Name: Anna Elizabeth Dawson
Age: 22
Date of Birth: November 17, 1987
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Bisexual
Face Claim: Astrid Berges-Frisbey
Physical Description:
- She's 5'8" and
maybe 125 lbs - while she's not anorexic thin she is still very tiny. Visible collarbones, slight jut to her hips and slightly-visible indents between her ribs.
- She has sectoral heterochromia - while her eyes are mostly green, the most inner part of her iris and several other flecks are brown.
- She has long medium-dark brown hair that falls to about breast level. There's an overgrown side-shave on the left side that's barely noticeable with its current length and the rest of her hair.
- Never wears a bra -
never. Combined with the piercings in her tits her nipples are almost always visible through whatever fabric she's wearing.
- On the topic of tits, she has none. Well she does, but you can only have so much boobage when you have so little body fat.
- Likes denim shorts, tank tops and loose, open button downs when she has to be pratical. She's rocked the same pair of Doc Martens boots since she was nineteen. She misses the days of little black dresses and leggings and tights.
Personality Description: 8w7 "the challenger" sp/sx,
estp-t "the entrepreneur"
She's chaos incarnate with a "nothing will ever get me attitude", leaning heavily on whatever distraction can keep her from being stuck facing what she's repressing in her brain. Once upon a time she was a sweetheart, Molly could vouch for that, but over time lost that soft edge as the world taught her that she would never truly be safe and that opening up was showing weakness, and showing weakness was dangerous. Glimpses of the girl that girl can be seen when she feels safest, allowing brief moments of vulnerability to show the side of herself that cares. There's always a piece of her that wants to be able to be there for the people she cares about in the way that they need her to be, but For the most part, though, she does what she needs to in order to avoid any moments where she has to break away from the present moment and whatever distraction she has at hand. If she doesn't slow down, if she doesn't stop... she never has to face anything that truly bothers her.
Anna is not a romantic in the least, but her thrill-seeking nature means that things are rarely boring for whoever she's with - be that in or out of the bedroom. Her love language is sex - sex as a guise to be touched, sex as a distraction from feelings, sex to avoid conversations that she doesn't want to have... beneath it all, she gives more a fuck than she acts like she does and physical touch really is her primary love language - she just likes it, like most other things that can potentially involve feelings in life, with a touch of plausible deniability on the side. Relationships as a concept are a pretty "meh" thing to her, as the thought felt more like a leash attached to her neck limiting her ability to move throughout the world as she pleased and mixed with letting people get close being an inherently dangerous thing to her she was just better off without. She is easily bored and often in need of new stimulation, and that can keep her hard to keep up with for anyone more inclined to relaxation... the only time she willingly seemed to stop was when she was too out of her head to have to think straight.
She's seen as the life of the party more often than not, when in groups - forming superficial bonds with ease and finding ways to keep a night alive. She's never the one to ask someone else what they should be doing - she's the one jumping in head first, pulling whoever behind her. Caring little about others' thoughts on her, she doesn't stop for anyone. Highly improvisational, she's almost always been able to come up with a plan on the spot. She's not afraid of "hard" or "controversial" topics in conversation but prefers to stick to what's actionable. She's quick to leave behind anyone who can't keep up though, always moving forward - "thanks but no thanks" isn't personal and it's nothing more than a shrug of her shoulders, no point in holding on to someone who didn't want to be at her side.
Enneagram
8w7:
Anna is someone who's primary emotion is anger, driven by the need to protect herself by refusing to be percieved as weak by those around her. She fears being harmed and/or controlled above all and aims to protect herself above all. Someone who wants closeness and yet fears it deeply at the same time, never seeming to be able to get that second foot in the door. Someone with strong boundaries who is willing to be forceful about maintaining them. This can lead to a "my way or the highway" attitude that can feeling controlling or demanding to others. Shuts people out when she feels pushed, and at her best leans in to supporting and defending those she cares about.
↳ Leaning on wing
seven:
↳ Leaning on wing
nine:
She is fiery and impulsive, pushed and pulled between self preservation and safety at all costs and a deep desire to feel close to those "safest". Because of this she can seem on and off with people, needing to have control over her environment and who she chooses to have in it. She cab be blunt and confrontational, and she's highly independant with a "I need no one" way, due to distrust of others.
When pushed, often involving any kind of vulnerability or genuine intimacy, Anna has an inclination towards becoming secretive, fearful, and withdrawn - she shuts others out and pulls away from them.
↳ Bold, practical, perceptive, direct and sociable - filled with energy and desire to push her own boundaries for the sake of seeking new experiences, caring more for talk and action that means something rather than the arbitrary. She is quick to notice changes in others and their habits, and unafraid to face conflict head on (perhaps rather forcefully). She is charismatic at her best, moving through crowds like she belongs and entrancing those she chooses to.
↳ Insensitive, impatient, risk-prone, unstructured and defiant - feelings and emotions are secondary to action for Anna and she tends to shrug them off, both others' and her own. Emotional situations tend to be awkward to her, and being blunt and detached can only get one so far in that kind of moment. She's got one pace, her own, and struggles to deviate from it, to slow down when someone needs her to - this can lead to her coming off as rather controlling, demanding and/or impatient. Being impatient and impulsive leads to risk-taking without even stopping to think of any potential consequences first - hell, sometimes taking a risk is just something she does to quell that lingering feeling of boredom building up inside of her when the world has been quiet for too long. She's too action-oriented and hands - on with life to tolerate anyone or anything telling her what she can or can't do.
Random Facts:
- She's scared of falling but loves being up high. She loves anything adrenaline-inducing in general.
- She's not afraid of death even though she has been clinically dead in the past. What she is afraid of, however, is dying slowly and painfully.
- She's a tummy sleeper, face-first in a pillow - which is vert disconcerting when she's high out of her mind and at a high enough risk of respiratory arrest
without suffocating herself.
- Molly is about 95% of her self control as well as her voice of reason. Anna has basically imprinted on her and will likely never like anyone more than she likes Molly.
- The only song she can play on the guitar is "The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot" by Brand New. She used to be able to do other things but she stopped playing them after she split from Sean and then forgot them.
- She flexes her fingers when she's trying to keep herself from getting reactive - be that anger, sadness, whatever.
- She used to deal pot - Josh was the mastermind but she would do deliveries in exchange for being able to spend part of the profit on smack.
- She as learned guitar since the last time that her and Nick were together, someone she saw after they split taught her.
- Anna
really likes knives and used to have a collection - now she only has a singular switchblade.
- Used to always go to underground punk-rock/the like shows, started because one of her friends was in a band and then just kept it up for fun.
- She calls everyone "man" and often skips opening words in sentences and drops ending gs.
- She has an opiate addiction and a nicotine addiction. She has no desire to stop either.
- Picked up journalling while she was in rehab.
Backstory:
Sometimes money and love aren't enough, if the wrong people are loving a child. At fifteen Anna ran away from her home, scared and pregnant with only one person that she knew how to turn to. For many people in the same situation that would be the end of the story and if she'd had her way back then it would have been, but somehow she made it through the other side.
Anna has been some kind of intoxicated near constantly since she was twelve years old and discovered pot and as she got older she moved in to harder stuff, first finding joy in cocaine and ecstacy and all the "fun" things before discovering what would wind up being her first love in life: heroin. Heroin was the first thing that ever let her slow down.
She was nineteen when she first met the man who could become the only boy she had ever truly dated, or even felt
almost safe around - Nick Clark. She had figured she'd just got her hands on a cute hook up or fuck buddy, but next thing she knew it had been several months and he was basically living with her. It took Molly telling her that they were already together for her to start admitting it to herself, and even longer for her to actually be willing to acknowledge how much she cared for him out loud.
People had never been safe, though, and Anna had that thing about her where as much as she loved to lose herself in a crowd and could draw people in easily, the more that they seemed to actually
like her the more that she wanted to be as far away as possible. Neither of them is known for being the peak of mental health, their issues compounded each others in all the right ways to be a perfect disaster, but its her need to get her own way that started their downfall. The closer that he wanted to be the more that she pulled away and lashed out, and true attempts at intimacy were blocked by how emotionally blind she had become.
Had they been in healthier states things might have been better - they were attracted to each other in the first place for a reason, after all. She could keep things exciting and keep things moving, could always come up with a next move on the spot, and he'd shown her a sweetness and a kind of compassion that she had never experienced before - that kindness and respect mattered more to her than she had ever dared to speak. And Nick might not have been able to see it, but the fact that she could be angry around him in the first place said a lot about the feelings that she had - someone who didn't matter, another cog in the machine of the human race, wasn't worth being the effort of wasting breath on.
After Nick, Anna stayed stuck in her habits and heroin never stopped being her favourite friend. After an overdose that she swears was accidental four days after Nick and her finally saw each other for the last time, her and Molly had a rehab stint. As much as Molly was able to clean up from what it wasn't so easy for Anna, who was still avoiding all of the things she never talked about too deeply to be able to tolerate what reality was like without drugs to take her away from it.
Her time after the breakup was... not pleasant. She got reckless and angry and gave all of the people who thought she was nothing but an angry/reckless mess the satisfaction of knowing that they were right. She stagnated, never truly moving forward even though all she did was refuse to stop moving.
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