take over once more, and though Nathan had always been aware that he wasn't the most stable human being alive, he was suddenly clear on what it actually felt like to go insane. He didn't fight it, he let the Repo Man take the reins again, because Nathan's stress levels were already so high that there was the concern he might actually pop a blood vessel.
He couldn't pin point the time he had begun to recoil from touch, because he had gone so long without it that the change could have happened at any juncture in the time since his wife had passed, though the guilt had been there from the very minute she had stopped breathing.
As Graverobber took another step towards him, Nathan could suddenly feel his own heart beating in his chest, and he felt as if it was so loud that the other man might be able to hear it; why had he done this, why had he looked for Graverobber again, knowing how the other would behave? Nathan was suddenly incredibly conscious of the situation, and he took another step away, so hasty that his back actually struck up against the side of the emergency exit behind him. It sounded painful, but he didn't acknowledge it, he kept his eyes on Graverobber; he had to fight back the urge to tell the other man not to touch him again, because he knew the scavenger would only be amused by the discomfort.
He could feel Repo crawling into his chest and up his throat again, trying to take over once more, and though Nathan had always been aware that he wasn't the most stable human being alive, he was suddenly clear on what it actually felt like to go insane. He didn't fight it, he let the Repo Man take the reins again, because Nathan's stress levels were already so high that there was the concern he might actually pop a blood vessel.