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Esoterica

Esoterica

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I'd like to start by thanking those of you who have been welcoming since I first got here. I really have enjoyed my time here so far, its been about two weeks since I actually began playing but I lurked a little first. Its been one of the nicest sites I have been on, and I have been on quite a few.

I am a 39-year-old woman who enjoys writing in her spare time. Real life is about dealing with narcolepsy and seizures caused by a benign brain tumor, so the escape is a nice one to have. I appreciate the fact this place exists and I can come here to unwind.

Comments in my journal are welcome. Feel free to comment on anything at any time. I have no problems with that and in fact encourage it.
 
I'm so sorry to hear that you deal with narcolepsy. I can't imagine how tough that is for you. But yes, the community here has always been extremely welcoming and it's always great to feel at home somewhere.

What are your favorite types of stories to write / read?
 
I like fantasy and supernatural stories the best. I like things reminiscent of dungeons and dragons, and the Anne Rice vampire novels I grew up reading. I also occasionally enjoy a steampunk type story. I read and write these kinds of things, and I love being able to get outside of the norm for a good fantasy type story.
 
Lately, I have also fallen in love with a series of books called House of Theodan. There is an extreme amount of dark material in these vampire books, think Anne Rice with hardcore sex scenes between hot men and lots of darker themes that a lot of authors avoid such as branding, maiming torture, but I tend to have to be in the mood for that kind of stuff, its definitely not for the squeamish, and it also has its share of watersports.
 
I think the snow is beautiful unless I have to be walking out in it. I wonder how many people feel the same way? We got a couple inches overnight. Now if we only had our fireplace running.
 
So I want to take a night and just watch some scary horror movies all night long. Its been far too long since I did that. I won't be until tonight. I have to wait until really late as kids will be over, and they are too little for that kind of marathon. I will have to select a few movies for when I do have time though.
 
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I have not seen Haunting of Hill House yet, but from what I have read, it is right up my alley. I like movies about hauntings and ghosts in general, and I have probably seen every movie about that which has come out since 1980. Lol.
 
I'm going to be starting a Thanksgiving feast (Like many Americans) a bit early, and I'll be looking for a movie to watch, likely a horror movie as horror and romance are my thing. I hope everyone is having a great holiday weekend.
 
So what kind of thoughts do I feel like dumping here today? I have had a couple of stressful days. It's nothing in particular, it's just everything. Maybe I need a day or so of doing like nothing to diffuse.
 
HeyThereLittleBear said:
You should take some time to yourself! Self care is very important.
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I haven't taken a full 24 hours yet, but I got about 12 or so. Lol. It helped but I'm going to need more time than that to diffuse. My sister's kids had the day off of school yesterday because it was a true winter wonderland with snow and ice and slush, and everything but hot cocoa. The 12 hours I took alone made me feel a lot better. I need to do this more often. I push myself too hard sometimes.
 
This is probably not a huge surprise, but December may be more hectic than normal for me. With the holidays coming, there are more demands with family. I'm not going to Mars for the entire month or anything, but my availability is going to be sporadic. Thanks for being patient with me, partners and friends.
 
So today I have a few thoughts about roleplaying in general that occur to me and the situations I recently had with another writer. We were talking about doing a story together. Initially, I was very irritated because every time I asked this particular question, and I asked it like 3 times in 24 hours, this person would log out. Maybe I was reading too much into that, but it was a little annoying that we talked about the rp so much, and the only question I couldn't seem to get an answer to, is where do you want to rp? I think that is a very important thing to know, and it just doesn't make sense that we discussed so many other details, tons of little things even things that don't strike me as important, but I cannot seem to get this individual to answer one of the most important questions, where are we roleplaying?

The on another hand, I had someone else tell me that perfectly clear pictures were blurry, instead of telling me the truth that he didn't like them and wanted to use his own. Why don't people just be upfront and honest with each other? Anyway, one thing I cannot stand from a partner or a potential partner is being talked down to or being disrespected, and to b.s. me about something like that instead of telling me the truth is disrespectful.

Anyway thank you for tuning into my random thoughts today on roleplaying and reflections on a few situations that I found myself in. Tune in next time for whatever bullshit ramblings I have to share with you.
 
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Sometimes it is very hard to know how exactly to word letters you send to others you are roleplaying with. I had this idea, to share some templates of short and to the point letters that I wrote which can be used to communicate needs to your partners and prospective partners. Feel free to borrow such things or tailor them to your own needs, or let me know what you think of these letters in the comments below:

Letter One: Thank you for your interest in roleplaying with me. Unfortunately, at the present time, I am not looking for any new partners and I am closed to partner requests. I am sorry to inform you of this, and I wish you the best of luck in your future roleplaying endeavors.

Letter Two: Thank you for having shared this role-playing experience with me. However, I regret to inform you that at this point in time, I no longer wish to continue our roleplay. I am sorry to inform you of this, and I wish you the best of luck in your future roleplaying endeavors.

Letter Three: Thank you for having shared this role-playing experience with me. Currently my muse for this story is not here, but if you are agreeable, I do not wish to abandon it completely, but put it on hold. Please let me know if this is something you are willing to do or not.
 
So guys, if you are my writing partner and you actually read this thread, I'm sorry Discord is being so messed up today. Pm me if you need me until it starts working like it's supposed to again.
 
I have had a case of the weird muse lately. I find my muse cycles. I go through periods where I want nothing but Slice of Life, I go through periods where I want nothing but Fantasy, I go through periods where I crave Sci Fi, I go through periods where I crave Horror, but lately, and this has never happened to me before, I am going through a period where I am craving absolutely weird things like Goat Headed non binaries, Aliens, and Silent Hill monster non con. I have no idea what my next craving is going to be, but it wouldn't surprise me if it was Comedy or Sweet Romances.
 
So I want to work on World Building, which takes photos for what I wish to do to illustrate what this world I am creating looks like, but I cannot get Imgur to work with uploading photos. This is so frustrating.
 
Esoterica said:
I am going through a period where I am craving absolutely weird things like Goat Headed non binaries, Aliens, and Silent Hill monster non con
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This has happened to me so many times, craving pairings and situations that are as diabolical as they are bizarre. Until the next day when I would want something totally different.

Sorry imgur isn't working for you, Esoterica. I used to use Google Drive for all my hosting and hotlinking once but then it got too complex. Best of luck with your world-building! It can feel so accomplishing when you are done.
 
Esoterica said:
... things like Goat Headed non binaries, Aliens, and Silent Hill monster non con. I have no idea what my next craving is going to be, but it wouldn't surprise me if it was Comedy or Sweet Romances.
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Goats are awesome,and I think having them as NB would be pretty cool, considering how they're used to present a very male/masculine image at times.

I feel you on the cravings though, mine often go through cycles!
 
SlurmMcKenzie said:
This has happened to me so many times, craving pairings and situations that are as diabolical as they are bizarre. Until the next day when I would want something totally different.

Sorry imgur isn't working for you, Esoterica. I used to use Google Drive for all my hosting and hotlinking once but then it got too complex. Best of luck with your world-building! It can feel so accomplishing when you are done.
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I am really enjoying the progressing of my worlds. As I have gotten into them and discussed them with friends, they have become more and more fleshed out and close to being ready to actually use in a roleplay. I'm going to feel very excited when they are totally done.
 
Judge Red said:
Goats are awesome,and I think having them as NB would be pretty cool, considering how they're used to present a very male/masculine image at times.

I feel you on the cravings though, mine often go through cycles!
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I was actually inspired by the stories of Baphomet. Furry type nonbinaries have popped up in a roleplay before, but they are usually very feminine in appearances like cat-women and wolf-women types, and I totally wanted to get away from that and have more of a masculine identifying non-binary. We will see how that goes over.
 
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