Verse
Star
- Joined
- May 8, 2011
Jin still had this chip on his shoulder.
Maybe it had started with his badness maturing in his boy body. People try to think on great calamity through sifting through its beginnings. He hadn't been a sweet boy, but he'd been a boy, at least, just finding himself. Maybe if he'd channeled his physicality into sports, instead, he would have been someone else. Maybe he'd found a productive outlet. But he found it in other children's faces and bones instead, with his feet and fists. The kind of thing that would have you rather unpopular on the schoolyard. But quiet infamy is useful for males. He threw his little weight around, and that was effective when everyone else had less. King of the sandbox, scourge of recess.
He was just getting used to the taste of power in his mouth when it turned bad. A video from a fucking knowitall. And then that was that. No more quiet. They'd shone a light on his darkness. A video of him pummeling a kid three classes his senior. Hospitalization. The fuck did they know, it was a fair fight, wasn't it? But it looked bad. And it worked out worse.
Or maybe it didn't.
Looking back now, maybe that's all there could have ever been. Jin Hamata sprung like a willow and used his long limbs to run the streets and swat down smaller trees. Paid his way with beatings, and then he got into other shit. He wanted it. He meant to do it forever. But one geezer who saw something in him, traded his small time operation for a slightly expanded one. Campus sales. Some of the students had deep pockets, and the beat was easier. Meant Jin had to enroll. There wasn't enough grease on the board to get him anything fancy, but he didn't mind the schoolwork, after so long. So he got into a loft for himself around the college, and his wares sold like hotcakes, over there.
Life was alright, and the nights were as he remembered; out of this world. Blood on his knuckles and chemicals for his veins, though he mostly stuck to the bottle nowadays.
And then he saw him, one day. The knowitall. Fucking Tim Green. Still had some of that babyfat but he'd grown up too. Freckled fucker with that mop of blond hair. Walking around like he hadn't shared a video that derailed Jin's life like a mile-long break in the tracks.
First instinct was to tear him down. With the reach Jin's gang had, it'd be easy to beat up one kid, even in the daytime, and get away with it. The geezer that backed him was worth a lot, in the organization. And Jin was going to do it, too, had his sleeve rolled up and everything, about to catch up to Tim, and catch Tim up. But he stopped shy of making contact. Tim was fucking happy. No. He was beaming. It grated his enemy so much he stopped, disgusted. And then he saw her.
Some pretty thing with a tan. Good curls on her hair and the same youth they all had in common on her dark skin. Jin tilted his head. Girlfriend? No. They were familiar but not in that way. Thought Tim looked like he wanted that. Her smile suggested that maybe there was something there, but something that hadn't gone all the way. Jin stopped back and lit a cigarette and waited. He didn't know why, but the reason manifested itself slowly in his chest.
That's it. He knew it when Tim said her name. Imama. That's how he'd get Tim. She was beautiful enough to be worth the trouble. And Tim was heart-deep enough to make it spectacular.
Maybe it had started with his badness maturing in his boy body. People try to think on great calamity through sifting through its beginnings. He hadn't been a sweet boy, but he'd been a boy, at least, just finding himself. Maybe if he'd channeled his physicality into sports, instead, he would have been someone else. Maybe he'd found a productive outlet. But he found it in other children's faces and bones instead, with his feet and fists. The kind of thing that would have you rather unpopular on the schoolyard. But quiet infamy is useful for males. He threw his little weight around, and that was effective when everyone else had less. King of the sandbox, scourge of recess.
He was just getting used to the taste of power in his mouth when it turned bad. A video from a fucking knowitall. And then that was that. No more quiet. They'd shone a light on his darkness. A video of him pummeling a kid three classes his senior. Hospitalization. The fuck did they know, it was a fair fight, wasn't it? But it looked bad. And it worked out worse.
Or maybe it didn't.
Looking back now, maybe that's all there could have ever been. Jin Hamata sprung like a willow and used his long limbs to run the streets and swat down smaller trees. Paid his way with beatings, and then he got into other shit. He wanted it. He meant to do it forever. But one geezer who saw something in him, traded his small time operation for a slightly expanded one. Campus sales. Some of the students had deep pockets, and the beat was easier. Meant Jin had to enroll. There wasn't enough grease on the board to get him anything fancy, but he didn't mind the schoolwork, after so long. So he got into a loft for himself around the college, and his wares sold like hotcakes, over there.
Life was alright, and the nights were as he remembered; out of this world. Blood on his knuckles and chemicals for his veins, though he mostly stuck to the bottle nowadays.
And then he saw him, one day. The knowitall. Fucking Tim Green. Still had some of that babyfat but he'd grown up too. Freckled fucker with that mop of blond hair. Walking around like he hadn't shared a video that derailed Jin's life like a mile-long break in the tracks.
First instinct was to tear him down. With the reach Jin's gang had, it'd be easy to beat up one kid, even in the daytime, and get away with it. The geezer that backed him was worth a lot, in the organization. And Jin was going to do it, too, had his sleeve rolled up and everything, about to catch up to Tim, and catch Tim up. But he stopped shy of making contact. Tim was fucking happy. No. He was beaming. It grated his enemy so much he stopped, disgusted. And then he saw her.
Some pretty thing with a tan. Good curls on her hair and the same youth they all had in common on her dark skin. Jin tilted his head. Girlfriend? No. They were familiar but not in that way. Thought Tim looked like he wanted that. Her smile suggested that maybe there was something there, but something that hadn't gone all the way. Jin stopped back and lit a cigarette and waited. He didn't know why, but the reason manifested itself slowly in his chest.
That's it. He knew it when Tim said her name. Imama. That's how he'd get Tim. She was beautiful enough to be worth the trouble. And Tim was heart-deep enough to make it spectacular.