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Re: * ~ Kitty Dreams ~ *
Well, I keep bouncing between threads and making random journals. Totally forgot about this one and since its still rather set up nicely and all, Iâ??ll get back to using this one.
Anywaysâ?¦
Luckily, sheâ??s fine. It was probably not the best feeling to get stomach pumped, but Iâ??m glad that they were able to get to her in time. This lead to a number of strangely timed bad things. I had already been fighting the touches of swine flu, but it wasnâ??t too bad that I had been hospitalized for more than a day or two. My motherâ??s suicide attempt was something that was more than enough to deal with. But then came the family deaths, the hectic schedules of the holidays, and the trip to China for one of the funerals.
Life sucked hard all at once, so my roleplaying has been affected; again, apologies to all RPâ??ing partners.
Anyways, weâ??ve been on a wait list of sort, to buy a few tickets to China at the last moment. It is the holiday season, so we hadnâ??t expected to get seats in general, but hoped to make it to my uncleâ??s funeral. We did, but it was such a surprise rush for me, that I had to prepare the very day and rushed out. It wasnâ??t a long tripâ?¦ well, it was, but Iâ??d slept through most of it, so it didnâ??t feel that long. The funeral wasnâ??t as tearful as I thought it would be, but the man was rather old, so most of us expected for him to hit old age. It was something we had come to terms with, and sad to say it, but I wasnâ??t extremely close to him. Hard to find emotional attachment, I suppose.
So after that, a day or two later, we have a family gathering in light of the funeral. More out of traditions in my family to have a party to honor the death of a person, so that they departed the world with a final glance to know that their family members were able to go on with their lives and be cheerful. Not sure how much I believe into that, but it does hold a peace-of-mind aspect to it.
However, my cousins and I were bored out of our minds, since most of the gathering things were focused on the older generation and traditional things they did. So, we found the boozeâ?¦ and then, we found a roomâ?¦ and things lead to one another and the shit went down. Well, not that bad really, but my mind expands it to be bad. Either way, I guess itâ??s best to note that not all of us are related by blood. In fact, Iâ??m not sure some of them are related to me in any ways, other than the title, seeing as their family members arenâ??t even my family members through blood or marriage.
There was eight of usâ??myself, my boyfriend, my Chinese cousin, two American cousins that came for moral support, a Viet cousin, and two cousins that I question their relation to me. In the room, we were rather drunk off our asses and just kind of paired off. I think of it as an octet-some, since there were eight of us on and near the bed. Technically, group sex is something similar to pairing off and sharing every so often, yeah? Well, anyways, we didnâ??t really have sex. No one actually touched me besides my Chinese cousin. The others had paired off to do their own thingsâ??mainly girls against girlsâ??but my BF had paired off with my only male cousin present. It was rather hot and I got pictures, so I guess the night wasnâ??t a lost. But even though I didnâ??t get beyond making out in the French kissing-only kind of thing with my cousin, it was enough to make me kind ofâ?¦ out of it.
In the end, my grandfather was the one who found us. Luckily, the family is pretty liberal, because man, he would have popped a few vessels at the sacrileges we were committing. That ended that night for us, and no more booze was to be hadâ?¦ le sigh, eh? All in all, things kind of just got left as it was, and we all headed home the next morning. On the ride home, my boyfriend did mention that even though weâ??ve kind of let the whole threesome thing leave our nest, he wasnâ??t opposed to having a threesome/foursome once more.
Off on a random branch, Iâ??d have to say that while it seems like BF and I are wild kittens, when I count back on the times that we had gone through with said actions, it counted up to barely two handfuls. We both like to tease, and we tease each otherâ??s fantasies a lot. Weâ??ve had only invited someone else into our bed with us a few times, and that had always been a mutual agreement between BF and I, and the third party, since we had to tell the person straight up what we wanted and expected, and vice versa. Things have considerably settled down for us though, so I think weâ??re just tipping the edge of what we consider the wild-youthful-years, and into the progress-towards-a-stable-life.
Moving onâ?¦
So now, here I am again, back on BMR and trying to ease back into things. Admittedly, Iâ??m only typing this out to use it as a way to get my thoughts on what happened out and somewhat off of my mind. The moment with my cousins, though not as bad as it could have been, made me feel â??unsexyâ??. Now, Iâ??d have to thank a certain MM for trying to help me out of that funk, and in a sense, Iâ??m not too bad on it. But yeah, itâ??s just going to float around with me for a bit, and Iâ??m probably going to be trying to shake it off for the next x days.
BF is doing his best to help me though, since he doesnâ??t think that a bit of booze-induced make-out was too bad. But it certainly made the trip to China a memorable one, even despite my uncleâ??s death. Personally, Iâ??m not too burdened down on that part of life, but the constant surrounding of depression had weighed me down a bit. Trying to keep my chin up, and the holidays provided a good distraction. My sisterâ??s party is tomorrow actually, for a late Christmas with friends, so Iâ??d have to be missing for the most part of the day. School is starting up on January 4th as well, so that means that Iâ??d have school to keep me busy. It might be a bad idea, but if I have things pushing me along, then it helps me not sink into depression due to bad things around me.
Things are looking rather well with the road to recovery for my mother, and for those around me, things arenâ??t looking too bad. Well, letâ??s hope for the best.
<3
Well, I keep bouncing between threads and making random journals. Totally forgot about this one and since its still rather set up nicely and all, Iâ??ll get back to using this one.
Anywaysâ?¦
â?¿ To China! â?¿
Letâ??s do a recap of things that has happened to lead up to how I am right now, shall we? First off, it all started with my motherâ??s fallout. Sheâ??s chronically/medically depressed, so we knew she was taking medicine for that. However, weâ??re not quite sure what tipped her over and made her get deeply depressed all of a suddenâ??she had been taking her medicine on time. I was at school when it happened, but when I got home, I was left a message from my father that he had found her in the bedroom, having overdosed on medication, and had brought her to the hospital.Luckily, sheâ??s fine. It was probably not the best feeling to get stomach pumped, but Iâ??m glad that they were able to get to her in time. This lead to a number of strangely timed bad things. I had already been fighting the touches of swine flu, but it wasnâ??t too bad that I had been hospitalized for more than a day or two. My motherâ??s suicide attempt was something that was more than enough to deal with. But then came the family deaths, the hectic schedules of the holidays, and the trip to China for one of the funerals.
Life sucked hard all at once, so my roleplaying has been affected; again, apologies to all RPâ??ing partners.
Anyways, weâ??ve been on a wait list of sort, to buy a few tickets to China at the last moment. It is the holiday season, so we hadnâ??t expected to get seats in general, but hoped to make it to my uncleâ??s funeral. We did, but it was such a surprise rush for me, that I had to prepare the very day and rushed out. It wasnâ??t a long tripâ?¦ well, it was, but Iâ??d slept through most of it, so it didnâ??t feel that long. The funeral wasnâ??t as tearful as I thought it would be, but the man was rather old, so most of us expected for him to hit old age. It was something we had come to terms with, and sad to say it, but I wasnâ??t extremely close to him. Hard to find emotional attachment, I suppose.
So after that, a day or two later, we have a family gathering in light of the funeral. More out of traditions in my family to have a party to honor the death of a person, so that they departed the world with a final glance to know that their family members were able to go on with their lives and be cheerful. Not sure how much I believe into that, but it does hold a peace-of-mind aspect to it.
However, my cousins and I were bored out of our minds, since most of the gathering things were focused on the older generation and traditional things they did. So, we found the boozeâ?¦ and then, we found a roomâ?¦ and things lead to one another and the shit went down. Well, not that bad really, but my mind expands it to be bad. Either way, I guess itâ??s best to note that not all of us are related by blood. In fact, Iâ??m not sure some of them are related to me in any ways, other than the title, seeing as their family members arenâ??t even my family members through blood or marriage.
There was eight of usâ??myself, my boyfriend, my Chinese cousin, two American cousins that came for moral support, a Viet cousin, and two cousins that I question their relation to me. In the room, we were rather drunk off our asses and just kind of paired off. I think of it as an octet-some, since there were eight of us on and near the bed. Technically, group sex is something similar to pairing off and sharing every so often, yeah? Well, anyways, we didnâ??t really have sex. No one actually touched me besides my Chinese cousin. The others had paired off to do their own thingsâ??mainly girls against girlsâ??but my BF had paired off with my only male cousin present. It was rather hot and I got pictures, so I guess the night wasnâ??t a lost. But even though I didnâ??t get beyond making out in the French kissing-only kind of thing with my cousin, it was enough to make me kind ofâ?¦ out of it.
In the end, my grandfather was the one who found us. Luckily, the family is pretty liberal, because man, he would have popped a few vessels at the sacrileges we were committing. That ended that night for us, and no more booze was to be hadâ?¦ le sigh, eh? All in all, things kind of just got left as it was, and we all headed home the next morning. On the ride home, my boyfriend did mention that even though weâ??ve kind of let the whole threesome thing leave our nest, he wasnâ??t opposed to having a threesome/foursome once more.
Off on a random branch, Iâ??d have to say that while it seems like BF and I are wild kittens, when I count back on the times that we had gone through with said actions, it counted up to barely two handfuls. We both like to tease, and we tease each otherâ??s fantasies a lot. Weâ??ve had only invited someone else into our bed with us a few times, and that had always been a mutual agreement between BF and I, and the third party, since we had to tell the person straight up what we wanted and expected, and vice versa. Things have considerably settled down for us though, so I think weâ??re just tipping the edge of what we consider the wild-youthful-years, and into the progress-towards-a-stable-life.
Moving onâ?¦
So now, here I am again, back on BMR and trying to ease back into things. Admittedly, Iâ??m only typing this out to use it as a way to get my thoughts on what happened out and somewhat off of my mind. The moment with my cousins, though not as bad as it could have been, made me feel â??unsexyâ??. Now, Iâ??d have to thank a certain MM for trying to help me out of that funk, and in a sense, Iâ??m not too bad on it. But yeah, itâ??s just going to float around with me for a bit, and Iâ??m probably going to be trying to shake it off for the next x days.
BF is doing his best to help me though, since he doesnâ??t think that a bit of booze-induced make-out was too bad. But it certainly made the trip to China a memorable one, even despite my uncleâ??s death. Personally, Iâ??m not too burdened down on that part of life, but the constant surrounding of depression had weighed me down a bit. Trying to keep my chin up, and the holidays provided a good distraction. My sisterâ??s party is tomorrow actually, for a late Christmas with friends, so Iâ??d have to be missing for the most part of the day. School is starting up on January 4th as well, so that means that Iâ??d have school to keep me busy. It might be a bad idea, but if I have things pushing me along, then it helps me not sink into depression due to bad things around me.
Things are looking rather well with the road to recovery for my mother, and for those around me, things arenâ??t looking too bad. Well, letâ??s hope for the best.
<3
