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SavageWhims

Planetoid
Joined
Jul 21, 2019
Location
Michigan
Wanted to put my journal here, at least for now, if only to introduce myself. I'm a dude in his forties, I have a successful career, I have been part of the BDSM lifestyle since I was barely legal as a Dom, and I enjoy writing and roleplaying. For those who care, I'm tall, I do have a beard, and I'm straight.

I don't currently have a BDSM submissive partner RL, so I'm always on the hunt for that. Although I do get most of my itches out through writing and roleplay now. No, not looking for a relationship, when I say partner I mean 'partner', someone that wants to scratch the same itches I do and then handle their own lives. Drama sucks.

Anyway, hello out there! If you haven't noticed, I do like to put NSFW content into my posts, keeps people on their toes. I will be doing that here as well, and sharing music, and building relationships with others.

If you're looking for a detailed partner than does a lot of crazy stuff, can play an evil character like no other, will do the realistic sexual things you need in your plays, or even just is open to do whatever... you've come to the right place.

Feel free to reach out to me in PMs with anything, I'll reply, even if I'm slow to do so.

Today's Video Pick, Marilyn Manson "SAY10", because this pretty much channels me when writing:


Oh, I didn't forget you, perv that came here just for the gif:

Just wouldn't allow me to embed it. ;)
 
I agree with you one hundred percent, Cindy... well, maybe ninety percent... as I find love and BDSM conflict a lot when it comes to certain kinks. :)

That being said, has anyone ever noticed just how writing goes when you're a roleplayer. I feel like sometimes I could have ten people set up with stories and still have nothing to write on that particular day. And sometimes I have one partner and I'm constantly writing. I've always wondered how that happens. I realize it's just a product of who you choose as a partner and how much time they have to devote to a particular story, but at the same time... I wish I had a button that would speed up replies when I have free time, and slow them down when I didn't.

Ah well.

Today's music video is Motionless in White's Necessary Evil. I love this one because I really wouldn't mind fitting some of this into a roleplay. Cult worship, lots of kink and crazy shit going on. Before I say too much, here it is:


As he says at the beginning, "Kneel before me..."
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As for your comment on writing partners, I agree....I have 6 plays going right now and every partner is vastly different. Some reply with little more than a paragraph while others write as if theyr'e re doing an essay....as for our.....uh, real life kinks...
I love my owner with all my heart and being a pain slut makes it even easier to show my devotion to her
 
I'll never get it, Cindy. But more power to you! :)

Ugh, gonna be home all day tomorrow, and I hope I have people that will keep me entertained the whole time. Thinking of changing that ad up too, just to ensure I have on there what type of person I am, what I'm looking for... that sort of thing. Don't want to have softies bail on me when we get started. :)

No music tonight, it's 1AM. Just smut. Enjoy. :)

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Hrm, decided to get a bit more specific in my roleplay requests. I'm going to be adding more as time goes on, as I have more ideas than just what is on there... but in case you're wondering where to find it, it's here.

Looking for intelligent partners with open minds and few limits to help keep both of us from being bored with the people here. :)

Something fun to look at:
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I love when you just open up a message from someone and it inspires you to create an entire city and background while sitting there. So much so that I am going to add it into my add tonight. Sprawl. Cyberpunk city. Can't wait to play around in it, will open it up to others in order to develop a cast of characters for it, from grounders to upper class. Establishing a continuity for it. All about that living world.

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So, two cool things today. Added just a bit to my Sprawl setting and my DnD party, which I DM, defeated Strahd after the two-year campaign through the Curse of Strahd storyline. Honestly, I'm pretty stoked about both of them... but more for the DnD campaign, as they nearly were killed as they went through everything a ton of times.

Oof. Hard to write tonight, because I'm pretty far into the bottle after hanging out with the group afterward. ;) So I'll keep it short with just a cool pic of Strahd van Zarovich and my music of the evening.

In case you don't know the Devil Strahd:

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And tonights pick for music. The absolute hottest forty year old you'll ever see fronting a band, Maria Brink of In This Moment:

 
Back at it, mostly because of the pandemic going on, but it could be worse right?

So, with working from home comes things that I have to do... like find ways to entertain myself when not working or doing Masters degree coursework. That being said, I've started up another game... and am debating on starting up some Wheel of Time based writing/roleplay that is a bit more smut-centric than the books while adding onto my Sprawl storyline and trying to get some writing going with others.

That being said, I hope the rest of you are doing well, have plenty of food, plenty of things to do, and are keeping yourself inside and safe.


Enjoy another chair related steampunk porn gif:
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And my current favorite:
 
So, in the spirit of venting, I have been listening to this all night now:

I know that most of us have shit that we think about that we can't do anything about that is well beyond the 'appropriate time' or frame that we can speak about it.

That being said, I'm going to share some of mine, from the miniscule to the major, these are things I think about all the time.

1. My parent's divorce. I was a Catholic school kid who did my best to please my father and mother. I played baseball, football and basketball. I was in the cub scouts. I volunteered to be an altar boy and in the choir. I did all of this while walking/biking to each of these in order to try and make my parents proud while being told to stay out of the house... be seen not heard... and having no one show up to my shit. And still it didn't help to keep things together.

2. My first fight. A girl named Elizabeth Green asked me if I thought I could 'beat up Ed Fair' while sitting in 7th period English the first day I was in public school... it was my 7th grade. I was a big kid, I said "I don't know." Because I didn't even know who that kid was... next thing I knew I was on the ground, dazed... hit out of my seat. I got up and grabbed my chair and whipped it at the kid while the teacher came back into the class. I got sent to the principal's office.

3. There was a girl in the mental floor of the hospital I spent my summer in during 7th grade. She wrote my like ten notes about how she liked me, and I barely acknowledged her. She attempted suicide while I was in the hospital... no idea why, but that weighs on me.

4. Fuck high school. I don't think about that because it's all a game. My next thought is in Iraq. 2005. My wife at the time has been cheating on me and telling me how she's going to take the kids. I open to a buddy on the way home for rec... he gives me hope. He dies two weeks after we both get back to the shit, IED... liquefies his insides and we can't do shit but watch him die. Thank you Joe Micks... more than you know.

5. Got sick. Ruined a relationship because I couldn't distinguish life-threatening issues from regular shit and how it made me feel. Something I'll forever feel sorry for given how I treated her because of how it affected my brain.

Anyway... top five...

I am listening to that because it helps me grieve and hopefully deal with things.

I hope you're dealing with your things too.
 
Been a bit, need to chill... gonna get high tonight and maybe write or play games. Hell, I'd head out and drink with my boys if I didn't have a big thing against drinking and driving. In the spirit of what I need though, here's some semi-chill Post Malone videos.

And thank god Friday is tomorrow. New schedule, still working, but at least I'm home.



 
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