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Ov Becometh Thine Scyle

Scyle

Super-Earth
Joined
Jan 23, 2012
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Honestly, what do you do when you feel like there's nothing worth living for? Do you did he died? Do you break down and cry like a little bitch? You know what I do?​

I sit here and wonder where the fuck the wrong is going to, has gone, is coming, is there.

Truly, I am befuddled. I've never been the overly successful person but when I tried I seen results. Now? I don't see shit. I honestly don't see a damn thing. I come off as smart, handsome, funny, and unique. True to myself even. Yet no matter how hard I try, how many things I got "going for me," I cannot seem to find inner peace and happiness. My happiest place is in front of my TV soaked into my fantasy realms. Do you know who I blame word? I blame you.​


"BAHAHAHA SYCLE U CUNT BLAEM N E 1 ELSE> ALL UR FAULT!!11"

Well retarded 3rd person self, I blame others because well... How many people have worked for me? My mom? My Schnookumz? That's it. Everyone else is like "Fuck you, all about me." Literally, even my mom tends to be an unbearable cunt. I mean I love her but seriously she's a bitch. Even Taylor (Schnookumz) can be bad every now and then but nothing like the rest of the world. I can't trust anyone. I don't. I don't rely on anyone but myself because well... I'm the only person who hasn't betrayed me. Cynical shit right? Exactly.

All my friends I thought I had have abandoned me because they're fucking douche bags. Like 99% of the women I've dated (especially fallen deep for) have broke my heart. It's to the point where I can't even begin to like anyone without feeling deep seeded fear and shit. Want to know what happened to the last person I tried to trust 100%? Bitch broke my fucking heart. Yeah in the most fucked up of ways too. Why did she break up with me? Am I somehow a self absorbed conceited asshole? Heh, not even close.​

So why did she?

"I miss [Insert piece of shit ex-boyfriend here. Seriously, the guy neglected the fuck out of her and even abused her physically AND emotionally] Then she also wants to break up because I'm not talking to her every second of my life? I literally didn't go 5 minutes without talking to her and she wants to break up because I was acting cold?​

"HAHAHAHA UR STOOPID. QUIT TAKIN SH!T SEW SRSLY"

You're just far too annoying there kiddo... Regardless what happens when life tears you down repeatedly like that? I was once a strong, healthy person. Now? Look at me. Pasty white skin, thin as a skeleton, manic depressive, and my life includes simulating sex through words and being immersed in lies. Bit fucking morbid but in solid reality that IS it.​

I'm failing college.​
I failed high school.​
Can't get a job.
No friends.​
No lover.​
Little family.
No money.​
No car.​
Nothing.


People have told me how good I have life. Parents feed me the same bullshit line "Well if you lived like me blah blahdick." And? If I lived like you I'd grow up the same piece of shit you are. That shit doesn't make success, it makes fuck ups. My mom has cheated on the best majority of men she's been with, including my father. My father is currently dating his cousin's wife who mothered my best friend. You know how awks THAT shit is?! My supposed best friends (aside from Daniel and Taylor) have literally dropped me. They claim they want to hang out but when I do it feels awkward as fuck so I don't even bother.​

And the worst part?


















































I work to attempt to fix all of it. Stupid as I am to try to fix something that keeps breaking. Anything that goes wrong I try to improve but somehow things get worse even if I do improve. So what do you do when you really have no reason to live? Well...​

I just sit there...​
 
Born Into a World That Doesn't Listen

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So can I ask everyone a question?​

How fucking annoyed do you get when you're ignored?


Ignoyed? Annored?​


Whatever. It seems like wherever I go to I'm in CONSTANTLY ignored. Seriously, what's the deal? Especially fucking Role Play. It's not like it's one, two, or even three people. It is almost everyone.​

"BUT UR NO SANTE EETHER A$$H0LE!"


No, No I'm really not. I know I've forgotten about a person or two on here and even more elsewhere. But nowhere near as consistently as I am. Right now I have 1 RP I need to reply to, 2 being discussed, and 3 that I'm yet to even hear from my partner. It's really no big deal with them but the countless before them that even got into the story have just died. Disappeared. POOF.​


"BOT U WERE GONE 4 A WEEK!"


Yeah, yeah I was. Mainly because no one was really communicating with me. I was gone and there wasn't a message like

"Hey, this is crazy but, maybe you could tell me why you haven't replied?"​

I would have gladly replied and said "Oh I'm sorry, let me get right on that!" See now I just have no interest in role play if the other person isn't talking or communicating or what have you. Some people aren't talkative, I get that, but at least a message a day would be nice. Just something.​

"But, there is one they fear... In-"


NOOPEE. Shut up. But it's this fucking chat site I go to where it's heavy in RP. Every. Single. Time. I'm fucking ignored, dropped, forgotten about, BLOCKED even (Don't get me started on that shit). Seriously, how hard is it for people to just take a step out to at least give a person reason why they're abandoned.​

Bottom line: I'm tired of being treated like I don't exist. Shit makes a person just not want to exist...
 
Ass On Blast

Putting these two bitches on blast. Please note that I am -NOT- homophobic, I do not have anything against the LBGT community BUT I do have shit against double standards. The topic is more than welcome for debate, just PM me.

[video=youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fp6zFZtabHU[/video]

Now to give this context, this chick was asked a question PUBLICLY about this so I within all my rights chose to comment. Now notice I never directed any real attacks towards anyone and watch what happens to me.

Q: Ever use that tongue for anything good? ;) asked by [Some Random Chick]

[This Slut] A: Lol, yeahhhhh.

[Me]: Why is it a guy can talk to a girl like this and get chewed out but ANOTHER girl pulls this shit it gets played along with all happy fucking skippy dandy. Fuck double standards.

[This Slut]: Yo, I didn't ask for your fucking input, did I? Stop creeping on my fucking profile, bro. Go to someone elses profile and pull this shit. You are dismissed, have a nice fucking day. :D

[Random Lesbian. (Note the amount of ACTUAL sexism this one give me)]: Just saying some girls like while others don't, she's just one that doesn't! And your opinion wasn't necessary, so why fuckin state it...asshole!?!!! I'm sorry shit like that pisses me off!

[This Slut]: You was talking about him, right? Lol.

[This Random Lesbian]: Yeah...why would I post this on your question towards you goofy?! Haha. :p

[This Slut]: Haha, sorry! I was just making sure. :p

[This Random Lesbian]: Na your good girl! :p I just can't stand when guys say dumb shit like that...clearly you wouldn't appreciate a guy saying anything like this to you cause your lesbian. Just proves how big a fuckin idiot he is. :D

[This Slut]: Exactly! About time someone understands, lol.

[This Random Lesbian]: haha...yeah but I think its cause I'm a girl and lesbian too so ... if we could find a guy to understand that'd be a miracle haha :)

[This Slut]: Fuck yeah it would, lol.

[Me. (Now note I'm a little angry at this point)]: Creep? That's cute. Didn't realize seeing a status on my homepage creeping, bro. I will pull this shit on another profile when I see a slut whoring it up. Gay, lesbian, straight, pansexual... Don't fucking matter. Shit's disgusting and I'm sorry that double standards piss me the fuck off. Yeah it's an asshole move but as far as I can see I never insulted anyone now did I? Nope, now I got two lesbians jumping my shit. Why? Probably because I'm a fucking guy. Right? Right. "I just can't stand when guys say dumb shit like that" There's proof if you need it. It's not because I'm a guy dumbasses, it's because I have standards. But try and insult me some more. Now I gave you reason to, dumbass lesbians. Act a little more close minded why fucking don't you? Why don't I have a STRAIGHT girl insulting me? Think about that and while you 'tards are going to be busy scissoring each other with woman empowerment, I'm just going to leave you to ramble on. Understand? Sexist cunts. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

[This Slut]: Lmfao, you're seriously an idiot dude. Just leave your fucking opinions to yourself, they don't matter here, I don't give two carefully flying fucks what you think, understand that? And no, I'm not jumping onto you because you're a fucking guy, I'm jumping onto you because you came on MY status, with your dumbass comments. Why even start? Why don't you go asking other chicks questions like this? hm? I'm GAY, I don't want DUDE'S asking me shit like that. Your little novel up there was very special, but uh, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. :D Dumbass lesbians? THAT'S cute.

[This Random Lesbian]: Hahaha I don't even know what to say....the whole point was to say that it was dumb to even comment on something that had nothing to so with you whatsoever! For you to even state your fucking opinion on something like this was dumb...especially her being a lesbian of course she's not going to want you asking questions like this. Are you mad cause we like pussy and not dick bro? Grow the fuck up and get off her page! Fucking dumbass little boys!




Now I didn't even fucking reply at this point because I'm not like these two dumbasses in that I don't like carrying out pointless arguments. I said my piece and I stepped away. But seriously people, this is what our culture is devolving into. We have girls (and note I was pointing out ALL women. Never mentioned lesbians specifically did I?) not even giving a guy the light of day but when another lady bitch comes along they're clamoring for them THEN we have the idiot ass guys who have put this stigma on our society. What the fuck is wrong with us? Is there a reason why we're steadily growing this retarded? Oh yeah, it's called FREEDOM. United States of America is the land of the free and by default gives fucktards like these two and "assholes" like me the freedom to be how we want. But it's clear these two are too busy lapping up each other's dumbassery that they can't even notice I didn't insult shit until my second post.

Oh, don't think this is just about lesbians. It's faggots too. That word hurt? Meh, I don't care. Trash gets insulted. If you're one of these people that word will insult you. If not, you'll keep reading without any qualms~ Anyway, I've seen gay guys fucking do this shit too. Now most gays I've known aren't exactly in this way in that they're just dicks to women but they will go the fuck around whoring it up. (Inb4 straight people do this too. I already know they do but quit trying to divert blame) I was at my cousin's house down south and in their neighborhood they had a gay couple. Nothing wrong right? Not unless they were publicly groping each other and heavily making out. I'm pretty sure they've done things publicly too but I'm not going to guarantee it. Now this is wrong not in that it's two men doing it, but that it's two adults behaving in grotesque manner. Really? This is what gay pride is? Sluts running around their parades naked, publicly. I've seen porn conventions act more tame...

So yeah, if this post offends you I seriously, honestly don't give a SHIT. No actually I do because I'm not really here to piss people off. I just got two sexist bitches on my ass so I have to show their idiocy to the world. I promise I'm a much nicer guy than I'm perceived here. I just have a REALLY short attention span for people like this.

Debate. Masturbate. Initiate~
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A Heavy Heart Weighs...

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I just don't get it. How do people deal with this much death? I'm losing my goddamn mind right now. First my mutt. R.I.P. Dexter. Then my wonderful grandmother. R.I.P. Grandma. I miss you. <3 Then one of my mother's best childhood friends. R.I.P. Toby. Now finally a recent friend whom I was becoming really close to. R.I.P. Evan.

Seriously, this shit is too much. I woke up this evening learning that my friend Evan was dead so I frantically contacted his close friend to make sure it was true. The man swore on everything he held dear that it was true. Then as time wore on it became clear that it wasn't just some random death, but that he probably had taken his own life. He was somewhat popular as a musician so now I have to see remembrance posts all over Facebook about him. This shit is killing me. Then I have to deal with my love interest being drugged and physically/sexually abused. All this on top of other fucking problems. Why? I can't fucking stand this.

I can't even stand to type all this out. I'm on the verge of breaking down or snapping or... Something. I can't stand it anymore. Life is just too fucking cruel. I need something to lean on but I can't fucking trust anyone. I'm more or less alone in this world to deal with all this shit. I'm a strong man but a broken one at that. My heart is covered in micro fractures. Little bits of heart ache and break have hardened me but it still fucking hurts. I can handle this and I will get over it but fucking hell does it sting. Rest in peace SevidemiC. You were a good friend while it lasted...



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RE: Born Into a World That Doesn't Listen

Scyle said:
[video=youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XD2jKlCiK0[/video]

So can I ask everyone a question?​

How fucking annoyed do you get when you're ignored?


Ignoyed? Annored?​


Whatever. It seems like wherever I go to I'm in CONSTANTLY ignored. Seriously, what's the deal? Especially fucking Role Play. It's not like it's one, two, or even three people. It is almost everyone.​

"BUT UR NO SANTE EETHER A$$H0LE!"


No, No I'm really not. I know I've forgotten about a person or two on here and even more elsewhere. But nowhere near as consistently as I am. Right now I have 1 RP I need to reply to, 2 being discussed, and 3 that I'm yet to even hear from my partner. It's really no big deal with them but the countless before them that even got into the story have just died. Disappeared. POOF.​


"BOT U WERE GONE 4 A WEEK!"


Yeah, yeah I was. Mainly because no one was really communicating with me. I was gone and there wasn't a message like

"Hey, this is crazy but, maybe you could tell me why you haven't replied?"​

I would have gladly replied and said "Oh I'm sorry, let me get right on that!" See now I just have no interest in role play if the other person isn't talking or communicating or what have you. Some people aren't talkative, I get that, but at least a message a day would be nice. Just something.​

"But, there is one they fear... In-"


NOOPEE. Shut up. But it's this fucking chat site I go to where it's heavy in RP. Every. Single. Time. I'm fucking ignored, dropped, forgotten about, BLOCKED even (Don't get me started on that shit). Seriously, how hard is it for people to just take a step out to at least give a person reason why they're abandoned.​

Bottom line: I'm tired of being treated like I don't exist. Shit makes a person just not want to exist...

Oh I know this fucking feeling all too well.

I'm done giving a fuck though.
Several days of no responses or messages?
Assuming you flaked and no longer going to care/reply.
 
RE: Born Into a World That Doesn't Listen

CannibalisticKisses said:
Oh I know this fucking feeling all too well.

I'm done giving a fuck though.
Several days of no responses or messages?
Assuming you flaked and no longer going to care/reply.

No I completely understand. It's just every time I've tried to talk you seemed hostile or angry. It was awkward and just deterred me but to be fair I've been gone... Again... for a few days so no one got a message on that one. It happens Kitten and it's not that I don't like you anymore, it's just every conversation feels awkward anymore. :/
 

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I can't even type shit out... I'm just done guys. If this is the last you hear of me don't be surprised...

ihatemylife.

 
Frozen

Just kind of sitting here... Fingers trying to push out replies to my two partners but it's just... not... happening. I'm so lacking inspiration, lacking a muse. I'm just kind of sitting here... Frozen........... and shit.



















Too lazy to even go and get music. Gay...
 
This is my resignation from this site for an indefinite time. Every story I've had has been abandoned save for one and no one else gives a fuck so I'm simply just going to shrug it off and leave. I've tried to be active, tried to keep up with everything and to this date there really hasn't been a role play I've abandoned, it's been on everyone else. Tried to come here to look for connections, relationships, romances, friendships, shit like that. I've received nothing to show for all this so I'm out for an indefinite amount of time. I'll return at some point but until then I'm just going to keep a little inactive. Thank you all for making me feel even more alone that previous.

Assholes.​
 
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