oropherion
Planetoid
- Joined
- Nov 21, 2021
[Trigger warning for nsfw and derogatory words]
Wesley Mason had always known bearing the title of father would be a heavy weight, but he had never imagined the weight of it to be this crushing. After all, the journey into fatherhood had gone exactly how it was supposed to go. Find a girl, fall in love, marry her, and then have children. Well mostly how it was supposed to. That was what his parents had imprinted on him growing up, especially his father. All throughout his childhood, his father had made it clear how things must and were going to be as a man, what role he’d play in this world, the importance of his masculinity and being a decent citizen of their great country. He wasn’t allowed to show any weakness and if his father caught him crying to his mother, he’d take him out and give him a good whipping then go make him work his fingers to the bone outside. Give him a real good reason to cry. If he spent too long on his hair or dressing up, his father would snatch him from his room and whip him. His father wasn’t going to raise no ‘queer’.
So when Wesley came to the end of high school, he focused not only on his education and the sports he was forced to be involved in, but also in girls. He had been a good looking young man, plenty of girls to fawn over him so it wasn’t difficult to pick a girl. They were the cream of the crop after all and his father was pleased whenever he invited one home for dinner. Eventually one girl stuck out enough to him for him to pursue full-time. She was the least annoying, least clingy of the bunch. She smelt nice, had a nice smile, got good grades, and she was his first true lover. He had lost his virginity to her.
They had dated for a couple years, went to college together, and during their second year, she got pregnant. His father had chewed him out for allowing that to happen before they were wed and while they weren’t even properly settled. So to do the right thing, Wesley had asked her hand in marriage and they got wed a couple months later before she began to show too much. Nine months after the pregnancy announcement, their son, Kellan, was born. Wes hadn’t thought too much before if he wanted to be a father or not. Even when it was something his parents spoke about and how that was the righteous path to follow, he had been more focused on other things. Had thought creating a family could wait until he was maybe in his late twenties or thirties, but it seemed that wasn’t the case. But when he first held Kellan in his arms, he felt his heart expand with love and he vowed he’d love and care for this infant no matter what.
Or at least that is what he thought. Wesley had become a successful adult as an electrician and plumber. A manly man’s job. Yet despite that, he maintained his appearance dutifully. He liked to call himself a ‘metrosexual’ whenever someone brought up the fact that shaved his face, waxed, cleaned the dirt from under his nails every day, kept them nice and trimmed, plucked his nose hairs, etc. All traits that his father would think of as ‘girly’ and ‘gay’. He had suppressed any possibility of attraction to men in the far recess of his mind because he couldn’t be gay, he wasn’t allowed to be attracted to men. It wasn’t what ‘men did’. He had thought he could break the cycle, be a better father than his own, but years of abuse, of being oppressed by his father, by all the foul and derogatory words spoken into his ear, was hard to overcome.
When Kellan’s mother left and he was alone to raise him, Wes did his best. Made sure to provide his son with everything he could want; toys, games, tools, attention. Though whenever his son leaned towards more feminine toys and clothes, he’d scold him and direct him to something more suited for him. Actions that were almost instinctual, done without thought. He didn’t realize that he had slowly become his own father over Kellan’s most developmental years. When Kellan came of age to hit puberty was when their otherwise good relationship became strained and tumultuous. It seemed despite his lessons and direction, Wes stumbled upon his son making out with another boy on his couch. It had turned into a shouting match, scaring the poor boy scrambling from his house and his son marching to his room refusing to talk to him. And things only got worse.
Wesley watched as his son grew more rebellious, vehement towards him, spewing nasty words at him, refusing to even eat dinner with him at times. He felt lost as he tried to mend some of their relationship, tried to have conversations with him, tried to find common ground with him again. It didn’t help that Wesley’s father died when Kellan was only seventeen and around the same time, Kellan’s grandmother had cut Kellan out of her life. Refusing to have any sort of relation with a ‘faggot’. Wesley had gotten mad with his mother for that, even if he was disappointed in his son’s orientation. No matter what, he wasn’t going to cut his son out of his life. Just try to guide him into making better choices, or so he believed he would…and could.
It didn’t help that seeing his son with these boys, soon men as they all came of age, made him feel strange himself. Wes couldn’t explain the feelings, though he could certainly pinpoint frustration and loathing. Though it seemed the loathing was more towards himself than his son. To the outside world, people admired him for being a loving father to a ‘normal rebellious son’, but they didn’t know the truth. Didn’t know the sort of degradation he heard within his own home, the drugs he witnessed his son doing despite how many times he got on his case for it. Nor did they, or even his son know, that sometimes he sat in the living room below his son’s room, alone with the lights dimly lit, nursing a beer with the TV down low, listening to his son railing another man in his bed. Wes could hear the scraping of the bed across the floorboards, the loud grunting and groans leaking through, could almost hear the skin slapping and how those sounds affected him.
For a while, Wesley tried to ignore it, tried to drown it out with alcohol and increase the volume of his show, but eventually he was worn down. Warmth spread through his body and having gone years without any sort of intimacy or attention, Wes would find himself aroused. He fought the urges, he drank more, he paced, anything to get his mind off of it, but he would succumb to his base desires, and jack off on the couch listening to his son fucking his new flavor for the night. He lost count of how many times he came like that, but he knew he was going crazy from it. Wes was bitter, jealous even, as he’d watch his son’s lovers limp down the stairs looking disheveled and properly fucked, smelling of it before they left. Made him wonder if it was really that good.
This night was much like those nights. Once again, he could hear the telltale sounds of Kellan pounding some dude into oblivion. The shouts and screams were hard to miss and especially to ignore and he felt his cock pulsing. Wes groaned as he bit the side of his hand and tried to focus on the television ahead of him and not the bulge in his jeans. Yet he couldn’t get the image of his son fucking those boys, knowing what kind of beast sat between those thighs. Wesley’s own average six incher did not compare. He was amazed just how much testosterone Kellan reeked of in comparison to himself. It was almost shameful. His heart pumped harder as he massaged himself through his jeans, groaning and feeling his cock jump at the sound of the headboard slamming particularly hard against the wall. It sounded like their lovemaking was coming to an end though with the louder, shorter whines and soon the house was silent again except for the TV.
Time ticked by and Wesley hadn’t even made himself cum for he felt his own mind come to a decision he had been fighting for weeks. He lost track of how long it had been, but soon the strange man descended the stairs, barely spared him a glance, before hurrying out of his home. Wes watched him go as he chugged the last of his warm beer. Crunching up the can, he hissed and felt his cock pulse at what deviant thoughts were going through his mind. His body rose almost mechanically, his arousal making it a bit difficult to make the short walk to the stairs. He could almost smell the sex from where he stood and without thought, followed the smell all the way up to Kellan’s room. The door was shut and he stood there, with a lump in his throat and heart racing a mile a second, wondering what the hell was doing here. He was tempted to turn and leave, but he was frustrated, buzzed, and horny and god did he need to find out why his son loved fucking men. Why other men liked to be fucked by him.
Wesley steeled his jaw as he finally raised his fist and knocked on the door, “Kell? I need to speak to you. Can I come in?”
Wesley Mason had always known bearing the title of father would be a heavy weight, but he had never imagined the weight of it to be this crushing. After all, the journey into fatherhood had gone exactly how it was supposed to go. Find a girl, fall in love, marry her, and then have children. Well mostly how it was supposed to. That was what his parents had imprinted on him growing up, especially his father. All throughout his childhood, his father had made it clear how things must and were going to be as a man, what role he’d play in this world, the importance of his masculinity and being a decent citizen of their great country. He wasn’t allowed to show any weakness and if his father caught him crying to his mother, he’d take him out and give him a good whipping then go make him work his fingers to the bone outside. Give him a real good reason to cry. If he spent too long on his hair or dressing up, his father would snatch him from his room and whip him. His father wasn’t going to raise no ‘queer’.
So when Wesley came to the end of high school, he focused not only on his education and the sports he was forced to be involved in, but also in girls. He had been a good looking young man, plenty of girls to fawn over him so it wasn’t difficult to pick a girl. They were the cream of the crop after all and his father was pleased whenever he invited one home for dinner. Eventually one girl stuck out enough to him for him to pursue full-time. She was the least annoying, least clingy of the bunch. She smelt nice, had a nice smile, got good grades, and she was his first true lover. He had lost his virginity to her.
They had dated for a couple years, went to college together, and during their second year, she got pregnant. His father had chewed him out for allowing that to happen before they were wed and while they weren’t even properly settled. So to do the right thing, Wesley had asked her hand in marriage and they got wed a couple months later before she began to show too much. Nine months after the pregnancy announcement, their son, Kellan, was born. Wes hadn’t thought too much before if he wanted to be a father or not. Even when it was something his parents spoke about and how that was the righteous path to follow, he had been more focused on other things. Had thought creating a family could wait until he was maybe in his late twenties or thirties, but it seemed that wasn’t the case. But when he first held Kellan in his arms, he felt his heart expand with love and he vowed he’d love and care for this infant no matter what.
Or at least that is what he thought. Wesley had become a successful adult as an electrician and plumber. A manly man’s job. Yet despite that, he maintained his appearance dutifully. He liked to call himself a ‘metrosexual’ whenever someone brought up the fact that shaved his face, waxed, cleaned the dirt from under his nails every day, kept them nice and trimmed, plucked his nose hairs, etc. All traits that his father would think of as ‘girly’ and ‘gay’. He had suppressed any possibility of attraction to men in the far recess of his mind because he couldn’t be gay, he wasn’t allowed to be attracted to men. It wasn’t what ‘men did’. He had thought he could break the cycle, be a better father than his own, but years of abuse, of being oppressed by his father, by all the foul and derogatory words spoken into his ear, was hard to overcome.
When Kellan’s mother left and he was alone to raise him, Wes did his best. Made sure to provide his son with everything he could want; toys, games, tools, attention. Though whenever his son leaned towards more feminine toys and clothes, he’d scold him and direct him to something more suited for him. Actions that were almost instinctual, done without thought. He didn’t realize that he had slowly become his own father over Kellan’s most developmental years. When Kellan came of age to hit puberty was when their otherwise good relationship became strained and tumultuous. It seemed despite his lessons and direction, Wes stumbled upon his son making out with another boy on his couch. It had turned into a shouting match, scaring the poor boy scrambling from his house and his son marching to his room refusing to talk to him. And things only got worse.
Wesley watched as his son grew more rebellious, vehement towards him, spewing nasty words at him, refusing to even eat dinner with him at times. He felt lost as he tried to mend some of their relationship, tried to have conversations with him, tried to find common ground with him again. It didn’t help that Wesley’s father died when Kellan was only seventeen and around the same time, Kellan’s grandmother had cut Kellan out of her life. Refusing to have any sort of relation with a ‘faggot’. Wesley had gotten mad with his mother for that, even if he was disappointed in his son’s orientation. No matter what, he wasn’t going to cut his son out of his life. Just try to guide him into making better choices, or so he believed he would…and could.
It didn’t help that seeing his son with these boys, soon men as they all came of age, made him feel strange himself. Wes couldn’t explain the feelings, though he could certainly pinpoint frustration and loathing. Though it seemed the loathing was more towards himself than his son. To the outside world, people admired him for being a loving father to a ‘normal rebellious son’, but they didn’t know the truth. Didn’t know the sort of degradation he heard within his own home, the drugs he witnessed his son doing despite how many times he got on his case for it. Nor did they, or even his son know, that sometimes he sat in the living room below his son’s room, alone with the lights dimly lit, nursing a beer with the TV down low, listening to his son railing another man in his bed. Wes could hear the scraping of the bed across the floorboards, the loud grunting and groans leaking through, could almost hear the skin slapping and how those sounds affected him.
For a while, Wesley tried to ignore it, tried to drown it out with alcohol and increase the volume of his show, but eventually he was worn down. Warmth spread through his body and having gone years without any sort of intimacy or attention, Wes would find himself aroused. He fought the urges, he drank more, he paced, anything to get his mind off of it, but he would succumb to his base desires, and jack off on the couch listening to his son fucking his new flavor for the night. He lost count of how many times he came like that, but he knew he was going crazy from it. Wes was bitter, jealous even, as he’d watch his son’s lovers limp down the stairs looking disheveled and properly fucked, smelling of it before they left. Made him wonder if it was really that good.
This night was much like those nights. Once again, he could hear the telltale sounds of Kellan pounding some dude into oblivion. The shouts and screams were hard to miss and especially to ignore and he felt his cock pulsing. Wes groaned as he bit the side of his hand and tried to focus on the television ahead of him and not the bulge in his jeans. Yet he couldn’t get the image of his son fucking those boys, knowing what kind of beast sat between those thighs. Wesley’s own average six incher did not compare. He was amazed just how much testosterone Kellan reeked of in comparison to himself. It was almost shameful. His heart pumped harder as he massaged himself through his jeans, groaning and feeling his cock jump at the sound of the headboard slamming particularly hard against the wall. It sounded like their lovemaking was coming to an end though with the louder, shorter whines and soon the house was silent again except for the TV.
Time ticked by and Wesley hadn’t even made himself cum for he felt his own mind come to a decision he had been fighting for weeks. He lost track of how long it had been, but soon the strange man descended the stairs, barely spared him a glance, before hurrying out of his home. Wes watched him go as he chugged the last of his warm beer. Crunching up the can, he hissed and felt his cock pulse at what deviant thoughts were going through his mind. His body rose almost mechanically, his arousal making it a bit difficult to make the short walk to the stairs. He could almost smell the sex from where he stood and without thought, followed the smell all the way up to Kellan’s room. The door was shut and he stood there, with a lump in his throat and heart racing a mile a second, wondering what the hell was doing here. He was tempted to turn and leave, but he was frustrated, buzzed, and horny and god did he need to find out why his son loved fucking men. Why other men liked to be fucked by him.
Wesley steeled his jaw as he finally raised his fist and knocked on the door, “Kell? I need to speak to you. Can I come in?”