‘Luke, this is our first rehearsal and I want to spend some time talking about your time in prison, your character’s that is. Have you had any thoughts about it?’
‘Well, Toni, it’s all been left vague, deliberately I suppose, just hints here and there. I don’t know what it was for or for how long I was incarcerated. I see it as background to explain why I’ve not been sexually active lately.’
‘Yes, well, speaking of sexual activity. How are you both getting on with your enforced abstinence?’
Luke put his head down, as if embarrassed to discuss the subject.
‘It’s not something we’re used to, I have to admit. Surprisingly, it’s been easier for me than Jenny, probably because I have a purpose in it. I’ve been touched by her reaction actually. I’ve made sure she doesn’t miss out, obviously, but she still feels the loss of being able to give me satisfaction. I hadn’t realised how much that meant to her. To both of us actually.’
‘Right, well hopefully this experience may bring the two of your closer.’ Her tone changed and became brisker. ‘Now, your time in prison. It’s been left vague, that’s right, but that’s for the audience. It can’t be vague for you, because it affects your behaviour, your character’s behaviour. So tell me, have you given any thought to the man-on-man sex while you were there?’
‘NO. No, I haven’t no. You hear rumours of course, but well no-’
‘I think we have to confront this, Luke. I see it as a major influence on your character and how he relates to his aunt. Be honest, you’re a handsome guy and that is going to attract attention. All the more if anyone gets a glimpse of what you’ve got stacked away in your shorts.’
‘You think so?’
‘Sure, I do.’ Toni moved closer to Luke. ‘Those bodybuilders down the gym will soon be taking an interest. Bumping into your, rubbing against you in the corridors or the queue in the canteen.’ Toni pushed her body against his. ‘Feeling you up, discreetly,’ her hand slid behind him and fondled his buttocks, ‘or not so discreetly,’ the hand slid round and grabbed his balls, causing Luke to flinch.
Toni advanced on him, forcing him back until he collided with a table.
‘They’re big guys. Spend their days pumping iron, building their muscles. They’re pumped full of testosterone. Maybe steroids too, our gaols are awash with drugs. On heat and eyeing up the talent, talent like you’re packing.’ Her fingers had unfastened Luke’s jeans before he had time to notice, pushing them over his hips, down his thighs.
‘Have you ever had your ass fucked?’ Luke shook his head. ‘Not even in college? In the changing room or shower, a brief encounter?’ Luke was silent. ‘A big guy, muscle bound, horny, thick cock, looking for a tight ass, black cock, looking for a pretty-boy cunt. That’s what they call them, did you know that?’ Luke shook his head, unsure of where this was leading.
‘You need to get some experience to really appreciate how it feels. I could have a word with one of the guys handling the lighting if you like. I’ve seen one checking you out.’ She stared at Luke’s panic stricken face. ‘Well, maybe not, but I’ve got the next best thing.’ She reached to a bag on the table and pulled out a strap-on dildo. ‘Turn round, pretty boy, let daddy show you what it’s like.’
Luke tried to push away but was trapped between the director and the table.
‘Look, really, Toni, this isn’t necessary. I’m an actor, I can think myself into-’
‘No, you can’t, that’s the point, to be true to the part you have to bring something of yourself, of your own experience to it. And I’m here to give it to you.’ As she spoke she wrapped the straps around her waist and thighs, tightening them to how the strap-on secure. ‘It’ll just be the two of us and no one will ever know. Not like in the prison where there’ll be other guys watching queueing for their turn. Not like in the prison where everyone will know that you’re that big guy’s woman.’ A firm grip spun Luke round and pushed him over the table.
‘No, no, stop please, no, ooh, oooh, shit no.’
‘How does that feel, Luke? I’m only using a medium dildo, we don’t want to cause any damage now, just give you a feel of what it is like.’
Toni thrust slowly. ‘Getting a feel of the sensation now aren’t you? Not bad is it? This is how a woman feels when a guy fucks her, have you ever thought about that? That’s what you are now, a woman, and that’s what you’ve been all those months, years even, in that prison. Not a man any more.’
‘Yeah, I’ve got the message, Toni, honestly, I understand.’
The director pulled away.
‘That’ll be enough for today. I don’t want you cumming with the excitement.’ She ran a finger over the tip of Luke’s cock and licked the pre-cum. ‘So how do you feel when you come face to face with Grace, your aunt.’
Luke was pulling up his jeans and trying to restore his dignity. ‘I er guess I’m hoping to get to feel like a man again, away from the people who knew where I’ve been and what’s happened.’
‘And how do you feel about Grace? Come on, be honest, you’ve seen her on screen often enough. Do you find her attractive, sexually?’
‘No, to be honest, no, I mean there’s the age difference and she is, well, rather butch.’
‘True, she is rather butch, but a lot of guys are attracted to that, women too. But for you, doesn’t she perhaps remind you of the guys you’re trying to get away from? Is her attraction to you going to bring back those experiences, just at the moment when you need to re-establish your masculinity. You need sexual release and she is the only woman around, but she is just the one whose attention is going to make you feel less of a man than more of one.’
Luke nodded. He was beginning to understand the full depth and complexity of the character he had to portray.
‘And,’ he fumbled for the words to convey the tangle of thoughts in his head, ‘on top of that she’s my aunt. So many conflicting feelings that I have to resolve.’
Toni wiped the dildo and held it out to him.
‘Here, take it with you, let Jenny have a go so you get the feel of what it’s luck to get fucked, physically and more importantly mentally. Let me know how you get on.’
Luke hesitated and then reached out.