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if you want to comment on something i write or post,
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[aeline]

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[aeline]

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☆ = i am craving this _ | _ ♔ = taken


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; You’re dating one of my gang members, but I’m the boss and I know how to please you better.
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I will play a gang member & you will be playing the gang leader ]

002 ; Your dad is my biggest enemy in the crime world and you’re a straight-up rebel, so to piss him off you decide to sleep with me and wow, it was fucking amazing, but now your dad is out to kill me so what now.
[ I will play a criminal/hacker/etc & you will be playing a crime lord (the father or one of his associates) ]

003 ; You receive a gift card for a luxurious massage for your birthday, but end up getting a lot more than a massage.
[ I will play the birthday girl & you will be playing the one "massaging" her ]

004 ; You think I am someone else, but you're super hot so I just play along, at least until I find out you want me dead.
[ I will play a random girl & you will be playing a gang member/criminal/etc ]

005 ; You're a powerful demon in a world where humans are outnumbered and hiding. You catch me on one of your hunts and I am now your pet/slave who you show off to all your demon friends.
[ I will play the human & you will be playing the demon ]

006 ; I broke into your mansion to prove to my friends that I could, but now you think I'm there to kill you.
[ I will play the intruder & you will be playing the owner of the mansion ]

007 ; You are my mom's new boyfriend, but you're only seeing her so you can take advantage of me.
[ I will play the daughter & you will be playing my mother's boyfriend ]

008 ; I work as a waitress in an exclusive club and you are a customer who tends to get everything he wants.
[ I will play the waitress & you will be playing the customer ]

009 ; I was supposed to send a picture to my boyfriend of my new underwear but I sent it to my boss instead and now you use it to blackmail me.
[ I will play the girlfriend & you will be playing the boss ]

010 ; You overheard something you shouldn't have and now I have to make sure you keep your mouth shut.
[ I will play the girl who overheard something & you will be playing the one who has to convince me to remain silent ]

011 ; I thought you were my boyfriend's friend, so I invited you in, but it turns out you were his enemy and now you're using me to get to him.
[ I will play the girlfriend & you will be playing my boyfriend's enemy ]

012 ; Your twin really pissed someone off and now they're interrogating you but you have no idea what they're talking about.
[ I will play the innocent twin & you will be playing the interrogator ]

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More plot bunnies will come.

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[aeline]

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𝐹 𝒶 𝓋 𝑜 𝓇 𝒾 𝓉 𝑒 𝓈

♡ dark themes ♡ age gaps ♡ discipline ♡ conflicts ♡ humiliation ♡ choking / breathplay ♡ blackmail
♡ punishment ♡ manipulation ♡ spanking ♡ branding ♡ butt plugs ♡ knifeplay ♡ bloodplay ♡ arguments
♡ restrains ♡ collar & leash ♡ fear ♡ non / dub con ♡ power play ♡ blindfolds ♡ gags ♡ fingers in mouth
♡ anal training ♡ hair pulling ♡ corruption ♡ power play ♡ age gaps ♡ threats ♡ torture ♡ violence
♡ abuse ♡ teasing ♡ pleasure / orgasm control


𝐻 𝒶 𝓇 𝒹 ____ 𝒩 𝑜 ' 𝓈

fluff ____ vanilla ____ scat ____ romance


I am open to pretty much anything, but if you have concerns, just shoot me a message.
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[aeline]

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I heard this song earlier this year & it brought me to tears. The lyrics are so deep & dark, so beautiful yet so fucking accurate & the English translation doesn't even do it justice.
This song changed my perspective on life. It made me realize that I should be grateful for the life I'm currently living & everyone in it. That I should enjoy every second of every day.
I know there are many people out there who have it so much worse than me & that they're really struggling. And it pains me to know that many of these people are too afraid to ask for help.
It's so unfair. Especially now during the pandemic.... I hope & wish that this world will become a better place. If not tomorrow then someday ♡

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Jeg vil ikke leve / Tusen Tårer
B Y _ T I X

I don’t see where this ends
My heart is empty and keeps burning
I fold my hands and cry
Because I can’t take this anymore
So what now? I’m drinking alone
I don’t want to live but I don’t want to die
So what now? Lying here alone
I don’t want to live but I don’t want to die
And none of my friends notice something is wrong, just me
So what now? Lying here alone
I don’t want to live

I want to crash my car
My house can burn down
Turn off the lights because this doesn’t feel like home
I want to crash my car
My house can burn down
I throw myself out of heaven
And into the flames for her
Crying my eyes out
Crying my eyes out

Hey you, who sits at home watching this
Who feels your heart is burning
But you’re too afraid to say so
I have been there, I have lived through it

It feels like the world is in flames no one can put out

My plan was to make it big and make a lot of money
But I’ve been wondering if this life is worth living anymore
Twenty thousand eyes follow me on stage
Yet no one understands how I can feel so alone

But I will get out of this darkness
I am going to find the one who wants me
For who I am and who will accept all of my flaws
But it’s hard to find the way on my own
Why does it always have to be so hard to ask for help?

So what now? I’m drinking alone
I don’t want to live but I don’t want to die
So what now? Lying here alone
I don’t want to live but I don’t want to die
And none of my friends notice something is wrong, just me
So what now? Lying here alone
I don’t want to live

I want to crash my car
My house can burn down
Turn off the lights because this doesn’t feel like home
I want to crash my car
My house can burn down
I throw myself out of heaven
And into the flames for her
Crying my eyes out
Crying my eyes out

 

[aeline]

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𝒜 𝓁𝑒𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓉𝓃𝑒𝓇𝓈

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r e a d

You might see me online a lot and wonder why I haven't replied yet.
I don't have one answer, I have many. Sometimes I check my phone,
and I do not reply to messages from my phone. Other times I am on
my laptop but I do not have enough time to sit down and finish your
reply, so instead, I wait. It also happens that I am not in the right mood
to write or my head is not in the right place for our setting. Sometimes
I have other replies I need to finish before I can start on yours.

But don't worry, you will get your reply - Eventually. You might need to
wait a few days, you might need to wait for a week. Sometimes even
longer. Although I try to reply at least once a week, there will come
times when I need a few more days. Should I need another week, or
more, I will let you know about the delay.

Please do not ask me when I will reply. I will not be able to answer.
And if I do, I'm often mistaken and I will end up apologizing, feeling
even worse for replying a little late. Just remember that this is a hobby,
and no one is forcing you to roleplay with anybody. We do this because
we want to, and we do not really owe our partners anything. You do not
owe me an explanation if you reply "late" nor do I need an explanation
if you need to drop our roleplay. Am I too slow? Is it too boring? Don't
worry, you don't need to tell me, unless you want to try to save the rp.

I do not start roleplays I won't enjoy, so if I am roleplaying with you, I
like our roleplay and I want to keep writing with you! The time I spend
replying does not determine how much I am enjoying our roleplay.

It just means that my real life comes first and writing comes second.
And then it all depends if I'm in the mood, have time or am motivated.

Thank you for being patient!
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[aeline]

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r e a d

I messaged some partners today & it was no fun. I hate letting partners down.
In fact, I hate letting people down in general. At the same time, I hate feeling
stressed out and burnt out. And that is exactly what I'm feeling when I have a
full inbox with unanswered roleplays. I feel bad. The guilt eats me up. I hate it.
I'm sorry it had to come to this, but I swear it was the only way I don't end up
in the gutter. I like roleplaying. I enjoy writing. It's a hobby, not a chore. I want
to keep it that way. I will still be active & online, but I won't be roleplaying as
much as I've done the previous months.

Replies will come late & probably very inconsistently. Please be patient.

Hopefully, this will only be for a short period. Specifically, during the summer.
I have a lot of work this summer. I work days, I work evenings, I work weekends.
The bottom line is, I work a lot. All summer. From this week till mid-August. That
will not change. But when September comes, I'll go back to working 10 hours a
week or so. Then, I'll have more time to write!

I am sorry it had to come to this. I hope you can all understand.

Thank you!
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[aeline]

Just wanted to show you what I do when I'm bored and ill. And that I have a thing for pinks and galaxies at the moment.

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