posted this in my blog, thought I'd repost this here.
so what's the most complex thing, idea, being or otherwise that you can think of? People, to understand people is not only to understand yourself but to understand any possible situation you may come across in your life. Cause face it, we aren't going to be dealing with aliens anytime soon, and the most alien concepts come from other people right?
So first I seek to understand myself, then I seek to understand those around me, and finally I seek to understand the generalizations.. of man and his thought process, for the generalizations.. encompass at a minimum 50% of humanity, and to think, if I had the power to understand the thought processes of half of humanity, the questions I could answer for myself.
Why... is one of the most often asked questions. Why do you do this? Why do you think this way? Why do you feel the things you feel? And not just the simple answers, I'm looking for the deep rooted psychological reasoning behind your answers. "Because I want to." "Because I feel like it." Those are not the answers I am looking for. "Because I am human and weak and this is my vice because I was not given enough of this when I was younger/..stronger/most competant." Those are not even the answers I seek.
I wish to dissect your still living mind and see through your eyes and feel what you are feeling, to desire what you desire, to want what you want. This is my goal. Because only then, will I discover the answer to this 'why.'
Humanity is a puzzle, the mind is a puzzle, and each individual you meet can be solved.
The greater the puzzle, the more it captures my interest, the more time I invest into it, the more I WANT and NEED to decipher it.
Do you think I'm stupid? Do you think I'm unstable? Do you even think I'm slow and unable to keep up with you? Good. Be what I WANT you to be, think what I WANT you to think. Because I'm in control, and you can have whatever little grip on me that i want you to have, and if you have managed to earn a position in my life in which my own emotions are tied to you, then you are literally one in about seven billion. [estimated human population on this planet].
you want a peek into MY mind? Well there you go, I have unlocked a door for you, a peek inside my labyrinth.
Just remember, whatever you think you know, you are probably wrong. Nothing against you, it's just human nature. and to think that you are not the 'average' is ridiculous, if anything you are probably below average. Only the truely exceptional are remembered, are you are not that.
To end this, I'll state that I simply seek the truth, and that I seek understanding. I do not claim to be exceptional, or 'better' than any individual or group of individuals. I plan on quietly observing my surroundings and those that surround and influence myself. I will make quiet judgements based on said observations, and I strive to be as inhuman and as logically fair as humanly possible.
I don't expect much from my readers, And out of the 150 some odd of you I don't expect a single reply or comment. But if you read this, and if you take something from it, then my goal is accomplished.
but how do you know?