Sometimes I think my standards are too high. I expect people to be better then I am. I think this is a bizarre holdover from that long gone time when I had low self-esteem (If ya can believe it). Problem is, In the areas where I suck, it's easy to be better then me, and in the areas where I excel, it's nigh-impossible. Talent, affection, stability, these are things that most people have a modicum of ability in, and I am severely deficient. Logic, problemsolving, and intellect are rather harder to come by, and I have crushing amounts.
So where does this put me?
An emotionally void psychopath, who uses his damage to the best effect, to handle himself logically and work through his problems expediently. However, empathy is a casualty of this process, and typically when I seem empathic, I'm faking it. It doesn't matter what the empathy is for - Say what they just said back to them in new words, apologize, and offer condolences/assistance. Easy formula. The problem comes when I stop going through the emotions and actually become involved. That's when my standards come into play.
I can't comprehend what it's like to have never researched, learned, understood, considered, and decided. And if you can't do those, you listen to the one who has. Seems logical, right? Very. Make the best decision based on the information at hand, or go with the recommendation of the person who has the best information. But emotions don't work that way. Not everyone is as detached from their own minds as I am. Is it fair of me to EXPECT that level of detachment?
Trygon mutters to me about those like me - The dragons, and why he favors their company.
A saying I love:
The human brain says 'End war!'
The mammal brain says 'Go to the peace rally.'
The reptile brain says 'Kill him, fuck his wife, THEN go to the peace rally.'
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