thelossofsanity (jelojohn&MishaTheWolfQueen)

[terragate]

avin walked down the dirt road a buzzing sound in his ear, a rhyme repeating in his head ever so quite, it said thirteen months of purgatory.
Thirteen days of unholy names, thirteen nights of restless captivity. scratching at his head he denounced the voice and looked up at the bleak sky which held the sun unwavering unrelenting to its heat, he sighed and slumped as he walked his body aching and tireless, not noticing the cottage in the distant he started to cry out his mind tricking him in to thinking his body was melting " oh god....oh god what is this, i feel so much fucking pain" he screamed out, and as if in reply the sky clouded thundering in an answer, his feet weak he hit the ground the ground shaking as he did. and only ten to twenty feet away was the cottage, the hope of his sanity. but this thought did not occur to him as he entered a dream not allowed in a sane persons mind, and it all started with the color red.

the night was filled with the smell of silver in the dream, it was all but one thing safe, the night shadows were alive and tree branches reached for avins shoulders as if to say turn back, no hope, sanity is lost here. but avin gave nothing worth shit to the voices he did not know what they meant about loosing sanity but he had to....and there it was, a light so bright one could not tell where it came from. and along with the light the feeling of knowing everything but nothing.

 

[MishaTheWolfQueen]

Kai-ra jumped when she heard someone cry out. She lived alone in a cottage, only those of dire need every risked the trek through the dangerous forest that surrounded her home to come see her. She went to the door and opened it, looking out, just to be sure it wasn't someone trying to trick her. When she saw a man hitting the ground. "Oh good lord!" she said to herself as she gathered up the length of the skirt of her dress and rushed over to the man. She dropped to her knees next to him "Good sir? Are you alright? Sir?" she asked, but he seemed to be else where, had he gone mad from illness? She pressed her hand softly to his forehead, he was rather warm, but in the heat of the noon day sun, she was likely suffering from heat sickness.

She tried her best to be gentle as she attempted to get him up on his feet, she would have no possible way to get him inside, and out of the feet without a little help. She began to whistle a soft sweet tune, and the plants began to come to life, tree roots grew so large that they came out from the ground. They grew around her, making path way to her cottage, roots and tree limbs growing on the opposite side of the mysterious man so she could have him lean partially on the limbs, so she wouldn't be supporting the whole of his weight as she slowly made her way back to the cottage with the ill man in tow.

 

[terragate]

avin was entrapped in the dream as his body was dragged along but something else woke within him as his body was dragged, a defense system to things unknown. His body heated itself up not hurting itself but the things that were touching it, it was hot enough to burn the greenery around him, even the humid weather could not rival this heat. but something made it lessen its grip upon the objects around it, the last bit of sanity avin had. Avin unselfconscious knew that he was being cared for and his body reacted to this, a sense of calming came over him and he whispered a name " PAnaTHerON" ((hidden message no near path, try to find it))
Shall we go to the past, the voice said, shall we go to the future it said, or shall we let you suffer in the hole you have woven yourself. avin tried to push the voices away and he tried to oped his eyes but to naught it was useless, he was stuck in this state tormentors of the unknown nagging at his thoughts. you know the feeling of falling, avin did because he was falling ever so deeper into the horror of chaos each second his thoughts were unbound by the basic emotions of everyday men.

Avin cried, his body let tears flow with tinted gold, as if trying to get rid of something to evil to hold, he was not fully awake to know he was crying but his body did as it shook in a reaction to the tears. and one last phrase left his lips before he fell into a restless sleep that was untethered by the evils of the world "not ablie to see the dark, but i have seen"

 

[MishaTheWolfQueen]

Kai-ra could feel his body burning up, and the greenery she had called upon to help her was burned. This was nothing that a simple illness could cause. She quickly got him to the cottage, though it caused her to tire immensely, she was able to bring him to the door of the cottage, and though she struggled, she was able to bring him inside and place him on her bed. She had a small and simple one room cottage, though it was cramped for most, it suited her needs fine. She went to the kitchen and grabbed a clean cloth and dunked it in a bowl of water that she had filled just that morning from a near by river. She placed it gingerly across his forehead, what could possibly cause such an illness....was it magic?

She went back to the kitchen area and filled a small bowl with water and began to add different herbs, all known for either their abilities to heal, or fight away bad magic. when the bowl was full, she took a rod of quartz and began to crush the herbs, mixing them into the water, until it was more a thin paste. She brought the mixture over to him and dipped the clothe on his forehead into it, and placed it so the mixture would be against his skin. She then placed her finger into the mixture, and began to dab small amounts of it over him, over his lips, his eye lids, his cheeks and nose. She placed small amounts just in front of his ears, and then began to dab small bits over his neck and onto his hands, atop of each knuckle. When she finished and began to sing a soft lullaby "So-ooo sa het le naufa-aa rowgs......", using an unknown language to any whom are not taught as children, as she sang, the plants that had been crushed began to reform, as they grew and reformed, they were to pull away any illness or effects from dark magic, and she simply wished she had the ability to pull away from him what it was that was ailing him so.

(If you wish, you can try to read of it says)

 

[terragate]

(so as the fauna grows, i believe it to say)(im going to bed my maiden, i shall see you at one)

 

[MishaTheWolfQueen]

(very good, you are correct.) (and bon nuit good sir, I wish a well resting sleep for you, pleasant dreams as well)

 

[terragate]

Avin felt the cold paste on his face and it brought him to, he could hear he could smell but he could not open his eyes, it was if they were glued. Avin wanted to cry for he found he could not move either it made him furious what was keeping him still, was it his caretaker...no he could sense that she was helping him...so then what was keeping him under the waves of sleep, what was it that whispered evil secrets into his ear. over the other voices he could hear his caretaker, not knowing her name or what she looked like he had no idea what he was getting himself into but that did not matter, the voices were getting louder and louder. It seemed his mind was breaking as a nut breaks under a cracker, the idea kept at him until...... his hand lifted up, slowly easily his eyes opened his body seeming to be able to move, but it seemed rigid as if something was still restricting him, he looked into the eyes of his caretaker and smiled "is this heaven" he laughed slightly at his quote he should not be getting this girl...lady into what he was but she did help him, he looked about him and the room seemed cluttered with herbs potions things of which came from the unknown. he looked into her eyes one more time, looking for the twinkle of evil...the secret was not withing her. He chuckled heavily bringing himself into an insane laughter that made the whole house shake.

:"so you have not been touched by it, but yet you have its power" a voice of not his own croaked out, it was like rusty nails screeching across metal, to him it was unpleasant how come he said things he had no reason to say...what had happened to him and why was he speaking this gibberish, everything confused him his right was his left and his left was his right, "fiction is now reality" he said laughing softly, he had tipped over the side of chaos, he was no longer there his body was unkempt unclean his real self was locked away from the truth and what was now here was not of this world, it was avin though just...different "Tredici mesi il mio amico, dopo tredici mesi di tortura di questa anima persa"((this is italian, you can use a translator if you want))
Avin stood up his legs shaking a look no a glint in his eye was the last of him the real him, fighting it fighting whatever he was he fought himself from the inside. you could see the fight in his face full of pain as if two sides fought for one thing, this thing was Avin, of course both sides were him just the other was impurely insane, with one last struggle his body fell to the ground and his body twitched slightly as Avin came out of the tunnel he had dug. the whole episode had ended and left Avin breathing deeply his eyes closed only slightly, he did not move but he was awake " i...im s...so sorry" he whispered to the care taker pain rippling through his body

 

[MishaTheWolfQueen]

Kai-ra watched as the herbs grew, though, they turned an ugly black colour, and as soon as they finished, they wilted. She was shocked, what sort of dark magic was this? She watched as his eyes finally opened and she gave him a kind smile "Are you alright sir?" She asked tenderly, and chuckled softly when he asked if this was heaven. "No sir, you are still upon the Earth." she smiled kindly and got up, to fetch a cup of water and brought it back for him. "Here, let me help you drink..." She said softly, it was almost motherly even. Though when he looked into her eyes, it was....as if he was searching for something.

When his voice changed to an eerie and evil sounding tone, she nearly jumped, she hadn't expected such a change. It talked about power yet not being touched, what on earth did it mean? Was this caused by whatever unknown force had been tormenting this poor man? She stood up when he began to laughed and took a key from around her neck and unlocked a wooden box with protection spells over it. Within the box, a large clearish purple crystal resided, as well as a small vial of red liquid, thick and almost the colour of blood. She walked back over to him and was preparing to use a cleansing spell as well as the crystal to try and force what ever spirit or demon had embedded itself within the man and force it into the crystal, but before she could the man stood up, as if he would try to leave.

She placed the items in her hands on the bedside table and stepped in front of him "Please sir, lay back down, you are not well...." She said kindly, trying to coax him back to laying down. He looked as though he was in so much pain, it wrenched at her heart to see him like this. She could see a look on his face, as though he were battling some demon inside his mind. She then watched as something changed, and he fell to the ground, nearly bringing her down with him. She dropped to her knees and checked his pulse, he was breathing and was still alive, but she couldn't explain any of what had just happened. "Sir?" She asked softly, placing her hand gently onto his cheek as she looked down with worried eyes. She could see the pain again on his face, though, why was he apologizing? "Shhhh....it's alright, I'm here to care for you, do not apologize..." She said sweetly, a kind smile on her face as she slowly moved her arms under him to try and help him back onto the bed, she just hoped she could find a way to help him to recover from whatever it had been that caused these symptoms.

 

[terragate]

so he lay, weary and tired, a temptation to kiss this woman came to him for what she was doing for him, but he shook this feeling of knowing to kiss a stranger is a dangerous thing even when she is the one taking care of you "m...my name i..is Avin" he said a slight smile playing across his face, which soon fell to face wrenching pain. He knew something was wrong with him but what it was eluded him, closing his eyes slightly he tried to calm his breathing and heart which was erratic at the moment. something odd was happening, his heartbeat was in tune with his eyes which were now pulsing a dark purple, he could see it through her eyes and he turned from her as if he was a monster.

"please...don't look at me" he said almost starting to cry, he did not want to be seen this way by one so beautiful, he did not want his true self to be shown. it was if he tried to hide but he was in a cage with no where to hide, and unable to hide he just whimpered in his own self pity not realizing that he could be traumatizing this women as well, to not heed someone else is to not heed yourself a thought told avin. and as this thought passed through him he knew that he was safe here the eyes upon him were not judging eyes, they were the eyes of one who cares for all and needs no care in return. he did not care for himself know , at this moment without her consent he sat up and brought her into his embrace "I....I am so so...sorry.....fo...for n...not behaving" he said explaining why he had said sorry earlier, he pulled her closer wanting comfort, he did not want her to take care of him at this moment he wanted her just to be there he wanted her to be the net that grabbed him if he fell, and that was all.

And as he embraced her a part of him left from him and managed to sneak itself into her, the last of his purity, he did not know this but he himself chose to be with her for as long as he could and if he was not with her he would loose sanity, "si conosce la mia sanità mentale, io ho scelto voi e solo voi" know smiling he kissed her not afraid anymore of falling, because he knew he would be caught by her, and with that thought he lay himself down onto the bed not yet closing his eyes but resting knowing all was well.....but it wasn't and a little part of him knew it.