Daleeria
Somebody's Midlife Crisis
- Joined
- Sep 9, 2015
- Location
- Flying High
Years of blood, sweat and tears spilled between them was the source of the pain and love entwining in her pretty brown orbs, just waiting for what she knew had to come. This was earned, and she was just happy that Chico hadn't lost a step being inside. Prison could change a man, but this man... the brutal, passionate father of her children seemed just as intense as he ever had been. Any threat was met with understanding because she had earned it. This is exactly what made them the beautiful disaster they were always going to be together.
Nature was something Arabela had studied fairly extensively in some of her psychology classes. Could the nature of a beast change? How much of the violence inside of Chico could be blamed on blood, and how much of the craving for pain was a circumstance of environment? Once broken, could someone ever be made whole? And who had broken who in this relationship? She knew, deep down, Chico had never meant to fall in love with her. And the only time Bela had ever questioned that was the two moments she had realized he had managed to knock up another girl not long after her. She didn't need physical evidence of his love, but she had two of his children and that was one more than either of his other baby mamas. That was proof enough for her.
Yes, Bela had tried to leave Chico in every way that mattered. Wasn't it better for both of them if they were kept whole for their kids? Because they clearly weren't healthy for one another... At least that's what the responsible, logical part of her brain tried to tell her every time she let Gary sink is vanilla white cock inside of the only hole he ever fucked. Was it a sin against Chico? Of course. Did that mean she deserved to be battered beyond recognition? Also yes.
Chico cheated first, what did he expect?
More weak arguments for her behavior. No, this was active deception. She had intentionally played the part of the good puta while he was inside knowing that she was keeping someone else's bed warm the whole time. All selfish intentions in the end, too. That didn't matter anymore because he was home and she knew exactly what her place was now. She was insane for thinking she could love anyone else the same way that she worshipped Chico.
Blood pooled in her mouth, dripped down her chin and stained her clothes as she met his eyes after every strike of his fist with eyes that implied she understood exactly why he had to do this to her, and that she held no grudge for his actions. That this was very much her fault and nothing she did or said would change that. At the end of the day she would blame it on weakness, on fear and the shame of feeling like a single mother. She would cite convenience and the many toys their kids have and remind him who's favorite foods she had prepared on the day of his arrival. If she wasn't still faithful in the ways that mattered, then would she have been fully prepared for his return to her bed and her life? All of it would be half-truths, but she knew how to spin them in a way that would make everything right in his eyes. This was her talent. This is how she soothed his soul. With violence and feeding his ego until he thought he was invincible. Was she his shield? The Kevlar vest that kept his body protected from that which would be hurled at him to discredit and hurt his reputation? Or was she simply the blinders of a horse that was only able to trot as far as he was told to by Cesar?
That was a harder say that who deserved what in this one-sided discourse.
The neighbors wouldn't call the cops; Chico forgot that this was a building with folks that worked 9-to-5. Most of her neighbors might pop in for lunch in an hour or two, but even if they did they wouldn't understand the Spanish enough to realize someone was being hurt. Even her cries of pain probably would have just scared them away. No one wanted to deal with the cops if they would even show up before the crime was committed. It was almost pointless.
Crimson stained the floral comforter that Bela had chosen for the King sized bed that Gary had purchased upon her moving in with him. Gary was the type of pushover who had let Bela and the kids decorate the apartment however they wanted; after all it was their home too and he was a man of little or no taste. Everything that Gary liked was dictated by his father, with maybe the exception of Bela. How could the man approve of his son living in sin with the branded property of a locally known criminal and gangbanger? Just because she was going to law school and trying to make something of herself didn't mean she had changed her ways.
Gary was great for making excuses for her though, and he defended her changes in life without knowing she had an ounce of weed and two guns in a safe in their walk in closet. He ignored the new little tattoos that popped up over the last year or so. Hell, he didn't even realize she had a vibrator and a vial of coke in her nighstand.
Bela wasn't weak enough to need to sigh in relief when she heard the gun clicking safe. If anything she flinched because knowing she'd be alive to pay for her evil for years to come was almost worst than if he had just put her out of her misery. A life time of repentance for this. If only she knew how much misery she had yet to experience at both the hands of the man she would kill for and at the cruel hands of the universe.
It took a certain type of slut to react to the sound of a belt buckle being undone, and Bela was that exact slut. The last time her ass had been properly beat had been just before Chico went inside. That felt like a lifetime ago as she lifted her skirt up to show off more of his property. "Lo siento, Papi. I've been such a stupid puta, but I thought I was being smarter and giving you the freedom to come out and take any bitch you want if you didn't want me anymore. That was dumb, I shouldn't have thought I knew better than Papi what he wanted," she gave him the proper level of gaslit apology that she had perfected to get him to forgive him every time. Deflect, blame herself as much as he was blaming her even though he had just as much blame in the matter, and then empty his balls until he forgave her. It was a proven tactic. This was just her most extreme violation against the invisible contract she had signed when they had sealed their relationship in blood.
"I love you, Papi. I've never loved anyone more than you and definitely not him, and I didn't correct the kids when Ale started calling him her father because she was still calling you Papa and it seemed alright. I have a vial in the nightstand, if Papi wants to do a line off of his stupid whore's ass..." she offered him her drugs just as much as she offered him her body to make up for everything she had done to him. Even after everything he had done against her, she still loved him more than she could ever love herself. That meant he owned all of her, and he owned everything she owned, especially the shit his money didn't buy her. "And I was young, stupid and pregnant when you went inside. Overemotional and irrational. Please don't ever leave me like that again! I promise I'll never cheat again!!"
Beg him to stay. Remind him that you get extra psycho when you're knocked up. Then, hit him square in the jaw with another ringer: "Please put another baby inside me. I miss being pregnant and Ale's getting so big! I'll do anything for another baby, Papi!" she might have been over doing it adding that on top, but from Bela's experience, Chico needed her to be over dramatic on her approach to atonement. The more desperate she seemed, the harder his dick got for her and the quicker she would be forgiven.
Nature was something Arabela had studied fairly extensively in some of her psychology classes. Could the nature of a beast change? How much of the violence inside of Chico could be blamed on blood, and how much of the craving for pain was a circumstance of environment? Once broken, could someone ever be made whole? And who had broken who in this relationship? She knew, deep down, Chico had never meant to fall in love with her. And the only time Bela had ever questioned that was the two moments she had realized he had managed to knock up another girl not long after her. She didn't need physical evidence of his love, but she had two of his children and that was one more than either of his other baby mamas. That was proof enough for her.
Yes, Bela had tried to leave Chico in every way that mattered. Wasn't it better for both of them if they were kept whole for their kids? Because they clearly weren't healthy for one another... At least that's what the responsible, logical part of her brain tried to tell her every time she let Gary sink is vanilla white cock inside of the only hole he ever fucked. Was it a sin against Chico? Of course. Did that mean she deserved to be battered beyond recognition? Also yes.
Chico cheated first, what did he expect?
More weak arguments for her behavior. No, this was active deception. She had intentionally played the part of the good puta while he was inside knowing that she was keeping someone else's bed warm the whole time. All selfish intentions in the end, too. That didn't matter anymore because he was home and she knew exactly what her place was now. She was insane for thinking she could love anyone else the same way that she worshipped Chico.
How come I can't leave ya?
Talk to myself at night, wonderin' why
I feel like I am tied down to someone
Who's makin' me cry more than makin' me smile
Leave ya
Just make it through the night
Lyin' to myself, sayin' I'll be fine
I don't want you, I hate you, I think
But I don't wanna be alone either
You're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
I wanna make love, you wanna burn a bridge
So I wish I was a bad guy
So we could just be fightin' on the same side
Yeah, you're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
So I wish I was a bad guy
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Talk to myself at night, wonderin' why
I feel like I am tied down to someone
Who's makin' me cry more than makin' me smile
Leave ya
Just make it through the night
Lyin' to myself, sayin' I'll be fine
I don't want you, I hate you, I think
But I don't wanna be alone either
You're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
I wanna make love, you wanna burn a bridge
So I wish I was a bad guy
So we could just be fightin' on the same side
Yeah, you're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
So I wish I was a bad guy
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Blood pooled in her mouth, dripped down her chin and stained her clothes as she met his eyes after every strike of his fist with eyes that implied she understood exactly why he had to do this to her, and that she held no grudge for his actions. That this was very much her fault and nothing she did or said would change that. At the end of the day she would blame it on weakness, on fear and the shame of feeling like a single mother. She would cite convenience and the many toys their kids have and remind him who's favorite foods she had prepared on the day of his arrival. If she wasn't still faithful in the ways that mattered, then would she have been fully prepared for his return to her bed and her life? All of it would be half-truths, but she knew how to spin them in a way that would make everything right in his eyes. This was her talent. This is how she soothed his soul. With violence and feeding his ego until he thought he was invincible. Was she his shield? The Kevlar vest that kept his body protected from that which would be hurled at him to discredit and hurt his reputation? Or was she simply the blinders of a horse that was only able to trot as far as he was told to by Cesar?
That was a harder say that who deserved what in this one-sided discourse.
The neighbors wouldn't call the cops; Chico forgot that this was a building with folks that worked 9-to-5. Most of her neighbors might pop in for lunch in an hour or two, but even if they did they wouldn't understand the Spanish enough to realize someone was being hurt. Even her cries of pain probably would have just scared them away. No one wanted to deal with the cops if they would even show up before the crime was committed. It was almost pointless.
Crimson stained the floral comforter that Bela had chosen for the King sized bed that Gary had purchased upon her moving in with him. Gary was the type of pushover who had let Bela and the kids decorate the apartment however they wanted; after all it was their home too and he was a man of little or no taste. Everything that Gary liked was dictated by his father, with maybe the exception of Bela. How could the man approve of his son living in sin with the branded property of a locally known criminal and gangbanger? Just because she was going to law school and trying to make something of herself didn't mean she had changed her ways.
Gary was great for making excuses for her though, and he defended her changes in life without knowing she had an ounce of weed and two guns in a safe in their walk in closet. He ignored the new little tattoos that popped up over the last year or so. Hell, he didn't even realize she had a vibrator and a vial of coke in her nighstand.
How come I won't believe ya?
You said all your goodbyes
You said that you would be out my life
If I could just let you go, let you be on your own
But, love, I need ya
You used to be paradise
You used to be where I would go to hide
From people who treat me the way that you treated me
I don't believe ya
You said all your goodbyes
You said that you would be out my life
If I could just let you go, let you be on your own
But, love, I need ya
You used to be paradise
You used to be where I would go to hide
From people who treat me the way that you treated me
I don't believe ya
You're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
I wanna make love, you wanna burn a bridge
So I wish I was a bad guy
So we could just be fightin' on the same side
Yeah, you're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
So I wish I was a bad guy
Just to be with you
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
I wanna make love, you wanna burn a bridge
So I wish I was a bad guy
So we could just be fightin' on the same side
Yeah, you're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
So I wish I was a bad guy
Just to be with you
Bela wasn't weak enough to need to sigh in relief when she heard the gun clicking safe. If anything she flinched because knowing she'd be alive to pay for her evil for years to come was almost worst than if he had just put her out of her misery. A life time of repentance for this. If only she knew how much misery she had yet to experience at both the hands of the man she would kill for and at the cruel hands of the universe.
It took a certain type of slut to react to the sound of a belt buckle being undone, and Bela was that exact slut. The last time her ass had been properly beat had been just before Chico went inside. That felt like a lifetime ago as she lifted her skirt up to show off more of his property. "Lo siento, Papi. I've been such a stupid puta, but I thought I was being smarter and giving you the freedom to come out and take any bitch you want if you didn't want me anymore. That was dumb, I shouldn't have thought I knew better than Papi what he wanted," she gave him the proper level of gaslit apology that she had perfected to get him to forgive him every time. Deflect, blame herself as much as he was blaming her even though he had just as much blame in the matter, and then empty his balls until he forgave her. It was a proven tactic. This was just her most extreme violation against the invisible contract she had signed when they had sealed their relationship in blood.
"I love you, Papi. I've never loved anyone more than you and definitely not him, and I didn't correct the kids when Ale started calling him her father because she was still calling you Papa and it seemed alright. I have a vial in the nightstand, if Papi wants to do a line off of his stupid whore's ass..." she offered him her drugs just as much as she offered him her body to make up for everything she had done to him. Even after everything he had done against her, she still loved him more than she could ever love herself. That meant he owned all of her, and he owned everything she owned, especially the shit his money didn't buy her. "And I was young, stupid and pregnant when you went inside. Overemotional and irrational. Please don't ever leave me like that again! I promise I'll never cheat again!!"
Beg him to stay. Remind him that you get extra psycho when you're knocked up. Then, hit him square in the jaw with another ringer: "Please put another baby inside me. I miss being pregnant and Ale's getting so big! I'll do anything for another baby, Papi!" she might have been over doing it adding that on top, but from Bela's experience, Chico needed her to be over dramatic on her approach to atonement. The more desperate she seemed, the harder his dick got for her and the quicker she would be forgiven.
Sorry I'm not your ex
I'm sorry I'm not who you thought you'd get
I'm sorry that I'm lackin' self respect
Should've left when you started hoppin' beds
I'm sorry, made this world in my head
I'm sorry I don't wanna quit this yet
I'm sorry, I swear that I tried my best
I'm sorry, can you be sorry instead?
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
I'm sorry I'm not who you thought you'd get
I'm sorry that I'm lackin' self respect
Should've left when you started hoppin' beds
I'm sorry, made this world in my head
I'm sorry I don't wanna quit this yet
I'm sorry, I swear that I tried my best
I'm sorry, can you be sorry instead?
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you