Starcaller
Planetoid
- Joined
- Oct 22, 2017
First breath of the morning seemed to be the most difficult yet, he found, that moment in time, trapped between dream and reality, the moment when the two different worlds broke apart from one another, disentangled. It felt like coming back to the surface after a long dive to the bottom of the ocean, so far down and so long that he could feel his lungs hurting in need of air; that first breath caused so much more pain than good. The remnants of dreams were slowly fading from existence, disappearing completely once his eyes opened, washed over by brilliant, white light that invaded his brain, causing discomfort and making him close his eyes again for the time being. How was it that each time, he woke up facing the window? It was strange, it was as if his sleeping-self sought that, tried to find a way to chase away dreams that didn't feel like they belonged to him. As nights went by, it seemed that these dreams became more prevalent and more complex, and at some points they blended in with the reality thereafter so well that they were causing him to be confused. And yet, there was something not quite right with these dreams, almost as if they belonged to someone else entirely; he knew he'd glimpsed his own arms in one, and they were adorned with tattoos, both, tattoos which he didn't have. Perhaps, he thought, perhaps it was his imagination playing with him.
Shyly, he fluttered his eyelids opened again, squinting, gradually letting the particles of light filter through. If only it had been a more benevolent, pleasant kind of light. This felt almost as bad as being made to stare at a lightbulb from up close. The outlines of the tall buildings just across from his apartment block became shadows in the bright glow, and through the spaces between them he could get a glimpse of the city proper; after all, this was the periphery. He brought his hand up to his eyes and gazed at it against the light, almost as if he was curious about it. He moved his index finger, following the movement with a curiosity that was more befit of a child than a grown man. His middle finger was next, and then all, the open hand closing into a fist, then opening again as if to check for something. It was, more than anything, a deep state of contemplation, a reason for him to spend a little more time in bed.
Thoughts swarmed his mind again, questions he'd asked himself a million times over in the past month and a half. Each new day, they became more elaborate the more indepth he was thinking about all this. About that day when he'd woken up at that hospital, confused as to where he was and, more importantly, who he was. About being told that no one knew a thing about him, that as far as the system was concerned, he did not exist and about how he apparently suffered from a rare form of amnesia. And here he was now, given a new identity, a new life, and a new home.
Although in all fairness, one could hardly call "boxes" homes.
In 2050, few could afford the luxury of having extended living quarters, apartments, condos, and even fewer, houses. And those on the lower end of the spectrum? For them, there was an entire area surrounding the city dedicated to tall blocks of small, claustrophobic living quarters called boxes. Small rooms, barely enough for one person to move in, consisting of a main room with a kitchenette and a bed, and a very small bathroom with just a toilet, a small sink and a shower cabin for one person, all just barely enough to fulfill the basic needs. Mighty uncomfortable, but better than sleeping with no roof over your head, or, in his case, in a medical facility. This was preferable to either option.
He pushed himself up on an elbow to better gaze out the window his bed was right next to, a broader view to the world from his little box. One more day of braving it, and today, of all days, today should be a rather interesting day. A few more moments of gazing out the window were enough before he at at last pushed himself into a sitting position, turning around and letting his legs dangle off the edge of the bed until feet finally planted against the floor. He let out a yawn and scratched the back of his head, blinking a few more times to drive any sign of the sleep away.
"Coffee." He ordered, groggily, and right away a small coffee maker on the kitchenette's counter turned on, beginning to prepare the drink. He rubbed his eyes and finally stood up, dragging his feet along to the bathroom.
With morning routine out of the way, he began preparing to leave the house. He sat himself down to drink his coffee, gazing out the window contemplatively as he did so. The more he thought about it, the more this day painted itself out to be a strange one; after all, he was going to visit the grave of a man he never knew. Yet for whatever reason, he felt some sort of connection. Perhaps they knew each other before all this, and maybe he could've been the key to learning who he really was. Too late, however, that man had been dead for more than a year. What was visiting his grave going to accomplish? He didn't know, but he felt that he had to.
With the mid-autumn weather, he had to grab a coat before heading outside, coat which he pulled onto himself as he headed for the elevator. Did all box blocks feel so empty? Because his sure did, even in spite of the fact that it was packed down to the last man, and in spite of that, it was quiet as a graveyard, and even lonelier than that. Come to think of it, not once had he even seen any of his neighbors, not from up close, anyway. Out in the streets wasn't any better, not in this part of town, not in this grey concrete jungle with so little in terms of diversity. All blocks were built all the same, symmetrical, nothing but copies of each other, there was a severe lack of the neons and flashy lights that stole one's eye in the city's center, nothing to even look at, really; life on the edge of the city didn't get more interesting than that.
The train station wasn't much more interesting, either, populated by only a few street punks and a couple of commuters, but such was life here, and he had gotten used to it. The train that arrived was a shocking splash of color, a stark contrast, almost as if arriving from another world entirely. Truth was, really, that edge and city center were two different worlds. And seeing as the train was nearly full of people coming from the better world, it made him feel like an outsider. All through the ride, he sat quietly in a more secluded area, gazing out the window as he continued to sift through his mind. All the while, the train's rails slowly ascended to a position from where they were far off the ground, and thus, the train's windows allowed a far broader view of the cityscape. It was quite magnificent, to say the least, especially thinking about the fact that this all was man-made. But for a man who didn't know all that much, he knew well enough that this was just a facade, and that right down below them was a pit of angry vipers. Too many people in this city seemed to be so discontent with their lives and blaming their shortcomings on others that it was surprising that the crime statistics weren't even higher than this.
An hour later, he was taking a stroll through the long corridors of memorial plaques, eyes scanning each and every one for one name: Matthew B. Walsh. This could have very well taken days, he realized, as there were countless of plaques as far as the eye could see. How many people were even interred here? By the looks of it, it could easily compete with the city's living population, and the numbers had only been bolstered in recent years what with civil unrest as well as unabated gang wars and crime.
Yet, in all that sea of names and sometimes faces, he seemed to find his way easily, and, after twenty minutes, he finally hit on the right one. The one he was looking for.
Matthew B. Walsh
16.08.2023-21.10.2049
People die, memories are forever.
The epitaph, it seemed, was the epitome of irony considering the situation, and he found himself smirking as he stopped in front of the grave, gazing upon the memorial plaque. The date immediately struck him, seeing as today marked just one year since this man had passed. If anyone wanted to talk about strange coincidences, this was it. It couldn't have become stranger than this, and yet, he had not the first clue about what would be next.