Sexual Lessons, Changing Intentions [Full~Pride x Juicy Fresh]

[Juicy Fresh]

Nerd x Popular – Sister x Brother Starter

I had never really been interested in boys – ever – especially the popular boy's group; one of which my brother was a member of. I found them cocky, selfish, and generally mean people, even to their own kind. It was hard to talk about them that way since my older brother was one of them, but even he fell victim to the clique's vicious attitude. Nevertheless, boys were the least of my worries or my focus – I was solely concentrated on school – everything else was unfortunately ignored; including fashion. This caused a lot of misery for me, since it was considered ugly and disgusting to not follow trends and spend 3 hours in front of the mirror a day making yourself look fake a 'pretty'. So my negative view on the Populars was pretty evident to the entire world – but no one expected me to agree to a date from the most popular football player in the school: Jake, not even myself. When the words 'yes' exited my mouth, I thought I was going to faint. Was it some weird subconscious crush I had? Some inner-conflicted fantasy about him? Whatever it was, it gave me the opportunity to prove to the school that I wasn't just some loser; that I could be beautiful and 'cool' too. It became a crazy obsession, almost overnight, to impress him. This would be the start of a new me.

I realized in order to impress, I couldn't be a prude – I couldn't be ignorant to relationships or even sex. But how is a virgin supposed to be a Sex Goddess in bed? It's a hilarious contradiction. How am I magically supposed to develop a sexual instinct without the experience? I needed a tutor, a mentor, not just the internet, to get me through this. But no one I knew was sexually experience, and I was too embarrassed and shy to ask a stranger or hire someone. So I asked the only person who thinks like Jake, and that was my very own brother! Weird? Maybe a little, and that's why it took me days and nights of contemplation before I had the confidence to ask for his help. Not to mention if he'd even agree or think I'm disturbed person. It's not like I'm even the least attracted to him. He's a good-looking guy, not to say he's ugly or anything... but he's my brother, my flesh and blood, it's not like it would be incestuous...

“Oh, (Insert Brother's Name Here). My lovely, caring, thoughtful brother...” I batted my eyelashes and spoke in the same whiny voice I always did when I wanted something important – it was usually a ride to somewhere typically nerdy like the library or a museum; something he always joked and made-fun of me for. “Don't ignore me and pretend like I don't want something, 'cuz I do. I always do.” I gave a nice big, angelically guilty smile and moved in front of him. “So listen, you know how Mom and Dad aren't going to be home for the entire weekend, and you wanted to have that huge house party and I said No, but you were going to have it anyways before I threatened to tell Mom, and then you got all pissed off and didn't talk to me and still aren't talking to me?” I said that all in one, on-going breath and by the end of it gave a breathless sign. Breathing back in, “So yeah. I have a proposal... a way to make amends but I need your... erm... help...” I looked away, my face beginning to flush before I even proposed my offer. Realizing I had gotten his attention; it was time to spill the embarrassing beans. “I will let you have the party... IF... you agree to teach me.” He gave a confused look, since I was usually the one to teach him despite our 2-year difference. “I know that sounds weird since I always seem to end up doing your homework...” I nudged in a joking manner, “But I really need your help... with Jake... I know you don't want me dating him but I will be... the only problem is...” I bit the corner of my lip and turned my back to him. I started to pace myself in the kitchen before finally spitting it out, “I don't know anything about sex.” I said nothing further, I let the statement simmer. There was an intense awkward silence between the two of us. I didn't even want to turn around and see the expression on his face... but I had too, so I turned around. “It might seem weird at first, but who else am I supposed to go to? I can't just go on Craigslist and ask for a sex teacher – I'll get raped.” I pouted, in a semi-joking, semi-serious way. “And who better knows the... field... than you? Plus, you're his best friend – you know what, you know, turns him on... What he likes... all you have to do is teach me how to do all the things he likes?” This wasn't going to work. I could see the great unease on his face. It was over; everything... my relationship with my brother, my respect out the window, my chance with Jake – all flushed down the toilet along with my pride. I was willing to lose everything that made me, me; my independence, my virginity, my modesty, my innocence, my self-morals – something I had suddenly become so desperate to lose – all in the name of a pathetic puppy love.

 

[Full~Pride]

Many thoughts began to flourish in the older brother's head. She wants to date Jake? What the hell did I tell her- !! She is in for a big surprise if she thinks she can just waltz in and say she's dating him... I'm her big brother, even if I can't stand her, I'm gonna protect her from...! S- she doesn't know about... oh... OH! Hahahahaha! She really thinks I'll... oh god, she really does think I'll teach her. Ok, think Matt, think... got to let her down nice and easy. That's right, nice and easy. Matt thought, looking at her. "Sis, it's a lot different when you do my homework for me, but do you really know you like him enough to want to know about... the love making at this point?" He asked, trying to make her forget about this idea. He didn't want her to date his friends, nor did he want to date her girl friends. It was the typical sibling stuff; don't date each other's friends. He sighed, blushing to himself, feeling as though he owed her for some reason. "If... you really love him, than I suppose I have no choice... this will only be for education, got that?" He said, glaring at her. He bit his lip, mad at himself for even bothering to comprehend possible sexual thoughts about him and his sister together.

He didn't want to do this with her. He was having a good day; he talked to girls his age, hung out with his other friends, and played on his laptop. Why did things have to twist and turn like that so crudely? It was unfair; he was now placed in an impossible situation of awkwardness, and embarrassment. He just hoped that nobody learned of what the siblings were doing, otherwise his reputation in school would be compromised. He stood up, looking down at her with a crooked smile. "We'll start tomorrow... if you're truly serious about this, meet me in my room at one in the afternoon, okay?" He would ask, looking her straight in the eye.

 

[Juicy Fresh]

“I'm positive. I'm tired of being in the dark. I want open the doors to a whole new realm.” I felt a little guilty for asking, honestly. I could tell it was an iffy subject that touched based on a whole new level of responsibility of relationship – but I was at the end of the road, with no one else to turn to except for my very own brother. I gave an excited smile as you finally agreed. “Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!” I jumped up and down and gave a little twirl in the air. It was clear I was happy that you agreed. It was almost as bad as my reaction when Jake asked me out. I almost fainted and screamed at the top of my lungs, jumping on and off my bed like a wild monkey. But that was not too long ago. It was not exactly the definition of cool, but I couldn't help myself in situations like that. I skipped off and up the stairs to before disappearing. I didn't have much of a life, so I finished up my homework and made sure that I would have all of the day open for tomorrow.

Soon, tomorrow came. I had gotten up early in the morning and made some breakfast for myself – unsure if you were even up or even home. It wasn't unusual that I awoke and you have crashed at a friends place or some sort. By now, I was pretty much old enough to take care of myself, even if the parents always pushed for a babysitter, I was always able to overcome it with my smarts. I think the babysitter was more geared to my brother sometimes – since he could get a little on the wild side and do some pretty stupid things. 'Remember, Laurel, keep an eye out on your brother...' I laughed to myself a bit at the thought. Sitting down to eat, it read a book. Something I always did when I was alone. I could always be found with my nose in a new book.

Some time had passed. I had done a few things, cleaned my room, had some lunch and completed all of my projects (only due in 2 weeks). It was 5 minutes to one, and I hadn't forgotten of my little lesson. Still greatly uneasy I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. “Matt? You there?”

 

[Full~Pride]

Matt sighed. He was sitting on his bed, frustrated, and unknown on what to say. He couldn't tell her how to do these sexual acts only... gulp. Show. This meant he would have to have sex with her as the ultimate test, and way of testing how she knows to do it. Okay, lets take it slow for today... only kissing, and groping. It can't be that bad just doing that today, right? Not like she'll get "in the mood" and screw me in the heat of it...right? Oh, god... I've got to really be careful when doing this. One screw-up...BAM! She's pregnant, and this dog here is screwed off his frigging mind. Oh! She's hear, now, act casual... act like there's nothing wrong. "Hey sex- I mean, sis...," he began face-palming himself for his stupidity in screwing up the words. He let her come in, standing over his bed. He had made up his mind, and is going with that plan, him deciding to take the time to make things very clear for her. "Once mom and dad get home, I'm done, and not helping you with this any longer. If you're ready to begin, I need you to lie down on the bed, and... ergh... get na- naked." He said with a blush, turning away towards his laptop, not feeling comfortable watching.

"Just don't say anything till you undressed, and remember, you asked for my help... so don't complain that you don't want to do it," he said, his entire face gone red from this moment and probably for the next couple of minutes. I still can't believe I'm doing this... she's my sister! I'm not supposed to grope her naked body, or kiss her intimately, so why did I choose to do this? I guess... I may not love her incestuously but... I want her to be happy. It's... hard to explain to even myself but... I don't want to see her cry or anything. God, this relationship is a hell of a puzzle... if only Where's Waldo was this hard. He joked as he thought about it. He would face her once she said she was done changing out of her clothes.

 

[Juicy Fresh]

I entered the room and I could already feel the tension; the awkwardness. This was so weird. The whole situation. I knew it was asking for too much. It wasn't like we were actually going to have sex, right? That would just be so wrong and disgusting on so many levels. I didn't even ask for real action – just practice stuff. What if we kissed? Would that still be weird? Even if it was in the name of sheer practice and self-betterment? I was beginning to deeply regret this decision. I didn't even know my body, how could I communicate with yours? This whole situation was off. I had already begun to deeply regret the decision to ask for your help. My stomach turned and I suddenly didn't want to do this anymore. “Maybe this was a bad idea....” But once the words were out of my mouth, I changed my mind again. “Er... well... this is to cure me of my nerdy-ness, I guess. Thank you for helping me.”

I slowly approached the bed and sat down. I awaited for your instructions when you turned around to looked away, I knew something was wrong. Then those dreadful words came out; 'get naked'. A shocking shiver destroys my body. My eyes widened and I stayed in silence. I wasn't sure of what to really say. Should I even say anything? Why did I need to get naked for a teaching? But then I thought of it quickly, and it kind of made sense. How was I supposed to be intimate with Jake if I am too shy to show my body to my own family. It was a good start in a way. “O-okay...” I blushed profusely as I began to undress, even if you were looking, it was still embarrassing. Slowly but surely, every piece of clothing was peeled off of me. To finish, I tossed my bra and panties onto the ground beside the bed. “I'm.... I'm naked.” I was sitting up on the bed, my legs to the side and my hands covering my womanhood. My arms were placed over my breasts as if to hide them, but it wasn't really working.

 

[Full~Pride]

I bit my lip, unable to comprehend what I was about to do. Did this make me insane? Crazy? Stupid? This was already getting too overwhelming for my own good. "Okay, facing this fear will pay off when the time in your relationship reaches this level of intimacy," I said, looking at her with a pale, red face. I felt as though I should have a nose bleed, or faint as a typical reaction to seeing a woman's naked beauty - but - how could I? She's my sister, my flesh and blood, my blood-sister - in a way. "Before we can start, you've gotta be able to show me everything, without fear. If you're afraid of me, you won't exactly have that fearless commitment to show your entire body to Jake. Just remember who you're doing this for?" I said, reminding her of the whole reason I'm doing this. I sat on the bed next to her, having no expression on my face. How could I? I cared enough to help her, but it's not like I was happy about it?

"The best way to start, I thought, would be for.. kissing. You did say you never kissed anyone? Jake won't go simple kissing with lips, sis, he'd want tongue, too. Are you ready?" I asked, feeling awkward I'd have to do this with someone like my sister. I'd rather do it with someone who it would be less awkward. For example, my Ex-girlfriend Svetlana. She was a foreign exchange student from Russia, a very sexy one at that. It's a hell of a lot less awkward kissing some girl from another family than my own. Maybe it would be better if she got help from someone on Craigslist?