Brian_dark_angelo
Planetoid
- Joined
- May 7, 2010
She hadn’t slept well for the past couple of days and the little food she had in her system didn’t give her much energy. She spent days hiding, refusing to go out to eat, going to the bathroom at night to see if the cold water would make her agony and want for the drug stop. She couldn’t let others see her like this, miserable, in pain, sick. She was the one that caused the pain, the one who made everyone back down with just a few words. And now she was supposed to follow the word of the guy whose life she had made sure to destroy little by little throughout the years.
Natasha knew she already owned a lot of dealers some money though she had been told even that debt had been settled, along with the school’s money problem. And it was all her fault; she had wasted everything and then more. The pills, the small amounts of white powder, and of course the needles. She hadn’t done much of those yet. They had the strongest and fastest effect, but her fear of needles kept her pretty far from them, most of the time.
She sat at the back of the taxi fumbling with the hem of her black tank. She knew she had to look bad, presentable but bad for her usual look, after all she was a girl born in riches who was now at the bottom. Her brown hair was tied up in a messy bun that was almost falling off around her head and the clothes she wore did nothing to hide a couple of bruises she had along her arms and body from the times when she had tried to find the drug somewhere else. Of course at the same time she also knew she didn’t look as bad as she should. The black jeans she wore still hugged her figure and just slip a bit at her hips. She hadn’t lost too much weight over the drugs either, almost none at all. Her skin still had its normal color and the dark circles under her eyes were currently heavily hidden with makeup.
She pulled at her shirt some more shutting her brown eyes tightly trying to fight over the feelings of need. She moved one of her hands to the top of her tight and dug her fingers into it wanting to maybe shift the pain and nausea she was feeling. All she wanted and all she could think about was getting rid of the feeling. It had never been this bad before, but she had never gone more than a day without having it. How long had it been four or six days, maybe more than a week? She wasn’t even sure; maybe that was what made her get up and leave the house and look for him. The need made her think that anything was worth having the pain go away, she’d do anything for it. Why should she care who was providing her with it? It was either swallow her pride only in front of him or never leaving her house again, or worse having others realize the predicament she was in. And now here she was knocking desperately at his door willing to say yes to his ‘offer’, she had always known she had no choice in the matter and sooner or later she would be forced into it, but now her mind was only thinking it as her only choice and that no force was needed.
Natasha knew she already owned a lot of dealers some money though she had been told even that debt had been settled, along with the school’s money problem. And it was all her fault; she had wasted everything and then more. The pills, the small amounts of white powder, and of course the needles. She hadn’t done much of those yet. They had the strongest and fastest effect, but her fear of needles kept her pretty far from them, most of the time.
She sat at the back of the taxi fumbling with the hem of her black tank. She knew she had to look bad, presentable but bad for her usual look, after all she was a girl born in riches who was now at the bottom. Her brown hair was tied up in a messy bun that was almost falling off around her head and the clothes she wore did nothing to hide a couple of bruises she had along her arms and body from the times when she had tried to find the drug somewhere else. Of course at the same time she also knew she didn’t look as bad as she should. The black jeans she wore still hugged her figure and just slip a bit at her hips. She hadn’t lost too much weight over the drugs either, almost none at all. Her skin still had its normal color and the dark circles under her eyes were currently heavily hidden with makeup.
She pulled at her shirt some more shutting her brown eyes tightly trying to fight over the feelings of need. She moved one of her hands to the top of her tight and dug her fingers into it wanting to maybe shift the pain and nausea she was feeling. All she wanted and all she could think about was getting rid of the feeling. It had never been this bad before, but she had never gone more than a day without having it. How long had it been four or six days, maybe more than a week? She wasn’t even sure; maybe that was what made her get up and leave the house and look for him. The need made her think that anything was worth having the pain go away, she’d do anything for it. Why should she care who was providing her with it? It was either swallow her pride only in front of him or never leaving her house again, or worse having others realize the predicament she was in. And now here she was knocking desperately at his door willing to say yes to his ‘offer’, she had always known she had no choice in the matter and sooner or later she would be forced into it, but now her mind was only thinking it as her only choice and that no force was needed.