I like posting to this thing late at night for some reason... I think it's because I spend the nights largely alone, reflecting, listening to music. Lets me absorb the events of the day. Does anyone even read this, other than me?
I just wanna vent about RPing for a moment.
Negatives: Been trying my ass off to get some new RPs in. One attempt died in the plotting stage. Someone else just completely vanished during plotting. I've written a starter that wasn't replied to. I had another RP die off about 20 posts in. My current longest running RP (began in November) hasn't been responded to for a while, but I know they need to take breaks from time to time. Someone I've been writing with since I joined this site decided to ghost me. Minimal interest in my RT, rarely get interest in it or PMs with requests. It bums me out. This has all happened within the last ten days or so, the ghosting and RPs dying stuff. The lack of interest in my RT has been going on for months, probably more than a year. I consider myself to be lucky in I get two PMs over my RT in a month.
Positives: On the other hand, I do have one solid partner who gets back to me daily. I have been able to come up with a couple loose outlines for some plots that seem fun to me and I put them in my RT, just waiting for someone to come along and collaborate with me on them. I have another loose idea involving the ancient world that I'm trying to build up. I have a renewed interest in historical settings, especially ancient Egypt and Rome. I can bump my RT daily and hopefully some cool people come talk to me soon.
It's just a weird period. I'm feeling creative, have a ton of time to write and want to write. Just not having any luck pulling people in. And I'm not getting great chemistry with the people I've been approaching. Deciding to end an RP mutually or to cut off plotting is cool, not everyone vibes together. Ghosting in plotting is... Whatever. Never responding to an opener is kind of crappy, especially when you see that person lurking around. But it happens.
Getting ghosted by someone after two and a half years writing together... Honestly it sucks. Again, I still see them around site. I have no problem if you don't wanna write with me. I'll tell you good luck and thanks for the memories, send everyone off feeling good. I know that people who ghost have their own reasons for it (anxiety, fear of confrontation, etc.) and really feel for them but... I thought we were past that stage after writing together for so long. I don't expect or deserve anything but it just would've been nice to get some sort of message.
Vent over. I need to rest. All we can do is keep pushing (or in this case, bumping). Good things happen to those who wait and I've been waiting for a long time. Not giving up.
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