Rock Hard Ballerina (CLOSED)

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Ito wasn't usually one to apologize, but Aki despite the punish assignment he had been given had looked good on the stage tonight with the kid. He figured he give the kid a break and offer him a intermission solo. He get to dance all by himself up there. It was the best "You did a good job!" Ito could think of. Ito hadn't seen Yuji after the party but then that wasn't unusual, Yuji wasn't for partying. he was however surprised to find Yuji not at his suite--nor did he answer his cell. Ito made his way to Akira's room. He'd kill two birds with one stone, offer Aki the intermission solo and ask if he had seen Yuji. Grinning and pleased with himself, he knocked on the dancers door.

Yuji sucked and licked Akira with relish. Fingers still shiny from the Vaseline of earlier, he stroked them smoothly along Akira's crease, before sinking a finger into the warmth of that puckered hole. Yuji was impatient this time so he was only able to pump his finger a few strokes that left him panting and throbbing to feel that warm tightness wrapped around his pulsing cock. Yuji's eyes glittered with need, and lust as the hard planes of his body covered Akira's. He pressed the whole of his heated length, right past the tight sphincter and into the dancers welcoming body. Groaning, Yuji claimed Akira's lips again, and began thrusting as waves of passionate lust rolled over him.

He didn't even hear the loud knocking on Akira's door.

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Akira was too busy with the pleasure that he never heard the knock on the door and moaned loudly again as the other pushed into him. And wrapped himself around the other, moving his hips as well. He was still moaning when he finally heard the knock at the door. He glanced to it, but decided they were being quiet enough that there was no need to worry about whoever was at the door. It was probably just one of the girls or something like that. No one would have a key.

Akira gasped again, as Yuiji hit a lovely spot inside of him. "Y-Yuji" he moaned, pulling the other closer to him. He felt the starts of a familiar feeling and tried to keep it while pushing it away so this wasn't over as quickly as he felt it had started. If he could he would have made it last until the end of time, but he was pretty sure few had an ability to make that happen.

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Strange. Ito usually didn't do the breaking and entering thing on the tour staff. But he did have key cards for the back-up singers rooms and the dancers. Only because after an incident in Singapore with an eating disordered dancer binge eating herself into a near coma, Ito took no chances. Aki should have been off those feet and propped up on ice. Maybe he was asleep? It was then Ito heard a low sound. It wasn't loud but it sounded pained--had the dancer been hurt and couldn't get to the door? Visions of how he had found Yuji drunk out of his mind worried Ito. . .What if Aki was sensitive and had done something to himself because of the manager. Hell! Ito pulled Aki's card from his wallet if he startled the dancer he would just apologize. He slid the card through the lock and opened the door quietly. Once inside he could clearly hear moans. Oh crap something had happened to Aki!

Moving quickly, Ito wasn't sure what he expected when he busted into the suite bedroom. Aki fallen, Aki massaging his feet, or even a drunken or perhaps food coma-ed Aki. But what he had NOT expected to see was Yuji's naked firm butt pumping to and fro, while his hips were slapping against a rather willing Aki, who was obviously liking the activity very much given how loudly he was moaning. If there had still been any doubt in Ito's head to Aki's gender or Yuji's sexuality--then it stopped right around the moment Yuji threw his head back with a yell, even as his hand was stroking Aki's cock between their screwing-like-world-was-ending bodies.

Yuji had not even realized he and Akira were providing Ito with his very first graphically hardcore gay porn show. He was too busy struggling to hold back his orgasm. Every move of Akira under him was testing those limits. Never before with any of his past partners had the sex been so good. Yuji wanted to scream and yell in delight, so he did. The eroticism of Akira's hands on him, the slap of their sweat moistened flesh meeting, even the incredible musky scent of their sex that permeated the room --all of it combined to make their union transcend anything that had gone before in Yuji's experiences. It was only like this with Akira, and deep down inside Yuji was glad. He only wanted to feel like this for Akira. There was pleasure and then there was ecstasy--being with Akira was even better than ecstasy. Head back Yuji open his eyes planning to lean forward to confess love to Akira, only to gasp in shock at an upside down stun faced Ito gaping at them from the doorway of Akira's suite bedroom.

"Ito!" Yuji immediately went protective of Akira and tried to yank a sheet around his waist at least and cover him.

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Akira moaned again, shivering after a while at the cold air that had seemed to enter the room. He figured it was just his pressing orgasm that was causing the temperature against his skin. He was so warm both inside and out. He bit his lip and shook his head, as his familiar feeling grew harder to keep down. He arched his back as Yuji screamed, pushing yuji further into him, moaning even louder. He smiled softly at Yuji when he saw Yuji start moving down towards him, he was about to wrap his arms around Yuji's neck, when Yuji said Ito's name instead of his. He pouted a bit, hurt, but when he saw Ito he forgot all about being hurt and blushed helping Yuji by pulling sheets he found near him, over his waist. He was more embarrassed about Ito finding them like this. He knew Ito knew about him, he glanced at Yuji, but Yuji didn't know that. He started to chew on his lip.

He was very nervous now, at least he was keeping an eye on Yuji. He held back a small smirk, he knew Ito would not be happy with that and neither would Yuji. He kept glancing back and forth Ito than Yuji, he felt like some slutty cheap romance novel. This stuff could happen in real life? He continued to blush and pulled the sheets further up his body. "I-Ito...w-what are you?" he asked looking down.

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The manager stared at the naked kids in front of him scrambling around to cover up the goods. He could already see Yuji hunting around in his head to figure out a plausible reason why: A) His "old friend" she.......was now a he and B) Why he was screwing said not a girl old friend senseless. Ito might have helped him out and and at least explained he knew about Aki--but the little devil in him thought this was WAY more fun.

"Um. . .uh. Hi Ito. . ." Yuji started lamely. He wondered how much had Ito seen? Did he know Akira was a guy. Yuji tried for distraction, "I thought you were at the after party still."

So the kid was really gonna go for "This isn't really happening" Ito thought almost laughing. Cute. Stupid. . .but cute. He addressed Akira first, since the blushing man looked a little put out by the interruption.

"I have a key to everyone's room except Yuji's. I thought you might might still be injured. I see you've recovered well though." Then turning his attention to his secretive client. "You might as well cut the crap you fruity little kid you. I saw everything. Not that I hadn't suspected somethings. But the male dancer that looks like a hot chick--that was a new one on me. Kudos. . .Though you're both gonna have to come up with a way to explain this to the rest of the crew. Maybe not the Aki's a man part. But you can't keep sneaking around or people are gonna ask more questions than they should."

"I was gonna introduce Akira as my. . . um. . . girlfriend at some point." Yuji admitted quietly.

"And you're OK with that?" Ito raised an eyebrow at Akira.

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Akira wrinkled his nose at Ito "Funny, with his reputation I would think you would have a key to his room." he said and still looked a little peeved at Ito. He was about to continue with his opinion of the situation until Yuji said he was going to introduce him as his girlfriend. He looked over at Yuji shocked. He didn't know what to say, not the first time since he had been with Yuji. He didn't even hear what Ito had asked he was just staring at Yuji. "W-what?" he asked, slowly, maybe it was just Yuji's way of getting out of this situation, a lie, but it could be...couldn't it? Akria bit his lip and kept his eyes on Yuji "You want to call me your girlfriend?" he asked, his eyes had turned serious. He wanted to know, he had to know if this was a lie, or if Yuji really felt something. Though, he had to admit, it would be just his luck and decent justice for what he did in the past.

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"Naaah til you showed up cupcake Yuji was pretty predictable--and I could usually find him where I had left him. The rest of yous. . .not so much." Ito grumbled dryly.

"You have a better explanation? I can't really call you my boyfriend. . ." Ito made a strangled sound at the word "boyfriend". Yuji took that as a no, plus as far as he was concerned it would solve the whole thing nicely. Feeling embarrassed to have to discuss this with Ito present he took a dig at the manager.

"Ito did you want some thing or are you gonna watch my bare ass as I walk over to get a pair of pants?"

"Ugh. . .no thank you kid. Strict kitty chaser myself." Ito said with a shudder. "I just came to tell your "girlfriend" to be ready with a routine cause when we touch down in the Red, White and Blue in a few days "she's" the new intermission solo. And now I bid thee adieu--you crazy kids try not to hurt yourselves with all the acrobatics." Ito was gone with the door shutting behind him.

Yuji was quiet for a moment. It was a fine line of getting along he and Akira treaded on and he didn't want to jeopardize it.

"I should have told you first. . .Um. . .But Ito caught me off guard. But at least if you pose as my girlfriend I can take you where ever and introduce you to the right people. I'm sorry if you don't want to be seen as a woman but there isn't much help for it at the moment. A girlfriend has more rights to be places with me than a friend does. I mean it would just be for show--you don't have to really be involved with me. I know you don't want me like that. You can even be all mysterious with your name and background. Only the people have the power to make your career need know anything. At the very least Ito can't bust in on you anymore uninvited or announced."

Yuji realized he was babbling at warp speed and finally fell silent and shut up.

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Akira stared at Ito now, he was going to be doing more solo shows. He nearly jumped out of the bed, but held back, one because he was naked, two because this wasn't the time he still had Yuji to deal with. He nodded to Ito "thank you." he mumbled watching Yuji, listening to him. He pulled his legs up to himself and kept his eyes downcast. So Yuji just wanted to pretend, fine, he could pretend, he didn't want to though. "A-are you sure? About not being involved...I-I mean, we both seem to l-like the sex." he said, quietly. "And...I don't hate you, if that's what you are thinking. I don't...I'm not..." he stopped and tried to figure out how to phrase what he wanted, definitely the first time he had done that since he was with Yuji.

How did someone say that they thought they were falling in love with you, without just outright saying it? Akira was finding it nearly impossible, but he had to try. "I don't not love you..." he said and frowned, that just sounded even more confusing than it already was, but he had to admit it was the easiest way to go about it, it didn't say he loved Yuji, but at the same time didn't say he didn't either. It would have to do.

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Inside Yuji was doing back flips! Akira wanted to be with him. . . kinda.

"I don't not love you..."

Well that wasn't exactly the same as "I love you" now was it? But Yuji, (ignoring the fact he had almost said as much himself in the heat of passion) had not said L-words to Akira either. Maybe they didn't need to now that they were older?

"We can try. I mean we can not pretend I suppose. I mean I do want you its not exactly a secret. But a year is a long time. You might hate me before we're even half way through the tour. How about. . . we not make promises to each other. No grand confessions of love or whatever. No extra people in the ear. We'll take it slow. That way no one gets hurt. And at the end of the year. . . we'll. . .we'll see." Yuji traced invisible circles on the rumpled sheets. This was a dangerous line he was walking, Akira might jerk him around all over again--but he could say no to him either. Yuji wanted to be with Akira he wanted what ever time he had, even if it meant being hurt all over again.

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Akira looked up at Yuji finally. "Ok." he said after a little while. "We'll take it slow..." he added, moving over and kissing Yuji's cheek. "I suppose we should both go to sleep. Don't want Ito coming back and yelling at us because we're too tired." he chuckled lightly, a blush still on his cheeks, half from remembering how Ito caught them, the other half because he was happy that Yuji didn't push him away. He moved so he was under the sheets, he didn't care about being naked right now, he just wanted to sleep. He would have wanted something else, but Ito had ruined that fun.

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Yuji smiled at the kiss on the cheek. He wasn't sure if he was suppose to leave when Akira slid down in the sheets. Worse he was still kinda achy and turned on. But Akira looked tired, and Yuji had never slept in a bed over night with some one he'd had sex with, and nor had Akira asked him to stay. He felt awkward asking. Akira had mentioned sleep but maybe he meant Yuji should go sleep in his own room. Maybe Akira wanted one last night alone, cause as far as Yuji was concerned Akira would share his rooms for the rest of the tour once they left the hotel tomorrow.

"Goodnight." Yuji touched Akira's hair lightly and then got up pulling on his clothes before he left Akira's room quietly. He went back to his own suite, but even when he flopped face down on his bed he still couldn't stop thinking about the dancer down the hall.

Or sleep for that matter.

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Akira had gotten up and sighed when Yuji had left, he sure did need to learn on how to be clearer. He shook his head, but smiled a little. One more night wasn't going to kill him. He turned down to bed and finally fell asleep, dreaming only of Yuji and dancing.

The next morning he was up and getting dressed and packing things so that he was ready for when they had to leave. he checked himself in the mirror, he had started to get used to checking to make sure he looked feminine enough to pass as female. And it was starting to bother him. He looked at his suitcase, filled with female clothes now that Yuji had cut his only pair of boxers and only male t-shirt he had. He frowned at this fact and figured it would probably be a little while until he got anything that even remotely resembled male clothing. He was just happy that it hadn't been brought up yet on how he had all these clothes.

Akira hesitated before leaving his room, but eventually found himself at Yuji's door, knocking lightly, not wanting to wake the other up, or disturb the other if he was busy, but Akira wanted to make sure what this whole pretending girlfriend thing entailed, and it was best to do it earlier than later.

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Yuji had a lousy night. He was still skeeved out over the way Ito had seen him, more over the fact his father like manager had SEEN him having sex rather then the fact of whom he had sex with. But it was just that, Yuji had gotten little sleep. He had never been anyone significant other before, neither pretend or real. What did boyfriends do exactly? Yuji had sex not relationships and the only person he had ever given his heart too had threw it back in his face. He didn't know what to do to stop it from happening again.

Was he suppose to buy Akira lots of things? Take him everywhere? Go on dates? And if he dated him where could they go that Yuji wouldn't have a fan recognize him? If they slept together did that mean they had sex or just sleep (Yuji kinda wanted a lot from column A and a little from column B). So many questions and he had no one to ask. Rockers who had been doing this like he had practically from childhood didn't have "bromances" plus Yuji was uncomfortably aware of his sexual preferences, none of which leaned to chicks as other guys would expect of him as an idol.

So when he opened the door for Akira he was still in sweat pants, and looking bed ragged.

"Hey." Yuji opened the door cautiously. He worried about that now too. he was really messy, how would he and Akira co-habitate when the dancer was so neat and precise.

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Akira smiled and bit his lip "May I come in?" he asked, just purely out of an old habit and he slid into the room, they certainly didn't need to talk about this in the hallway of a hotel. He looked around the room and sighed a bit "I see...the drunken night wasn't too far off on how you usually stay." he said and found a spot on the couch, sitting down. "look, I...I want to know what me being your boyf-" he stopped "your girlfriend" he corrected. "would entail, obviously cleaning things for you, which I suppose I don't mind too much." he looked over at Yuji.

He wanted to hear it from him, what he wanted Akira to do. He would listen, he didn't have a very long list of things he wanted Yuji to do, attempt to be kind, take him on 'dates' every once in a while and he would be satisfied. Akira was always pretty simple at least in terms of what he wanted. He was sitting on the couch in his usual ice queen manner, but it was easy to tell that he was just used to sitting this way, and had no idea that he was doing it.

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Yuji had the good graces enough to blush about the state of his suite, and he kicked a sock (hanging out like it was a little area rug by Akira's foot) in what he hoped was a discreet manner back toward his suitcase. He wasn't sure how to admit to Akira that he kinda didn't know what to expect since he had never dated anyone.

"Um. . ." Yuiji cleared his throat lightly. Well Akira did ask him. . ."I want you to lose the ice queen routine. I can't be comfortable with you when you're looking at me like I'm a kid who pissed on the wall. It's unnerving. Other than that I'm good with what ever you want. Is this where I give you my credit card so you can shop?"

Yuiji asked the last part in a completely serious tone. He truly didn't know how to have a relationship. It was kinda horrifying he had been better at this as a teenager. But he couldn't exactly take Akira for ice cream or ride him on the back of his scooter anymore. And he was reluctant to write the poems and songs to him as he once had. Honestly he would just be happy with a genuine hug follow by long tender sex that did NOT end with his manager standing over them, an argument, or one of them climaxing too fast.

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Akira blinked, confused. "Ice...queen..." he shook his head "I'm afraid I don't get it, I mean, I understand before...when I was, I suppose being an ice queen." he said, still unaware that Yuji most likely meant the way he was sitting prim and proper and the way his speech was. He couldn't much help either, but he was willing to try once he figured out what he meant. To him, ice queen was when he was angry or pissed off at Yuji, or when he was stand off-ish, he had no idea.

Akira chuckled and shook his head "No, not unless you want me to be like that. Honestly, I don't really shop." he said and bit his lip, he was treading into scary territory for him, it was rather obvious to him that he shopped. "And I definitely don't use other people's money when I do." at least that was true. He continued to bit his lip "Look, I'll try my best to make this as easy for you as possible, I've never really dated anyone. So I don't really know what is supposed to happen, I just know what movies and songs have told us." he said and shrugged. "And I go by what my feelings tell me to do, so...hopefully that doesn't leave us astray."

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Feeling a little better that he wasn't the only one with no dating practice, Yuji cautiously sat down next to Akira. He wasn't gonna admit to all of his trampy behavior over the last five years that replaced any intimacy, but he felt safe coming clean on his inexperience.

"I can at least replace the stuff I cut up last night. Are you sure you want your first um. . . involvement to be with me. I don't really date either--it just always seemed um. . . easier to screw someone and move on. I don't really know how to boyfriend anyone. Though I'm apparently an excellent hoe." Yuji wryly admitted. Then he knew he was gonna have to address it. . . somehow. . .

Their past.

"This ins't like last time is it? I am at least getting a fair shot? I'm not who I was five years ago. That's done, but nor do I want to be your sucker again Akira. If you're in this, I ask you be in all the way--no more games. I'm too old to play, and you always had the cards in your favor anyway." Yuji looked at him seriously. He didn't say it but he knew he'd be destroyed if Akira broke his heart again.

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Akira turned to face Yuji, "Of course you are." he said and looked down, he was still ashamed of how he treated Yuji all those years ago. "I don't want it to be like last time, Yuji." he bit his lip as he thought about what they had done so far. "Though, I don't really think we can really go back on the in it all the way...I mean..." he blushed "W-We've been in...all the way." he said, it was his very crappy attempt at being perverted in a way that would be deemed as funny.

Akira was not used to this, it was going to take time, but he was at least happy that it was going to take time on Yuji's part as well. "Don't worry about replacing my things, you'd have to buy girly things, I'm not exactly your size." he said. "And, I think I have enough girly things already." he said and looked at Yuji "And...I'll try my best with this ice queen thing...though I don't really get what you mean, just tell me or something when you see it."

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Yuji's mouth twitched, at least Akira was trying to loosen up. His jokes had much left to be desired--but it was a start.

"Err. . .I'm not buying you girl clothes. You can buy them and play pretend while I sort all of this out--but to me you're are and will always be a guy. OK maybe something of a pretty cross dressing guy--but guy!" Yuji grinned wickedly. "Besides I've never been with a girl--I wouldn't even know where to begin, since even the first kiss I stole came from you."

Taking Akira's hand Yuji flipped it over and looked at the small rounded nails. He use to wonder when he was a teen and falling for Akira--if he had been confused. If it was because Akira was pretty like a girl was the reason for his attraction. But he knew more now and was well aware it definitely wasn't that.

"You really do have a lot girl clothes though. The least I can do is replace your boxers since your giving up a lot of your freedom to be closer to me. Yuji teased lightly. "As for the ice queen, you run, anytime it gets hard or awkward you shut down and become really really cold to me. I don't like it and I want it to stop. Get angry! Yell, scream, throw stuff, cum loud like a porn star--hell I don't care. Just don't shut me out. Oh and by the way Akira this. . .what ever it might be is. . . um. . . exclusive--I won't share you with another guy."

Yuji knew it was high handed of him given Akira had found him with that dim witted idol; but Yuji knew even the thought of Akira with anyone not him would without a doubt make him insane. Possessive? Yes. . .but Yuji knew he would only want Akira from this point on--already did. No one else would do.

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Akira sighed a bit and nodded "It's not too much of a problem." he said and bit his lip "I'll try not to, but that's how I grew up, was to not confront things, I don't get angry. You know that." he said and tried to hold back a blush when Yuji suggested coming loud, he wouldn't think that would constitute anger, but whatever. He nodded "I don't plan on getting into a bed with anyone else." he said and watched Yuji look at his hand.

"We...we probably should get ready to leave, I don't want Ito thinking we're..." that did it, he was blushing like a tomato, he couldn't help it, the thoughts that came to mind every time he thought of Ito walking in on them were embarrassing and vivid. He had lots of very interesting dreams the night before, and just wanted them out of his head for the time being. There was a time and a place for everything, as his brother had always told him.

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"You know you're going to have to get over that. . . right? The "I don't want everyone thinking we're having sex" thing. A--It's pointless we have and are, and once you're sleeping in the same room with me no one is gonna believe we sit up and play cards at night B--we're going public, which means your going to likely get a heat and shade from the others for a little while, all of whom have flirted with me at one time or another. I'll try and buffer it as much as I can, but know that the other dancers are going assume you slept with me to get your job. While I get that might sting and you want to prove yourself, for the time being we'll have to allow them to believe it--having anyone question more than you being on my "casting couch" would be a disaster. If they ask you're an old girlfriend, and we reconnected in the City of Love--gay Par-is." Yuji grinned at the pun, and started yanking clothes on.

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Akira looked over and frowned a bit "I don't care about them thinking about us having sex, they already do anyway. Thinking is much different from knowing and then thinking!" he said "plus, it's how I got this job in the first place." he said "so it's not exactly lying." he added and sighed. "Ito...Ito knows everything, he's seen everything" he bit his lip "him thinking about it, is more like...I don't know, fantasizing to me. I suppose some of it is not wanting people to think it, sure, but more like I don't want them thinking were little bunny rabbits, when we aren't." he said and got up, heading to the door once Yuji was ready.

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"Speak for yourself!" Yuji shoved his stuff haphazardly in his suitcase dragging it behind him to set by the door. "If Ito "knows" everything then he probably already thinks I am a bunny rabbit. And he isn't xactly far off the mark. You're the one with limit hook-up experiences, not I."

Yuji followed Akira into the hall and considered telling the dancer that he didn't have his job because of the sex, but then he would have to explain about the revenge plot that he wasn't sure he should let go of just yet. Akira had not said he loved him, Yuji hadn't either--but he wasn't the one who hadn't given them a chance five years ago. But it still bothered him some Akira thought sex was the only reason he was on stage--which prompted Yuji to confess while they waited for an elevator.

"You deserve a solo you know. . .you're better than I remembered even from five years ago--and better than the others that were hired before you. Would. . . would you really have kept sleeping with me just to be on stage?. . . I mean if Ito hadn't walked in on us?" Yuji wasn't sure quite what he was really asking but it seemed Akira's reply was of paramount importance.

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Akira rolled his eyes "We are not bunny rabbits." he said "Though we both might like it, I'm not going to have sex with you...." he trailed off, getting quieter once they were in the hall "not going to have sex with you every waking second of the day or night." he said and blinked at Yuji. "I..." he hadn't thought about it. "If he still offered me the solo...no, I wouldn't have kept sleeping with you to be on stage." he said, he was very careful with his words, no need for Yuji to take them the wrong way. "If he didn't...I really don't know what I would have done." he said and looked down, he was ashamed of himself for not knowing the answer, it should have been no, right off, from the beginning.

He looked at Yuji, "I-I don't mean that I...I mean..." he sighed and couldn't think of how to explain what he wanted to say...or what he wanted to say in the first place. He frowned slightly. "I'm sorry, I just, I can't think of how to phrase things around you. I don't want you to take anything the wrong way."

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For a moment, Yuji didn't know whether to be relieved or slightly insulted. While he had not wanted to be used for Akira's fame--Akira was still proving himself untrustworthy. They had a deal. . . once. It was different now, but it meant Akira could not be trusted with his heart--not now.

Maybe not ever.

"Hmm. Interesting. So you were still going to dance and get what you wanted, even though we had an agreement that I wanted you in exchange. So I would have never gotten it. . . or well you?" Yuji held the town car door open for Akira with a thoughtful expression.

Sitting across from Akira, Yuji considered him, and making a decision in his head. He wasn't gonna beg Akira for intimacy or sex. It was demeaning. Though he really was a rabbit--he had his pride. If Akira wanted a sexless relationship between them, then he'd get it (even if Yuji had to wank himself silly in the shower in order to cope). But the sneaky dancer wasn't getting another whiff of him until HE was the one begging for it. Not after the stunt he would have pulled. Yuji refused to even consider he himself had been plotting far worse.

"Never mind then. You'll be a soloist which is good. There is someone in New York you should meet when we get there. He would have been at my show anyway, but he should see you before you debut on the stage." Mind made up to keep his legs proverbially closed, Yuji changed the subject. He'd keep his hands off the dancer even if it killed him.