You can have everything you want. Everything you dreamed of having. Not bought with blood, but handed to you, on a platter.
But it will all be undone by one little girl.
Life, tragically, had no shortage of ironies.
Since… 'losing' one eye those many years ago, if there was one thing that Silco had learned to prize above all other things it was sight. It was not enough to plan, to scheme, to have dreams of what your city could be, what the world around you could be.
You needed to be able to see it, down to its last detail. You needed to have in your mind each and every brick that lay in a foundation in order to build something more.
It only took one single piece, knocked out of the right place, to cause even the most glorious of towers to come crumbling down upon themselves to collapse into a pile of rubble. Everything needed to be meticulously crafted, and to do that one had to see with clarity where everything lay, where things might come from, to protect against what might destroy what you had built.
Yet despite it all, he had lost his sight. Somewhere amidst it all he had lost sight of the Undercity and all of its moving pieces. It was a weakness that those who lived in the undercity couldn't afford. A weakness that had cost Vander everything, and yet here he was, making the same mistake that had cost so many their lives in the past.
He could feel it unraveling, all of those plans that he had meticulously laid out.
Jayce, for all of his idiocy, truly was the golden boy of legend. Not because of his looks that caught the eyes of the women around him. Not because of his intelligence, which had managed to widen the gap of disparity between Piltover and the Undercity all that much further, to the point where they were truly now different lands between them.
No, it was the sheer dumb luck that the boy seemed to have. That one should be so blessed by the gods to stumble into everything that they needed in order to get what they want. Silco should have had him begging at his mercy… he was a pup playing a game that even an old scarred hound might have struggled at… yet none of it mattered because in his blind luck he managed to hit upon it.
He struck at the one thing that Silco could not give him. No, it was the one thing that Silco would not give him and that was the most maddening piece of it all. He could have given her up, he should have given her up. What was the price of a single life when weighed against the dreams of an entire nation? Could any man truly be looked down upon for sacrificing the life of one girl when it meant gaining all of that?
Except that… it was not a girl. Not just a girl.
From the moment that she'd come to him, collapsed in his arms… she had become… something more.
He'd lied to himself at first about it. He'd told himself that she could be an asset, that she could be something that might unify the undercity after Vander's passing. He had taken the life of one of the Undercity's most beloved figures, after all, a man who had meant so much to so many, what better show of goodwill would there be but to raise the man's daughter in his stead?
Yet, despite the statue that was erected in his honor, the effigy looking thoughtfully out over the streets of that city, the people were deliriously eager to move on with their lives rather than to dwell in the past of what had been. They abandoned Vander with the same gusto with which they embraced Shimmer, and while Silco might have wanted to attribute one to the numbing affects of the other, the truth was that the people just wanted to move past what had happened, and forget.
Denied the ability to embrace the lie that she was a ward of the city, he then convinced himself that she was merely a useful tool, something to be molded and crafted in his own image. After all, was that not the true drive behind anyone who dared to tempt the fates and sire a child. Was it not all, when truth brought forth from lies, simply the product of one's own vanity? To create something that was like oneself, that would outlive oneself, and thus embrace the lie that a legacy that would live beyond one's own years was somehow released upon the world?
And so he set forth to making her his heir, to instill her with his legacy. He trained her. He pushed her in ways that she had never been pushed before. Instead of babying her like Vander had, treating her as if she were a helpless thing that had no future for herself beyond marriage to a topsider or serving as a clumsy bar mistress to the unruly denizens of the Undercity, Silco sought to mold her into something beyond that.
He took her anger, and where Vander might have tried to smother it, Silco taught her to channel it, to embrace it the way that he had, and to make it into something more. He taught her to be vicious when she had to be, to stop thinking of the world in terms of what others thought of her, or the morals that others tried to impose upon her. Instead he taught her the true lessons of the world, that had taken him years to unlock.
There were only two moralities in the world, two rules upon which the entirety of what their existence hinged. They were the foundation upon which everything else rested, and upon which if one could not rely, then the world would truly descend into madness.
Cunningness, and Loyalty.
They were two forces, at odds with one another, yet balanced against one another as well. Through cunning, the sheer desire and force of will to grab power, to wield it, no matter the cost. It trumped natural aptitude, intelligence, or strength. If anything, to have power without the will to get more of it made you complacent, soft… vulnerable the way that Vander had been. No, one needed to always be willing to grab at the power that they could in order to maintain their hold upon what was theirs, lest it be wrested from them.
Yet at the same time, there was only so much power that a single man could wield. Despite what the cocky, upstart youth told themselves, no man was a god. It was a trap that he himself once had fallen into, during his clashes with the topsiders during the riots many years ago. He had convinced himself that he was untouchable, that his actions would make him revered by those around him…
It was a lesson that Vander had taught to him, so long ago.
His baptism.
No man was a god. No man stood alone. It was in the unity to a cause that someone remained. It could be bought temporarily, for a price, but to truly have it be unshakeable it had to be forged, one link at a time, like a great chain between two peoples. Loyalty was not something that could be diminished, or taken for granted. It was something that had to be demanded, and yet something that had to be upheld as well, it was more important, even than the drive to be cunning.
Some of the lessons she took well to, and yet most of them she did not. And in her failures, it became clear to Silco that it was not, in fact, some desire to pass his legacy into the future that drove him either. She did not perfectly mimic the lessons he had laid upon her, in fact, a great many she simply turned her nose up at, or had the audacity to forget, even when he repeated them over and over again before her.
No, she would not be his perfect prodigy, his legacy, or anything else. She did not have a value… she did not have a purpose… there was nothing about her that could be used to further his aims in any meaningful way… she should have been just a girl. And yet she was not.
…she was his daughter.
It was a simple enough word to say, to conceive of. Silco had seen many men and women with their daughters. He had seen many men and women lose their daughters. It was a word that he'd thought he understood before Jinx. Yet he did not have the first beginnings of a clue of the true weight of that word, and how much that it meant.
It was something profound and meaningful… and yet it had made him blind to so many things… to the world around him, to what might have been lurking there in the shadows as he went before the statue of Vander, and complained to the only person that he could have. He should have been off to make the delivery of shimmer that he had tucked into his inner pocket… preparing his forces for the backlash that was to come when he rejected Piltover's offer. He should have been keeping up appearances. Making himself look strong, domineering, flawless.
Yet he was here, with the last remnants of Vander.
Only in the conversations with a man long gone could he truly allow his guard to come down…
Yet he was not alone. He was blind.
Life's… little ironies.
It was a small mercy that he'd imbibed the alcohol that he had given the hard knock that his assailant had given him, and he felt himself fumble for a knife as he grabbed at their small form, spinning on them even as the world kept spinning with the motion, swirling around violently like a carousel that just could not be stopped.
The knife came up and yet… it was his daughters face that was before him, staring at him amidst a whirling world.
There was a moment, a hint of doubt as he wondered if it might be some trick of the mind, a last vision that was flashing before his eyes due to the concussion. Yet it was the way that she looked at him that revealed the truth. Never before had she stared at him with such darkness, or venom. It was a look she'd only reserved for her victims… for her enemies.
"J-Jinx?" he managed to stutter through slurred words as black spots started to fill his vision. "…wait…"
Darkness. Pain.
Neither sensation was particularly foreign to Silco. He had lived a long enough life in the undercity that he knew both of them like old friends. Similarly, the nausea that came with regaining consciousness due to a head wound, that too was not completely unfamiliar to him.
Somewhere far away he could sense it, the sensation of light, of things starting to come into focus.
"What?" he attempted to mutter, and yet it was muffled, stifled by something that was in his way. He couldn't speak… a gag. Yes, someone had pushed a gag into his mouth and had fastened it tight in the proper way, so that it couldn't be shaken loose. Not that he wanted to shake his head much with the way that it was spinning. If anything his stomach wanted to empty itself… but with the gag in place that wouldn't be possible either.
Some of that nausea, doubtlessly, was caused by what was there all around them. Food, laid out long enough ago that it had rotted and the vermin of the undercity had set upon it, lay before them. He had half expected it to be scattered and yet it was laid out upon nice little plates, organized in the mimicry of a tea party that was being held at a table which he sat at the head of… or rather, one of the heads of… along with the pink haired girl that should have died long ago.
"He took everything from us…" his daughter said, an almost mournful tone to her voice, "right here he stabbed Vander in the back… just like he planned to with me. All the time saying you abandoned me when he knew the truth."
"No…" Silco growled beneath the muzzle that she put on him, the words no more than a muffled blur of sound.
"Liar," his daughter spat in response, having clearly gotten enough of his muffled word to recognize it. But then she turned towards the interloper, towards the girl set about to ruin everything, "we're missing someone!"
It occurred to him then, through fogged, muddled thoughts that this entire display was not for him. This was not his daughter crying out to him for some form of help. This was her trying to reach out to her sister. To Vi. The pink haired girl was not gagged as he was… she was the one that his daughter wanted to speak to, not him.
"Jinx," he tried to plead, in an attempt to get her attention, but his daughter was moving on with her show, coming up holding a platter, wielding a couple of hextech power gauntlets on her arms in order to do so, implying that what she was carrying was particularly heavy.
She dropped the dingy silver platter down on the table without much care for the contents, and in the grime covered metal, for the first time Silco could see himself, hair somewhat disheveled, eyes glazed. He hardly looked like a man he might have recognized, in truth. Instead, he looked like the weak shadow of the man he once had been. A hostage, a pawn. An extra on the stage in what was doubtlessly the most important scene…
… he needed to regain control.
"I paid your girlfriend a visit this morning," his daughter said as she touched the top of the platter.
Silco could see the fear blossom on Vi's face when the enforcer was mentioned. His daughter's jealousy of the enforcer had been… warranted, it seemed. Whatever this other girl was, she was clearly somewhat important to Vi. He could see the fear there creeping upon her face as the pink haired girl managed to ask. "What… what did you do?"
"I made her a snack," his daughter replied, making a show of the way that she slowly twisted and started to lift the platter. Silco himself remained transfixed upon it, wondering what could warrant the slow reveal of what lay beneath.
He could hear Vi fidget and squirm for the reveal, which it seemed was less about the contents beneath and more about panicking her sister. His daughter wanted to prove that she was in control here… that she held power over all of them.
"Sheesh," the girl said with a roll of her eyes. "I'm not THAT crazy."
Tossing the platter top to the side she came out to wheel out the last guest to her party… the enforcer, similarly gagged.
"Powder! Leave her out of this," Vi pleaded, and despite the fact that she had clearly heard it, his daughter made no indication to that effect.
"Now… where should I sit?" his daughter asked, looking pointedly at a pair of chairs, one which had the name "Powder" prominently written upon it, while the other had "Jinx" written on it. "That's, your choice, really…"
She pressed something to Vi's hand that Silco couldn't see, but judging by the sound it was a weapon of some kind. He could also see a spark of fear in the young girl's eyes when she glanced down at it.
"Make her go away, please," his daughter said, a hint of pleading to her tone, "send her on her way and… and you can have Powder back."
Silco could see it unraveling before his eyes, and yet he was helpless to stop it. His daughter did not realize the eventual outcome of this. She wanted something that once was hers a long time ago. She wanted a childhood that she had lost, a sister that had turned her back on her. But she couldn't have any of those things, no matter how much she longed to have them back.
The ugly truth of why he'd sent Vi away… why he'd been willing to have her killed, was not because he had sought out to separate her from her sister. It was not because he had wanted to cause her that pain…
It was because Vi would never understand. Silco had realized it that day when the girl had told him what had happened. To Vi, she would always be a monster. Vi might pretend, she might look the other way and try to forget what had once been done… but in that moment whatever there was between them had died in a way that could never be brought back. No amount of 'healing' would take away the pain of having had her sister blow up her friends.
No kind words would take back the terrible things her sister had told her that day out of anguish.
Like Vander and Silco himself, a wedge had been driven between them both that day, a divide that could never be mended. His daughter might have dreamed of a world in which all could be forgiven, and yet… that was not this world. You could not forgive someone's faults away… you could only love them… despite those faults. And as horrible as it was, Vi just did not love her that much.
"I can't…" Vi admitted, presented with thought of killing her girlfriend. Of course she couldn't. She'd chosen where her loyalties lay.
His daughter moved to do what needed to be done herself… what she thought needed to be done herself. Silco dared not move while it happened. Where before he wanted to struggle, now he stood stock still. If his daughter killed the enforcer then… it would end this farce once and for all.
"No! Powder, listen, we… we can just go. We can leave and never come back." Vi pleaded with honeyed words as his daughter held the gun to the side of the enforcers head. Given the size of it, a single shot would have been enough to end the life of the enforcer. Vi knew it, and would say anything in order to prevent it. And it was working.
"Where… would we go?" his daughter asked, seeming to consider what was being offered. It was only for a moment, though. He could see the pain on her face as the stress started to trigger one of her episodes. "No no no, she's not saying that…" his daughter said, aiming the gun at one of her dolls.
"It's true," Vi said, "we'll put this behind us, you'll never have to see him again, Powder…"
Despite himself, Silco could feel something swell within him at those words. Rage… like a heated iron inside of his chest. This… interloper thought that she could tear apart his family? Thought that she could take his daughter from him?
He would see his dreams burn in order to keep her safe. There was no way he would let her sister trick her away from her home and leave her helpless.
"She's lying…" he muttered, trying to say something to his daughter, who paused, before seeming to consider.
"What do you have to say about that?" she finally said, moving to undo his gag at last.
He should have been calm, he should have been collected and yet he could still feel the white hot pang in his chest stirring like a beast. "Her name is Jinx!" He spat out at Vi, his eye narrowing at her with a dark rage. The audacity that she would lie to his daughter to lure her from this place.
"She's lying," he said again, looking at Jinx this time, "You'll be with her a day before she realizes you aren't that girl anymore and turns her back on you."
He could see the words killed her, and yet, they were undoubtedly the truth. No matter what lies Vi wanted to spin, both Silco and her knew the truth. She couldn't accept his daughter. Not for who she was now. She wanted the perfect, manipulatable little girl that she'd left behind years ago. She loved a memory… not the girl before her right now.
"You aren't lying… you wouldn't lie to me, not again," his daughter said, clearly struggling with the subject.
"I'm not lying. I'm on your side, I… I promise," Vi lied. It was as plain as the color of her hair that she was telling his daughter whatever she needed to hear in order to be let go.
Without warning his daughter shot one of her puppets and growled at it. "Shut up! We're talking." She was definitely having another episode… he needed to get control of the situation. He needed to show her just how much she was worth to him.
"The topsiders, they offered me everything," he said, "Independence, a seat at the table… all in return for you," he said, staring at her. He needed to show her what true acceptance was. Not for the girl she had been but for the girl that she was. "They can all burn! Everyone betrays us, Jinx. Vander, her. They will never understand… it's only us."
"You're my daughter," he whispered as his eyes stared into hers, "I'll never forsake you."
He could see it there… a hint, a moment of realization there in her eyes. For a moment he dared to hope that he was getting through to her, until he heard the sound of machinery behind her.
"Drop the gun!" the enforcer said.
Staring at the table it wasn't hard to put the pieces together. His daughter had shattered a glass with her shot earlier… a shard of it must have rolled close enough to be within her grasp, and she'd gotten up and gotten the gun when they were talking.
Everything in Silco's being wanted to grab his daughter and pull her behind him, put himself between the enforcer and her, and yet he couldn't move, he couldn't struggle even to get free from these bonds.
"No, please…" Vi whispered, clearly begging for her girlfriend's life.
His daughter growled, raised her pistol, but the enforcer was faster, shooting beside her a warning shot. Silco could feel his heart seize in his chest. There wouldn't be another warning shot. The enforcer was practically looking for an excuse.
"Drop the gun," the dark haired girl growled.
"Wait… she's my sister!" Vi said.
This… surprised him. Perhaps he had misjudged her. Perhaps she was not willing to serve up his daughter on a silver platter. But at the same time, she wouldn't accept her for who she was. What she wanted was something that could never be realized… a recipe for disaster, and she couldn't see it.
"She's too far gone, Vi," The enforcer growled, working herself up to the kill shot.
But Silco had trained her too well. The enforcer hesitated, and his daughter saw it, spun out of the way of the shot, and disarmed her in a smooth motion. The enforcer crumbled, and his daughter stood over the enforcers body, panting.
"You see?" he said to her, "now finish it."
"No!" Vi cried. She would do whatever it took to save her lover, spin whatever lies she had to in order to convince his daughter that she would have a better life without him. "Dammit Powder! Wake up! Remember who you are! I know you remember."
He wanted to scream at his daughter as well, to remind her that this was who she was and yet… he could see it there. He could see her body start to crumble in on itself. He could see her start to cower start to curl up into the scared girl that she once was. The minor episode was turning into something major.
"Picture Milo… Claggor… Vander!" Vi continued, not caring as his daughter gripped her head in pain. The damned red haired girl was willing to cause her to breakdown if it meant getting what she wanted.
"No! Don't listen to her!" Silco bellowed. The rage was starting to fill him. He could see her, in pain… but there wasn't a thing he could do to stop it. He pulled at the restraints but they barely budged. He could barely move his arms as tied as they were.
"Mom… Me!" Vi kept going. Kept twisting that knife into her. His daughter was on the ground, gripping her head, whimpering in pain. He had to stop her.
He could hear her… his daughter, crying out in pain… and… the instincts took over. The binds that held him were firm and yet he managed to wrap one fingertip around the handle of the gun and jerk it towards himself.
Terrible, clumsy fingers wrapped around it, adrenaline mixing with the need, the terrible need to stop the crimson haired girl from hurting his daughter any more than she was. He jerked himself up, feeling the restraints tug into his frame as he tried to steady himself for a shot.
He was not a marksman… knives were a tool he was far more familiar with… but there were no other options. He just had to steady himself enough… he would not get a second chance to save her…
Somewhere Jinx screamed, and the loud scream of a machine wheel whirring filled the room as something rapidly tore through the night.
It happened so fast, he didn't even feel it at first… the bullet that would kill him. One moment he was near standing and the next, his strength had left him, like an elastic band stretched too far that had suddenly snapped.
Wetness bloomed across his chest and for a moment the older man had the amusing pang of annoyance that his daughter had shattered the vials of shimmer there, costing him a small fortune… but no, no, vials of shimmer couldn't have stopped…
Strength began to drain from his legs, and from the rest of him slowly as he sagged in the chair, the motion of it causing him to slowly drift in it. Was he spinning, or was it the world? Did any of it really matter any longer?
Somewhere, through the whirring of the world, he could hear his daughter cry out in sadness, along with distant footsteps. And then, suddenly, she was there before him. His beautiful girl, staring at him, her warm hands caressing his face. When had her skin become so warm? Or was it just that he was becoming cold now?
He could see the pain there, and it hurt worse than any injury, even a bullet to the chest, that agony across her features.
Silco had always known that this is the way that he would wind up going in the end. It was an eventuality that he had accepted after his violent baptism at Vander's hands so long ago.
Dying old, warm in one's bed was the stuff for men who had lived past their prime, the domain of topsiders who could afford to grow fat and complacent. The undercity would not allow for such… it would consume any who no longer had the will to struggle in order to survive. No, he would die as violently as Vander had… he had known that much for a long, long time.
Yet, despite having told her that, he could see that look of pain on her face, of confusion. She was going to lose him and she didn't know why. She did not know that this was inevitable. He could hear her babbling, senseless words of apology and in those eyes he saw the same, terrified girl that had run to him all those years ago and thrown herself into his arms.
She was looking at him, expectantly, waiting for him to rebuke her. To demand angrily to know why she had done what she had done. To tell her that she was a failure… a mistake… a Jinx.
"I never would have given you to them, not for anything," he whispered. More than anything, he needed her to know that. To know that what she had heard were the complaints of a man suppressed by the world around him that tried to tear from him that which was most important, to tempt him with an offer of everything that he once had thought he could want…
All at the cost of the only thing he did.
She tried to smile in front of him, and yet he could still see it there, that haunted look that was bracing to be screamed at, to be issued a rebuke the way that Vi or Vander might have. She would find no such venom here.
"Don't cry," he whispered to her, looking into her eyes. He could see the edges of his vision beginning to haze, and grow dark, tiny flecks of blackness filling his vision. Not long now. Only a breath to leave her with.
"You're perfect," he said.
And then everything… faded.
Life seeping from him… mind lost to the cloud of the void, he had no comprehension of what was happening around him. His daughter moving to take one last, desperate act against a world that had always hated her for what she was. The enforcer stirring, releasing Vi from her bonds and dragging her to witness the carnage that would follow.
… the steady drip… drip… drip… of several vials of shimmer, tucked into his vest that had shattered, leaking into the open hole in his chest.
Alone there… in the darkness, the body that had been left, like so much uneaten food twitched…
A spasm at first. Beneath him the chair creaked with the movement, and spun slightly.
Light returned, briefly, to his one good eye, the iris twitching slightly, the muscle fibers there contracting somewhat, focusing briefly before relaxing. Then, slowly the eye began to twitch, to dart, to take in it's surroundings.
It was instinctual rather than thought out, the mindless processing of data that was being fed to it, images without real thoughts behind them. Colors without meanings. Dark browns, blacks, chestnuts, pale skin and Shimmer…
No, Shimmer was not a color, it was a thing, and yet he recognized it, that violet hue, unmistakable color winding it's way along the pale color of flesh disappearing into the crimson of sleeves. It wound it's way like water, flowing, spreading from unseen mountaintops towards a sea of smaller rivers and creeks there.
Yet it was not water, it was something else. Lava… born of the earth. Burning, searing, raging… filling him with pain… anger… and rage.
Beneath the purple hue of the Shimmer coursing through him the pale skin turned paler still, white like ash as it stretched and contorted around the source of life coursing through it.
Another spasm wracked him, and this time it was greeted with a loud creak and then a snap, splinters of a now broken chair arm that he'd been tied to falling slowly to the ground as his body began to shake, and twist.
Muscles that had not been moved in what felt like an eternity attempted to, and were held back. The inability to flex only caused irritation along with another sensation that was starting to fill everything that he was, pouring into him like a cup being filled.
Ah yes… pain. That's what this sensation was.
Familiar and yet not, he felt it dance along his skin like sparks as he twitched, and thrashed. The chair pitched one way then the next and then clattered to the floor with him still in it as he curled into a fetal position, to hide from the pain…
Yet there was no escape from the agony, the burning, the sensation of cells warping and burning and mutating. Twisting what he was… into something else.
His mouth opened then, this thing upon the ground, spasming and tightening into a ball as it tried to escape the torment until finally it could take no more, and burst free.
Splinters shattering across the dingy room, ropes hanging from his wrists, this thing that was both Silco and not reared back and let forth the cry of its birth… sounding almost like the bellow of a man until the twisted muscles and power within it twisted it's howl into something inhuman… a cold, violent challenge to the world that had created it… that tormented it.
Nerves ablaze, the mindless creature slammed its fists into the table before it hard enough to smash it in twain, sending plates and armaments alike scattering into the distance, glass shattering and breaking in its wake, shards rupturing into its arms with the motion.
The sudden sting of this unknown attack brought forth another roar and an additional fit of rage, its purple laced hands gripping half the remains of the table as if it were a child's toy, then threw it against the nearest wall, his chest heaving not with the effort of such work but with the emotion that roiled beneath in a cauldron of smoldering emotion.
The creature's mouth opened, poised to bellow once more as it paused then, eyeing the silver platter that had been cast aside amidst a sea of scattered candles. It bore a grim countenance of a man that the creature should have recognized, familiar and worn, and yet he didn't. There were pieces there… the drawn taught lines around a mutilated eye… the wrinkles of age worn by cigar smoke and alcohol…
Yet the familiar countenance had been shattered there, splintered by a web of purple lines that can across his eyes and down his neck, the left eye which had once been dark now glowed a violent, purple hue to match, bulged and angry as if to be a beacon to the emotions he barely contained within.
It was a hideous, horrific reflection and yet when the thing in the platter reached up to touch its face… the creature could feel something against its own… the hand was its own… the reflection was its own.
Spittle and saliva oozed from its mouth, as it stared at that reflection, and then howled in shame and fear and… more anger. The creature slammed the platter into the ground and slammed one fist then the next into the platter until its reflection was as dented and warped as the creatures was compared with what it once had been.
It was then that it heard the footsteps behind it, and straightened. Ears that once were keen had been sharpened by the pain running through its veins now, and it could hear even as the breath was inhaled sharply by the two creatures behind it as it turned to look upon the two women, one with pink hair, and one with a dark hued blue.
The creature recognized them even less than it did itself, and yet there was something instantaneous that struck it the moment that it laid eyes upon them… a violence that dwarfed even the rage with which it had come into being… indescribable and merciless that boiled in its stomach and surged forth as another, chilling inhuman bellow as it roared and began to charge them, not running as a man might, but instead some sort of simian, hunched over as it lurched on hands and feet, yet with startling speed that more than matched what the fastest man in the undercity could have hoped to manage.