Shit I Shouldn't Say(Poetry)

[RoryN]

Collection of general poetry. It's of a personal nature but I do not mind comments.


My World

The curtains are drawn,
Hiding me from the world
And the world from me,
Sunlight venturing through
On tip-toed feet,
Calling out in uncertainty.

I do not answer.
The will to rise has left me,
Burrowing deeper within
The flesh-like cushion of myself,
Blanketed with my muscles,
Caged by my bones.

It's all that is left of me.
Aspirations and goals
Taste like ash on my tongue,
Bitter and desolate in all the
Nutrition it affords me.
Once you have tasted heaven,
Once you have sought bliss,
When it is no longer available
And opportunity for happiness shuns you,
Like an apathetic lover,
Everything you once loved
Echoes hollowly.

It cannot sustain me.
There was nothing else
I could ever want for myself.
Even with someone else,
I do not have strength left
To try to reach for it again
Only to be surely denied
For what I lacked
And still do not possess.

Time is running out
But the clock doesn't
Move fast enough.

 

[RoryN]

RE: Shit I Shouldn't Say

Drunken Ecstasy

The clear, liquid fire in a bottle;
Hot, burning down my throat
Numbing my tongue and limbs
Turning my mind to bouncy jelly
Transforming the world
Into the silver-lined clouds
That I can never see without it.
Forever my comforter
Forever my companion.

Pain is a distant, feeble thing.
The sky purpling above
Mimicking the bruises on my soul;
Externalized and freed
From these markings and burdens
I become not myself
And for a time
I escape Rory.

Not alone and irresponsible
For the ethereal identities
That normally cage me,
We make love, kissing
And trading fluid between our lips.
Lustfully I consume her
Soothed by her penetration,
Her presence swelling within
My stomach and skull
Until oblivion and darkness cradle me
In the lost Midnight Hour.

Why ever leave this stupor
When the spirits in my belly
Offer such escapes from
The trappings of reality?

 

[RoryN]

Longing for Relief

It's always nagging
At the back of my mind
The random ache in my groin
Or sunburst in my chest.
The normal urges have never left
Daily I am haunted
By their tempting whispers.
My eyesight betrays me
Revealing untouchable
Sumptuous delights
Laid in a platter before me.
Guilt and shame tighten a leash
Around my neck, turning nooselike;
After a while, it seems
I am drawn to erotic asphyxiation
To further aggravate the rising foam of pressure.

 

[RoryN]

Sickness

I curse that night -
I curse a lot of those nights
Indiscriminate sex
Driven by lust;
Charging into the fray
With an erect and virile sword
But no shield.
An arrow was going to pierce
My flesh sooner or later.

In a world where we're all poor
Only the wealthy die in style.
Panic seizes me when causeless pain erupts.
Fighting for my life,
Flailing at an enemy I have no weapons to fight.
Life is a precious commodity.
I crave it.
I cling to it, helpless to turn the tide.

Realization dawns on me
Once my limitations are
Hammered down.
Denied the avenues of salvation,
My body declares war on me.
Finding someone to blame,
I join sides with it
Punishing my younger, reckless self.

Marching into battle
Alongside the ranks of the virus within,
The crystal Lady Knight carries my banner,
With clear liquid armor
Glistening in the sun
Emitting intoxicating vapors;
My lovely Champion.
My precious whore.

Rally the troops!
Sing your delicious song of despair!
With one more charge we mow through
The frail flesh of the opposition
Stabbing ourselves in the gut;
Too frenzied to acknowledge pain,
Too consumed by bloodlust to stop
Our cannibalization.

The morgue is calling...

 

[greatlover]

you are a pathetic pussy for writing this shit!

 

[greatlover]

why can't i post in the other one? did they lock you journal because you were too much a whining bitch?