perfect failure

[audeamus]

perfect failure

i've found it's easier to say that i'm doing okay.
it saves me the trouble of placing my emotional burdens on someone else's shoulders.
so in that respect, i've developed a deceptive appearance.

telling myself that i don't care keeps me from embracing the fact that i'm laden with sadness.
apparently, i'm not significant enough for someone to value me in an intimate fashion.
apparently, i don't have the qualities that deep "connections" are founded on.

i try to purge my mind of an unexpected detachment. a union that was destined never to flourish.
i can openly say that now that i've played things over in my head.
red flags that i chose not to acknowledge....


love has once again worked its beautiful voodoo--
i lie here, bruised by each painful blow.
defeated. i think i'll stay down this time.

heartbreak is an ugly truth.
-audeamus

 

[Ronin]

Nice poem, I can almost feel those feelings as I read it. I think just about all of us has been there at one stage of our lives although some more hurt then others. Good piece of work.

 

[Kite Xiroh]

Fail not in Your Mission, for The Terror of Death is Here.

You can only fail
if you refuse to stand again.
For yourself,
for your desires,
stand once more
and fail not.