People could say what they liked about sight, thought Ellis "Eeecee" Bridges, or smell, or anything else. And sure, the blood he'd seen in The Middle East, the month old roast-pork stench of dead flesh, these things had been harrowing enough. But the screams of the dying children, these were what stayed with him, had fueled his nightmares ever since, even intruded into his relaxed moments when walking alone, lying drunk on the floor, or simply skimming across the water in a yak. Even when astride a quad bike, in the silence of the bush, they had intruded.
It was the same now, he reflected. The dank, acrid smell of the basement's very stones, the stabbing of the eyes when the man who held him prisoner opened the door at the top of the steps a mere crack, the ever ending Stygian darkness. The sight of the roaches, the rats, other nameless, unidentified things, the stench of their dung. But sound - that was what tore at his fragile psyche, destroyed what little strength of endurance he could otherwise muster, threatened to tear his soul out from its place of peace, undermined what little sanity to which he could still cling. But these he could endure, if he had to. He'd faced worse.
But the sound of her screams...
In the army he'd known guys who held a dichotomous attitude toward blood. Let them see someone else's and they were fine, not reacting in the slightest. But tell them it was their own and they would turn white, scream, sometimes even faint. Yet for him, it was the blood of others that had wrecked him, brought tears to his eyes, tears of which all these years later, he was still ashamed.
Yes, those screams. That was what he would shut out if he could. The screams of which he caught only the tip of the auditory iceberg, filtering down the stairs from some room, he supposed, way at the top of the ramshackle, rambling old house. If his hands were not tied behind him, so that he could cover his ears, desperately attempt to muffle their piercing cacophony of terror. The shrill, desperate cries of pain, of fear, or dread. Female screams (yes, guys could scream high pitched too, at times, but you could always tell those of a woman.) His hands ached to be free, not merely to use them to shut out the sound but to take revenge, strangle the life out of the piece of pond slime who would do the thing to a woman that made her react like that.
It was not even chivalry. Not in the sense most would define the word. He would have had no words of courtly, graceful praise for their the victim. Were he free he would save her, merely from a sense of what was correct, how the world should be. No properly ordered universe should suffer such sounds to exist, allow itself to be rent with cries of such sheer distress.
But all this was academic. He could no more come to the aid of she who screamed than he could fly. His wrists and ankles were shackled with chains, and from those shackled another chain held him firmly to the stout stone wall. He was a captive, a victim, a helpless prisoner. An immobile, impotent animal, helpless in a trap.
Or almost...
It would take, he knew, some time yet. Many hours - perhaps days, or even weeks, possibly months. All he had was the small bobby pin, found on the floor, no doubt left by one of the man's previous victims. Picking a lock really needs two pins, and two free hands. Yet, by curving his lithe body, straining his strong wrists to the ultimate limit, putting up with the pain of such an unnatural posture he had persisted. The tumblers had to be arranged just so, the pressure applied at exactly the right place and moment, his wrist twisted with perfect exactitude. He had made, he had registered before losing count, more than a hundred attempts. All had failed.
But there was one mathematical fact to which he clung. Ultimately, it did not matter how many times he failed. Not if, finally, on the two hundredth attempt, or the five hundredth, or the ten thousandth, or the million-and-ninety-seventh - he succeeded. The number of failures was irrelevant. All that mattered was succeeding on the final attempt.
Suddenly, a jolt of hope shot through his mind. Had it yielded?
By fuck and all his demons... was it a mirage. A hallucination caused by desperate hope? A wish-fulfilment dream, like those he'd had lying, explosions all around, of being back home in London, walking through a green park, the soft rain cooling him?
And yet, as he just managed to still the scream of triumph that erupted from his mouth (thought probably, it would have been drowned out by those screams from a quite different source, and of a much different implication coming from above) he knew. The shackle on his wrist had sprung apart.
Quickly, hardly daring to breathe, he began work on the shackled at his ankles. Now, with his hands free, it was quicker work though still by no means easy.
And when he was no longer shackled - who knew what might happen?
It was the same now, he reflected. The dank, acrid smell of the basement's very stones, the stabbing of the eyes when the man who held him prisoner opened the door at the top of the steps a mere crack, the ever ending Stygian darkness. The sight of the roaches, the rats, other nameless, unidentified things, the stench of their dung. But sound - that was what tore at his fragile psyche, destroyed what little strength of endurance he could otherwise muster, threatened to tear his soul out from its place of peace, undermined what little sanity to which he could still cling. But these he could endure, if he had to. He'd faced worse.
But the sound of her screams...
In the army he'd known guys who held a dichotomous attitude toward blood. Let them see someone else's and they were fine, not reacting in the slightest. But tell them it was their own and they would turn white, scream, sometimes even faint. Yet for him, it was the blood of others that had wrecked him, brought tears to his eyes, tears of which all these years later, he was still ashamed.
Yes, those screams. That was what he would shut out if he could. The screams of which he caught only the tip of the auditory iceberg, filtering down the stairs from some room, he supposed, way at the top of the ramshackle, rambling old house. If his hands were not tied behind him, so that he could cover his ears, desperately attempt to muffle their piercing cacophony of terror. The shrill, desperate cries of pain, of fear, or dread. Female screams (yes, guys could scream high pitched too, at times, but you could always tell those of a woman.) His hands ached to be free, not merely to use them to shut out the sound but to take revenge, strangle the life out of the piece of pond slime who would do the thing to a woman that made her react like that.
It was not even chivalry. Not in the sense most would define the word. He would have had no words of courtly, graceful praise for their the victim. Were he free he would save her, merely from a sense of what was correct, how the world should be. No properly ordered universe should suffer such sounds to exist, allow itself to be rent with cries of such sheer distress.
But all this was academic. He could no more come to the aid of she who screamed than he could fly. His wrists and ankles were shackled with chains, and from those shackled another chain held him firmly to the stout stone wall. He was a captive, a victim, a helpless prisoner. An immobile, impotent animal, helpless in a trap.
Or almost...
It would take, he knew, some time yet. Many hours - perhaps days, or even weeks, possibly months. All he had was the small bobby pin, found on the floor, no doubt left by one of the man's previous victims. Picking a lock really needs two pins, and two free hands. Yet, by curving his lithe body, straining his strong wrists to the ultimate limit, putting up with the pain of such an unnatural posture he had persisted. The tumblers had to be arranged just so, the pressure applied at exactly the right place and moment, his wrist twisted with perfect exactitude. He had made, he had registered before losing count, more than a hundred attempts. All had failed.
But there was one mathematical fact to which he clung. Ultimately, it did not matter how many times he failed. Not if, finally, on the two hundredth attempt, or the five hundredth, or the ten thousandth, or the million-and-ninety-seventh - he succeeded. The number of failures was irrelevant. All that mattered was succeeding on the final attempt.
Suddenly, a jolt of hope shot through his mind. Had it yielded?
By fuck and all his demons... was it a mirage. A hallucination caused by desperate hope? A wish-fulfilment dream, like those he'd had lying, explosions all around, of being back home in London, walking through a green park, the soft rain cooling him?
And yet, as he just managed to still the scream of triumph that erupted from his mouth (thought probably, it would have been drowned out by those screams from a quite different source, and of a much different implication coming from above) he knew. The shackle on his wrist had sprung apart.
Quickly, hardly daring to breathe, he began work on the shackled at his ankles. Now, with his hands free, it was quicker work though still by no means easy.
And when he was no longer shackled - who knew what might happen?