His mind stayed blank as he ran, off to nowhere off to anywhere. He felt his body tiring as he ran faster and faster, his feet were racked with pain and his lungs were about to burst. could this be pain he thought, he had not felt pan for a while and this for sure he thought was pain, he felt misunderstood, almost as if he was invisible, like he had been before he had made the pact with lilith, he could feel the tears rolling down his cheeks. Why was he crying of all things why did he have to cry, stopping mid stride he fell to his knee's, as his bare skin touched the ground he felt releif as he let it all out in one blood curdling scream, the air shook with its strength and the ground vibrated with protest, what was he supposed to do if he had nothing, if she got rid of his pact he would be nothing again, all of these feelings seemed to be pouring out of him and affecting the scenery around him, the grass turning purple and the moon becoming a dark shade of purple, was he doing this, how could he stop it? could it even be stopped.
" fuck FUCKKKKKK, why lilith, you told me i was different.... then why am i so useless..... im just a human who cant do anything himself." he yelled out shaking the ground around him, and then sound stopped, everything was silent, so silent it was..... so peaceful he thought, ember felt a hand touch his face, and he knew lilith had come to comfort him, tears rolling down his face he spoke " what do i do if i have nothing lilith" and with the question asked an answer came, it came as a thought, just be you! was that all ember thought, if he was himself all he was nothing, he could not bear being nothing, it would tear him from the inside out, he felt as if there was a hole inside of him and nothing could fill it.