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Since I promised WIN and HATS....here is WIN and HATS!
Every year I head of to the TX Ren Fair (2nd largest in the world and growing) several weekends between Oct and Dec. Two years ago Dub comissioned a coat by Ravenswood leather to create him the coat from Botherhood of the Wolf. People loved his coat so much the leather shop began to get huge inquirries for it, before finally deciding to sell them. This is one of the pics taken for the 2010 Calendar. The only thing that would make the picture more awesome...would be the fact he hadn't forgotten his caplet, that goes with the coat, at home.

Group Shot


Now onward to Hats!
I am a costume whore and as such I have quite a few different costumes when I run around fair. This year I finally get to run around as the Chinese Consort...although it will be while hanging out with the pirates and silk road traders instead of the mongols..kinda had a falling out with them....loosing track, back to hats. One of my favorite hats never felt complete to me so I had been talking to one of my pirates who gave me the long ass macaw feather above, then I spoke with my friend at the bird sanctuary who gave me another macaw feather and some peacock tail and wing feathers. Dub had previously given me the blue ostrich and I had put my dragon Donka on there the moment I bought it. Finally I feel happy with this hat. So pics!


AND THERE YOU HAVE IT. HATS AND WIN!
I'll see about more win tomorrow.

Re: “As the RAPE Turns”- Your Daily Soap Opera Fix

No more win for the time being...

Went to my doctor today and she had reviewed the test results that my surgeon had said she reviewed and found not a single thing wrong...only to find something very wrong on the report sent in by the CT Tech. Dumb cunt didn’t read the report is my only guess or didn’t want to deal with having to send me back for surgery. Well guess what Surgeon I wouldn’t let you cut me again if my life depended on it. Especially after, two different doctors have referred to your incisions as “incorrect” and damn near “maiming”.

So off the Akuma goes to see specialist to see if he’s going to send her directly to the OPERATING ROOM (which is where my PCP says I should have already been) or if he’s going to put me through the test from hell…before sending me to the OR.

Good bye Gall Bladder…As much as I love all things Akuma, I am really beginning to hate you so...

Re: “As the RAPE Turns”- Your Daily Soap Opera Fix

It's a sad sad day when your boss walks you over to the calendar and starts scheduling time for when you can be sick since they don't have time for it now...
"The weekend of July 4th seems to work best for us. You can be off that Friday if we're not too busy and we're going to be closed Monday. Yeah that works."

Yeah...tell that to my body who seems to be waging mad war. My temp has been steadily climbing which while worrisome to the PCP doesn't seem to concearn work.

My mom's comments were just as fun. "Just think...this is God's way of telling you to loose weight" Thanks mom anything else to add? "Hold off on surgery as long as you can so you can loose as much weight as you can." Thanks mom I'll consider that.
To her credit she did say that about a week ago when the info that my Surgeon had lied wasn't known. She's now going with me to the specialist to hold my hand...in June...cause work won't let me go sooner. >.<

I forgot to add my favorite thing about this whole mess. I had the ct test an they rushed the results to the surgeon...she took two days to get back to me despite the fact she got them the same afternoon. She then told the nurse to tell me via a note on the results that "RESULTS: NEGATIVE FOLLOW UP WITH PCP" less than half an inch from the line saying that there was an issue with my gallbladder. I loved it and so did my PCP...who proceeded to call the surgeon an idiot.

Blue moon has become such a FAILfull place it makes me sad. What was once a happy place filled with escapism is now rife with all the petty bullshit from High School....except with more "village bicycles". Hard to believe isn’t diary, but it totally true. The self righteousness and backstabbing is so bad it makes me want to stab things…

They destroyed the PVP, which was once a place to kill stupidity, by filling it to the brim with PMSing bitch fests. I think BMR slitting is its own wrists like the little emo kid that sat next to me in English class. I wonder if he got over his Oedipus complex yet…

Yours always,
Akuma

This cracked me up Akuma! Thank you. I needed the laugh after a long day.

When you fill any place with different personality types who have different opinions and ideals, it's easy for it to turn from a logical and rational place to high school. PvP has always been petty though; haven't seen a topic that wasn't nit picking at some other person's opinions, views, ideals, lifestyle, wording, all that jazz.

You're welcome DTD! <3

I wish it wasn't illegal to kill stupidity. I mean who really gets to make these rules? stupid people that's who! They're plotting against me to keep me from fixing the gene pool by making stupid people not only anti-aku deathproof, but allowing them to breed. It's all a conspiracy...I'd blame the Government, but they're kicking their own asses right now. Oh Diary, I sometimes wonder why I am stuck here.

Yours always,
Akuma

I really wish people weren't as dumb as they come off as. Having to keep explaining that, "No I'm not fucking ignoring you," over and over again just makes me want to ignore them. Also having to keep telling people "No, I am sick," is also getting rather old.
How sick you ask Diary? Well let's see: Fever has been lingering in the 99.1-99.9 phase for a few weeks now, while hospitals don't consider a fever until over 101, my PCP is worried. My normal body temp is 97.4. Last night (after a fight with Dub that resulted in my ass jumping out of a moving car and walking home) I hit over 100. Pain on a scale of 1-10 is a constant 7 with long periods on 9-10. Food I'm actually able to eat has decreased. Can't sleep.
What does all this mean? Well either infection is still there, the gallbladder is going faster than expected, and/or there is the possibility of the C-word attacking my internal organs. No I don't mean "cunt" Diary. It would be interesting to see a cunt attack my organs...I should make a porno of that...
Anyways, I'm off for the time being Diary. Hopefully I can make it to the specialist on Friday...couldn't even make it to the ER last night. *sigh*

Your's for the time being,
Akuma

:-(

I love you, Aku. You have the best of my vibes!

Thanks guys. *snuggles*

So I saw the new surgeon yesterday and go in for surgery tomorrow. Finally.
Oh diary, we are now at three different doctors calling my previous surgeon retarded. Let's just hope the damage isn't as bad as they are thinking. I am currently on watch to make sure I don't go jaundice before tomorrow. So as long as I can make it through the surgery and they don't have an issue with my liver or I bleed out (which sadly is a possibility at the moment) and then wake back up (Took 3 times the normal amount of time last surgery to wake up and I wasn't as burnt out as now) we'll be in the clear.

See you on the other side hopefully,
Akuma

I've been thinking of you a lot lately, and you have all my best vibes going down your way! You'll pull through, the vibes are just to speed that along faster.

AKUMA UPDATE FROM HER FAVORITE PERSON!
Akuma lived through surgery and made it home fine. She has had some complications and said maybe she might return in the near future. She is currently dealing with the fact that half a week after surgery she ripped her stomach incision opened and it still is open and causing issues.

Thanks- Kitsune